it is the pill. the little stomach ache went away.
my doctor called and said my a1c went down to 6.2. before it was close to 7.
love
bobby

Bobby

I'm going to guess that the stomach ache came from the thought
of paying your credit card. And will subside with having paid it.
Or at least hoping so.

I hope the doctor can help you.

donna :hug::grouphug:

I think it might have been because I found out that in six months I probably won't be able to buy the pill. I am going to schedule an appt with my doctor and tell him how much the pill has helped me. There goes another 125.

Maybe he can help find a drug that is close to the same as this one.

I realize you have tried a lot. But also have you tried writing the
company and seeing if they have a program for those that
can't afford their medication. Sometimes they do.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I have too much money to get help from the company. the drug is unique.
I was going to ask the doctor how many he can give me as samples. I could buy six months supply when I am in the catastrophic zone.
I just told how brave you are to a friend.
fondly
bobby

my stomach ache is back. I hope the pill hasn't stopped

I have been meaning to congratulations on your lower A1C 6.2 is fabulous!
love bizi

It wasn't such great news. I wrote him and said because he doubled my medication was that the reason why the a1c was lower. He said yes.
He is even working today. He is so dedicated. He said he wasn't taking a vacation this year. I told him I was old and I wanted him to take a vacation lol.
I am still eating way too much which scares me. I just bought acacia fiber.
I think I have gotten a lot sharper with this med but manic. oops
Last night I talked with Aaron for an hour and got so stimulated.
I told him I thought alexander the great was bipolar and when I looked it up, it said he was. I thought so when I read he even murdered his friends and he had so much energy and was so brilliant. He died at 32 and accomplised so much..
aaron told me that most ceo's were psychopaths. we talked about everything. now i have another author Siegfried Sassoon who was a war poet.
I bought a lot of books on kindle. a lot were 99 cents.
right now I am listening to the Hobbit. i think i need to read it.
love
bobby

don't poopoo a double your meds it is so important for your body to have the lower a1c. Be gratefull that it worked!!!!!!!!!!!
haveing too high of a level is damaging your body silently. it effects your kidneys and eye sight where ever blood flows which is your whole body!!!!!!
So this is why I congratulated you.
you are taking the medication so you are involved with this success.!!!!!!
love bizi

Bobby

If I remember your dosage is 1000mg right? If so this isn't bad
at all. Its the same as mine. And I have to be really careful to keep
my a1c that low. So I really believe you are doing fantastic.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thank you so much. That is what I am taking twice a day.. I speak to a nutritionist on the 23 want me to ask her anything,
I don't exercise at all and right now I don't feel much better after the fall. it hurts to walk.
i have read differing things about cinnamon. i will ask her about that too.
fondly
bobby

I am still happy and still on a spending spree.I didn't eat as much today. I bought a new scale that I hope helps my trouble balancing problem. It is another digital.
I see the psychiatrist next thursday on the computer.
I just bought more books.
I guess I want to wait another week to see if there are any changes from my medication. It is making me a bit manic but it is so wonderful to be happy and not to be anxious or worried.Next week I go for a tooth cleaning and they might say I need some teeth pulled and another lower denture. Oh well if it is true then I will go to a hospital clinic where it would be much cheaper. I don't have anxiety over that!
I will call my gp tomorrow to find out if I have kidney damage or I just don't know how to read the results. With Praulent, the injectable medication my lousy cholesterol is so low now that my total cholesterol is low.
right now there is no change in my back pain from the bad fall and I have been taking advil.
I tried Acacia Fiber and it worked! Usually that kind of stuff clogs me up. Let us see what happens tomorrow.
i am manic.

I just wrote my youngest nephew an email and basically told him off . I guess you don't remember how Kay called them the little sh@ts.
I hope he doesn't write me anymore. He is toxic. The little f@#k didn't even comment on my wonderful volunteers. He did mention my fall.
Of course he thinks the president cares about us.
I I think I am finally totally cut off from all my family.
i do have one cousin but he doesn't call.

