[mymorgy]

i hate being bipolar. i have been torturing myself all morning. i have made awful decisions. i am so depressed. i would repeat them. what a horror.

[mymorgy]

it is a nightmare. i got on the floor to plug in a kindle and couldn't get up. it is so frustrating. i was expecting a porter to bring up packages. he came and helped me to get up if he hadn't come i would have crawled to reach the phone and call downstairs for help. right now i am shaking. i am so certain it will take a long time to heal rats.
i am feeling so sorry for myself.

[bizi]

(((((HUGS AND LOVE)))))
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Hugs and Love is so right. I wish we all had answers.

Wish I could reach out and hug you in the computer.

Donna

[Dmom3005]

Bobby

If you have someone that comes tomorrow. Even if you don't have
the extension cord and things to plug the kindle in at a place you
don't have to get on the floor to do it yet. When they come tomorrow
see if they will help you figure out exactly what you need to do that.

Then you can order online if necessary the things you need.
And when Marci comes next hopefully the things will have come in
so you can hook it up so you know you can plug it in.

Donna

[mymorgy]

i don't understand your post at all.
today
i got on the floor to plug in the cable. i totally forgot that because of my leg i can't get up. i did what i usually do now and sit on the chair and connect the kindle.. everything was fine.
sometimes i even forget to take the walker. i am not used it.
fondly,
bobby

[Dmom3005]

Bobby

It didn't make sense that you just got on the floor, I didn't realize
you usually get on a chair. That was the reason for my post.

So I'm sorry it didn't make sense. I was trying to help so next time
you wouldn't have to sit on the floor to hook the cable up.

I personally can't ever get on the floor without someone to help
me get up. I'm working on it. But I don't have the strength I need
in my ankles. I haven't figured out a way to get that strength in them.

SO I always put my wires next to the couch so I have a way to plug in.

I didn't mean to mix you up, or confuse you.

Donna

[mymorgy]

hi
i also didn't have a clue about waiting until tomorrow and then getting on line to buy something. my issue was simple i just couldn't get up.that i couldn't figure out what was in your head that you introduced all those variables.
before my latest fall most of my time when i am not doing something i do spend a lot of time sitting crossed legged on the bed or floor or just lying on the bed. only when i use the computer do i sit on a chair. it is so easy to plug the cable into the front of the computer to let it charge.
I AM GREEN WITH ENVY AT YOUR INCREDIBLE ATTITUDE
HOW DID YOU DEVELOP THAT INNER STRENGTH THAT YOU DEAL WITH SO MANY HORRIBLE ISSUES AND RETAIN SUCH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE
I would so love it if you could instruct with how to deal my depression. this afternoon i tried to sleep to avoid my painful feelings. i did pray a lot to God for help. i couldn't change my over all negativity. i am excellent at not accepting things or awful feelings. I wish you could help me.
my p.t. gave me exercises to strengthen my legs i am hardly doing them because i am so depressed and tired. i know if you google strengthening your ankle you can come up some exercises. i don't know if your insurance covers physical therapy. i know with time you can strengthen it.
love,
bobby

here is one

Toe-Heel Walking. Transferring your weight from your heels to the front pad of your foot and help to build stronger muscles throughout your foot and ankle. This exercise doesn't require too much balance and no additional props other than your own body.

[bizi]

does it require foot ware or do you do this bare footed?

[mymorgy]

i love beautiful shoes and used to wear them all the time. i still have some bruno magli. now i really hate wearing shoes and am always barefoot unless i have to go downstairs or out of the building. james has never commented that i don't wear shoes.
i have been up most of the night reading a great book. i will get more by her.
it put me in a great mood. also today i hardly used the walker. i did rely on walls and tables etc but i didn't fall.
donna i still can't figure out a while ago when you wrote that allergy season was coming up and i should look at the calendar when i have repeatedly mentioned that i never had allergies until i got the vaccine. I didn't get your weird response or assumption or simply not paying attention. not paying attention.. my allergies are gone now so i no longer have the effects from the vaccine.
love
bobby