blue berries are so good and good for us!Slim fast makes these high protein drinks, they have a milk derivative so it you are lactose intolerant they are lactose free. one drink is supposed to hold you over for 4 hours, which is impressive. It is called advanced nutrition 20grams of protein 2 net carbs, 180 calories per meal replacement shake. I get the creamy chocolate. They come 4 to a pack and run about $8. I think.
here is to better nutrition.
love bizi

i am really quirky about food. most of the time nothing appeals to me. I just ordered wonderslim or something like that.
love
bobby

Sounds like your dong a great job Bobby. Keep it up.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I love slimfast, especially the chocolate ones.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

donna do you drink the high protein ones?
bizi

Since I have never heard of the high protein ones I would say no.

I will have to look for them.

Thanks for the suggestion.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

they are low sugar net 2 carbs. 180 calories and supposed to last 4 hours, meal replacement.
bizi

scale says i gained back the weight. just took a bath. am so depressed. i lost a set of household keys. my toilet was clogged on sunday. something might have dropped in it. the super used a snake finally but he still thinks somethings in there. robert will take me get my vaccine. he is so kind to me. God bless him. Yesterday he and Marci cleaned my computer. even the mouse and vacuumed the inside. Stella said the vaccine will kill me. I can't talk to her much.
am ready to use the walker in the hall. my friend called me yesterday and said if I don't exercise my walking will get worse. that scared me.
love
bobby

((((((HUGS))))))
love bizi

Hugs, Bobby

Think of the walker as a friend to use in the hall so that if you get
tired and need to sit down you can. Also that way you can walk more
often when you want too.

Also you can exercise more. By finding some exercises that you can
do by standing with the walker and doing them. Weird as it sounds.

I don't remember exactly but I knew my mom used to do some with
her walker.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thanks so much for the suggestions.
fondly,
bobby

bobby, do you have a walker with a seat?
love bizi

yes but I don't use it because I can't control it. listened to two lectures, talked to Linda and Cecilia, cleaned the cat litter and took a bath. Started the day very depressed but now just mildly depressed. just watched a little tv. plan to go to bed early tonight.
love
bobby

What do you mean that you can't control it?


love,

bizi

it picks up speed.
love
bobby

today was one of the worse days of depression. the only two i loved were morgy and snowball. they died a long time ago.

don't you love your kitty cats now?
love,

bizi

right now i am too depressed.

I know that you love your kitties, perhaps it is just hard showing them that you love them right now.
of course you love them.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

so angry at myself for not excersizing that i am getting worse. robert's coming over I stupidly jammed my printer.
Now for the bad news Linda was told today that she has breast cancer for the third time. She said she is relieved because she has had to get a mammogram and biopsy every five months and they can't put her out.

I am feeling better. I have another antipsychotic that I took but stopped using it because I gained ten pounds. It really stimulates your appetite.
Instead I am going to have to watch more tv. It helps take away the extreme loneliness. Pudge slept with me all night.

I am sorry for your loneliness , it must be so hard to get through.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I was in a danger zone for a few days but thank God it passed. I do love my cats and you and other of my friends but when II deeply in that depression everything was bleak. I decided to remind myself that that too will pass.
love you
bobby

Bobby

That is a good reminder. Its really cold here. And I hope it gets warmer later
today.

Donna

yes mamm,
This too shall pass.
Tell me again why your docor took you off of risperal?
(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

I don't remember but he put me on aplenzin,
love
bobby

yes he put you on the new antidepressant for major depression.as you know respirdal is not an antidepressant it is useful in stabilizing the mania, preventing it. It is an AP do you take any AP?
a typical antipsychotics? I take a small dose of haldol instead of geodon which had be keeping my manias at bay then it stopped working.so far I have not had to take zyprexa as a prn in months. I am glad that I have it in case i need it to sleep.....
love bizi

he put ne in vyalar (sp) but I gained ten pounds and got off of it. My major problem is major depression.
love
bobby

i also worry too much and suffer from anxiety. I have never been psychotic. I think risperdal stopped working.

Bobby

Maybe ask about an anxiety medication.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Hey Bobby! <3

Yeah! I've been taking Gabapentin for anxiety and sleep aid and it really helps! Your symptoms sound a bit more like mine with depression being more of a concern and the darn weight gain being an issue (it's not because of how i look, but how i feel. And well, i guess it really sucks when people comment about it, especially those who are my loved ones. Like they feel concern for my physical health, but do they even consider my mental health?! No, so that upsets me more. Sorry. Just a little worked up thinking how a big part of why i got off the med was from others bugging me so much. But i mean, it wasnt really working either.)

I feel i am rambling. Basically just wanted to send you a message because we dont talk that much anymore. Sending my best! <3

i am sorry ..I have really been having an awful day. gabapentin did nothing for me. I take 2 mg of clonapzam for anxiety.

bobby, I am sorry that you struggle...
((((HUGS))))
bizi

thanks so much. I have decided to take a new approach. I am not watching the news. I am hardly buying anything from ebay. I am going to try to get myself to walk in the hall more. I am going to try not to get upset that my stocks are down
all I will do is read novels and pet the kitties. reading has always been my grand escape. I have been reading since 3:30 this morning. yesterday a friend called and started complaining again about her impossible spoiled adult children. I let her have it and told her I had big problems and walking and balance are so hard. I told her that yesterday I fell backwards but thank God I didn't kill Aby who was sleeping on soft thingie that broke my fall. I forced her to listen and then I listened to her and I told her I loved her a couple of times and I want her to take better care of herself. she looks as if she is in her early sixties but she is in her eighties. I will listen to more music.
I will get more books for my kindles since I can change the fonts.
love
bobby

You sound great!!!!!congratulations on not watching the news!!!!!!
and reading again and yes do some more walking.I am sorry that you fell against something soft.
take care of yourself.
love

bizi

I just spoke with my pdoc and he isn't changing anything. I did tell my plans but my irritability and worrying is awful. he said to try to push myself and walk and that would help.
love
bobby

woke up really depressed. I listened to music all night, I am going to read now.
Love
bobby

did you get any sleep?
bizi

I did and part of it was very deep sleep . took a nap this afternoon. i am exhausted. I took the new medication-vyalar(sP) and am going to take it every other day. My doctor said it shouldn't have made me gain weight but I read a warning to say to watch it. How are you, donna and geeluv doing?
love
bobby

We went to a gumbo party for a guest friend of a friend.
I did not drink too much which is good.
I finished 27 bills and got caught up there.
I recently got some referrals of 7-8 new clients so tomorrow I will call the family members and get information on them. It is overwhelming to get that many all at once. they were faxed to me on thursday evening.
I saw one client today, Donna..is her name.I feel sorry for her. She is a high risk client and I should not be doing her.I have been seeing her for a long time. I let her talk, after my visit with her I told her that I thought she was doing good, before I left. This made her smile.
We will go and have brunch at our usual diner.BELT is my favorite breakfast sandwich.bacon egg lettuce and tomato on rye bread with mayo on both sides of the bread not toasted. and a side of brocolli. a lot of the servers know my order, lol.
Jeff is snoring I had better finish getting ready to sleep.
wash face apply moisturizer , brush my teeth, I already took my meds.
good night all and hugs to those that need them.
bizi