I think I worked it out.I get along very well with kind people. I learned from
Suri's daughter that she thought I was incredibly special and she was my best friend. She was incredibly special. I usually have always gotten upset with people who are either selfish or bossy.
I am not worried. I know of at least two organizations that provide the elderly with volunteers for company. Automatically they are kind people. When it is time to change volunteers I won't be alone but will have positive forces in my life. I do have only a few friends left since this past year I got rid of three and lost Suri.
The medicine is still working. My stomach is fine.Now I am not high. I am going to see if I can talk to the psychiatrist this week instead of next week.
I am wondering if he can give me something for overspending. I just bought four clothe masks for 5.50.
I now have to walk with my cane in the apartment. It hurts too much when I put weight on my right leg but it could have been so much worse.

just read that the fall can take months to heal. cancelled my dentist appt for wedneday
rescheduled my pdoc for friday 10;45 on computer

Did you sleep at all last night?
love bizi

2 HOURS
love
bobby

not good!!!!!!love bizi

i know. praying that your husband will be fine
love
bobby
rescheduled dental appt in another month. hope my legs and back are better

I just took a nap but the phone woke me. It was the dental office. I tried to find out how much
.teeth would cost to be pulled out. Finally she said it starts at 150 and then up. I was thinking of going to a hospital clinic but I can swing it. I think only one would cost a lot. Before the pandemic I was going every three months and two would cost me 125 and the third would cost 200.
I can't believe the medicine. I didn't get stressed out and anxious and figured out it wouldn't be that bad. I like the dentist.
Of course I haven't heard from my nephew and feel relieved.
I think I want to go back to bed. my back and legs feel a little better.
I have been listening to Josh groban since all night.
i don't feel well.

I am sorry that you are not feeling well.
yes it takes time to heal wounds.
If you are bruised then those will eventually go away, you may see green then yellow then normal it takes a while.


jeff is waiting for his pulmonologist appointment on the 22nd. He got the results of the cat scan from his cardiologist. He said mild asthma and lung noduals They are just going to watch them because they could get bigger and then turn into cancer.
yikes!
He will have a cat scan yearly.
bizi

i can't see the bruises because they are on my back. I called for free the nurse at united health care. she told me to use frozen vegetables as an ice pack but not directly on the skin. She told me to take Acetaminophen six pills a day. if it gets worse call the doctor.
she spent a half an hour talking to me,,,,a very sweet person.
she made me less afraid. the compression in my chest went away.
Can Jeff stop drinking? I don't know if he smokes. I feel so bad for him but I am so sure that he will be fine. Poor Bizi! I would be going nuts.
Love
bobby

my back feels a little better. Yesterday at times I had to bend over to walk to avoid the pain. I probably looked hysterical.
i dumped the few remaining klonopin on the floor but was able to find most.
i was depressed last night and early morning. I guess the Vraylar isn't as magical but not stomach ache!

finally I bought a digital scale that works fast enough that my balance doesn't interfere. it was so frustrating to weigh myself before.
Robot Check um sometimes the numbers were light

i just sat at my computer for almost an hour and MY BACK DIDN'T HURT. this is a first since the fall. Now let us see if I can walk a little.

I was just able to walk much better afterwards.
Maybe I will sit in a chair this afternoon.
what a relief. it might not take that long to recover.

Bobby

I'm so glad you thought to call the nurse. I was going to suggest
you go to the doctor. But that was much smarter right now.

I am hoping that the packs of vegetables are helping. And I think
the tylenol (because I can't spell the other) will help hopefully.

Keep up the good work.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

1st night AF weight this morning is 186.4.
I am in for this for a long haul, maybe until we go to indiana for the winter months visit. I will save money.
Jeff made me coffee this morning.
He is a good man!
love you,
bizi

He is a wonderful and talented man. Don't worry about the weight. When you want to it seems to drop off fast.
love you
bobby

thanks Donna. that nurse was so lovely and she said to call whenever I want to. She was so gentle and not scary. I wish I got her name. Today I feel so much better. It is amazing.I bet the frozen broccoli helped lol. I had read in different places that when you are old it takes a lot longer to heal. I am glad I cancelled my dental appointment. I think it is going to be bad news.
I got a message from my internist who said that we should schedule a telecommunication if I had any questions come up. He is an angel. I did write and say that my bipolar is not in remission as it says in his records. I mentioned that I was speaking to my psychiatrist this friday.
I am going to have two therapists. The new one will call me next week. I am excited. I think I need to work on my anger and feeling different now that I am on Vraylar. I can't explain why I feel different but I feel something.
Yesterday Marci and I had a great time listening to Leonard Cohen Hallelujah and I am a Man. She never heard him before.. We listened to it a lot.
Yesterday I unsubscribed to my nephew's website Breaking Matzo. I restrained myself and didn't write anything nasty as to why I was unsubscribing, He is a venture capitalist and now is selling a book on Jewish recipes etc.He got another award for something. He did a Ted Talk a while back. It is on youtube. His name is Andy Goldfarb. he is going against the talk. ambition should have been his name besides success.
I don't know how much longer Aaron and I will talk twice a week. He was only supposed to do it for a month. I find him just so enjoyable and stimulating. I am going to try to read a few poems by Siegfried Sassoon before I talk to him. He was a war poet. Siegfried Sassoon - Poems by the Famous Poet - All Poetry1 Siegfried Sassoon Poems Everyone Should Read – Interesting Literature Aaron just knows so many fascinating things and he is humble. I love talking to Aleya. She is very hard on herself.
love
bobby
found the book I wanted to read.

Hi bobby,
do you sit up in the chair to read?
glad that you found a book you were looking for.
I don't think your nephew will notice that you unsubscribed him.
glad that you have people calling on you.
love, bizi

I lie down when I am reading except for when I am on the computer.
Rats...I wanted him to know.
love
bobby

Bobby

You will know and that is what honestly counts. So don't worry about
it. He isn't worth the time or your anger. So just work on trying to
giving the anger to something constructive. I wish I could tell you
something to give it too.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

well trump isn't stressing me out like before thanks to the medication. i think though i feel sort of crazy. i am not at all peaceful. i wish i could take a walk.
i am using rose essential oil. I am out of control.
fondly
bobby

i am depressed. I guess the new medicine might be making me more manic and now not helping the depression, only the IBS, I wish I could cry.

I wish you could cry too, I think you have a lot to cry about.
(((((((HUGS)))))))
love
bizi

my stomach ache and gas are back so the medication is doing nothing. I just took another pill but I am thinking that there is no medication to help me.
I wasted 190 dollars buying those pills. i just took some peppermint capsules.the aapt with the therapist today didn't go well.. i wonder how much the fall affected my mental dishealth.
I just turned on music. the phone call with aaron was strained..

you don't have to read my posts. they are just too negative but I need to let it out.
the rabbi intern is coming on friday morning at nine. I haven't met her. I think I want her to say prayers.
Now I am not depressed. I don't feel manic.The extra pill helped. The stomach pain still here. Like a fool I just made coffee. Somehow it is soothing/
I called Joyce today to wish her a early happy new year. I pretended everything was fine now. I needed to hear her voice because she is so positive and I love her.. I will hear from my new therapist next week. I don't know now if I will change pdocs. Medicare would pay for it and if she gives me klonopin then I don't have to pay 50 a month that I do to my pdoc. she is the pdoc for Bruces' agency and she interviewed me before the agency accepted me. My therapist wants me to get honey which I have and an apple for the holidays.
I can't walk to the store and a cab would cost 8 dollars and I would have to spend 35 dollars to order from one of online supermarkets. I don't think I am going to do it.

Dear Bobby, I'm glad your body is healing from your fall. I hope you can get the medicines you need for everything. Also I'm so glad you are able to get all those wonderful books for such a nice price. Thinking of you. Hugs & love, WL :hug: :circlelove:

thank you so much. Right now I am reading three books at the same time.
I am reading Siegfried Sassoon's semiautobiography.. He is great writer.

Memoirs of a Fox-hunting Man
In this first novel of the semi-autobiographical George Sherston trilogy, Sassoon wonderfully captures the vanishing idylls of the Edwardian English countryside. Never out of print since its original publication in 1928, when it won the James Tait Black Memorial Prize, Sassoon’s reminiscences about childhood and the beginning of World War I are channeled through young George Sherston, whose life of local cricket tournaments and fox-hunts falls apart as war approaches and he joins up to fight. Sassoon’s first novel, though rife with comic characters and a jaunty sense of storytelling, presents his own loss of innocence and the destruction of the country he knew and loved.



He hated war and sometimes during the fighting he would stoop and write a short peom.
I am healing from the fall thank God. Taking another dose last night of Vraylar got rid of my depression and I haven't yet taken my morning antidepressant. I don't know what my doctor will do. I don't know if two will keep the depression away or after a couple of weeks that will stop working. I will find out tomorrow how many samples I can get. If I don't get half a years worth I can't afford them .
I am confused about the stomach pain and gas. I started using Acadia Fiber and in the past fiber has always made things worse/ I will stop using it and see what happens tonite. I finally went a little while ago and the pain is much better. I will still take maalox and peppermint.
when the stomach aches went away I started eating meat. I did lose a few pounds.

Last night and during the night everything seemed to cave in. I just couldn't cope.
This morning Abby came over and let me pet her. She is really gorgeous and so bright. I just love looking at her face! It is often times looks like a baby face. I hope you get Mitten.
I just bought another scale and hope the numbers are darker. I hope it is not more manic spending. I bought a colorful pair of pants last night.It is so very hard to be bipolar 2.
love and kisses
bobby

I ordered a lot of Healthy Choice soup...low in sodium and calories.

https://www.neurotalk.org/attachment...8&d=1514131164

She is beautiful!

Bobby

Good luck. We all have down days. I'm sorry you seem to have
more than the rest of us.

I've been having a few of my own lately. Just blah days.

Donna :hug::grouphug: