Your approach is important. Don't get defensive just state the facts in a calm manner.
love bizi

i have a small fan that i don't use. i will tell her to use although she might say it isn't enough. again whenever she is here i turn the ac on to 70.
love,
bobby.

oh boy that is hard but i will try.
love,
bobby

i don't know why but i woke up feeling GOOD. First time in ages. I had no itching, my eyes and nose were fine and i slept better.i
just bought a very cheap clip on fan for marci. i don't know if it will help or not. just bought a small covered pot to cook my buckwheat.
I did call the hotline yesterday and this time talked a peer. she was lovely. i didn't realize it is a 24 hour seven day a week hotline.
nycwell 8886929355
fantastic resource.
i walked in the hall with my walker but went a little backwards. i will try later and see what gives.
looking forward to seeing my eye doctor tomorrow. he is utterly fantastic in all ways. hope he says i can wait for cataract surgery.
hopefully sam is calling tonight. he has repeatedly asked if there a silver lining. i am finally going to tell him that it helps big time to get closer to God.

now i am jumping out of my skin. yesterday i weakened and ordered a pint of ice cream and donuts. i was talking to the porter and he said his doctor told him he should be dead or had a stroke because of diabetes and high pressure.. he didn't have any symptoms. he had to have his toe amputated and was in rehab for 2 months. he lost 45 pounds and watches his diet and his a1c is now 6.2. he does take insulin.
i threw out all the donuts. i was very jumpy before i talked him.

marci just called and i think every thing got straightened without any problem. big relief

Glad to hear this about marcie.
Having GAD like you do sounds worse than the bipolar, or do you think the gad is part of being bipolar?
love bizi

i was diagnosed as bipolar 2, gad and post traumatic stress. talk about anxiety. now with ibs-c eeks

This is interesting
Symptom Bipolar disorder mania Generalized anxiety disorder
Social More talkative and gregarious than usual More avoidant of social situations than usual


i am more avoidant of social situations than usual.

just heard this on youtube by andrea bocelli whom i listen to most of time. just hear - Sempre o mai this now my favorite song.

News of singer Andrea Bocelli’s death spread quickly earlier this week causing concern among fans across the world. However the September 2022 report has now been confirmed as a complete hoax and just the latest in a string of fake celebrity death reports. Thankfully, the singer best known for hit songs like I Live for Her or Con te partirò is alive and well.

i just checked out my credit card balance. was high but not as high as i thought. don't understand. didn't see the charge of 120 from duane reade.
weird. still waiting for them to call me back.
hopefully it will be low next month. trouble sleeping and depressed.
rechecked the fake news of bocelli's death. such sick people out there. listened to him all night.
had nice conversation with sam last night. he will be away for two weeks. going with six friends to germany for vacation.
i talked a lot about God and tried to explain the difference between the belief and having faith in God..
sent him an email later that being a good JEW means taking care of mentally ill relatives. he said his mother calls him practically every day. I added he was a good Jew but what a burden. he answered and said thanks and sometimes it is a burden. he really is such a wonderful guy. it will be a year in October since we started talking,

signed up for 1 lecture course on antisemitism.

pudge is getting a blood test on thursday. hope they don't find anything wrong. i always think the worse.
it will cost 250 wow..
alice told me she would cover my vet visits. what a doll and how fortunate I am. as long as the blood test is fine, i won't ask her to cover it.
i am worried what will happen when i run out of magnesium citrate liquid and it hasn't on the shelves again. i have other things that might work i hope i hope. my doctor had nothing left to try.
i am so hyper now that it is interfering with my depression-interesting.

sorry bobby, I was told about the prank at another forum that I go to.
stupid me....
bizi

i really got freaked out. still upset.

Bobby,

Don't let the issues with others and their diabetes get you to lose
the liking of food. Please.

I have been a diabetic for about 7 to 8 if not longer years. And my
A1C has been the best its been in years the last couple years.

Its been under 6.0. Not sure what exactly. But I watch what I eat
but haven't cut out all the sweets. Because if I cut out completely the
sweets, then I over due it. Because I love them so much.

So I eat just a little each day. If I need to.

And somedays if I have a real feeling that I need more I eat more.

I know your not me, and its not the best for all. But it works for me.
It took me awhile to get to that. But it works.

donna :hug::grouphug:

I am sorry I passed the lie along to you.
I deleted that post. I am glad it was false as he is

such a wonderful and talented tenor.
I tried to find your new song that you like on '
you-tube but was unsuccessful. Could you post the link to it?
thank you in advance!
love,

bizi

i am just too exhausted and itchy

I watched him and he is so talented. Thanks for sharing.
love bizi

have you been getting enough sleep?

no. it is so awful

I am sorry bobby. What time do you get to bed at night?
Do you have a routine? It is called sleep hygiene.
love bizi

around 12 but lately waking up 2:45
sleeping pills have never worked for me. i am so tired i am having a lot of trouble doing my p.t. exercises. i think i am going backwards.
i am so fed up and will no longer try any new medication.
but when i read what donna has gone through i feel like a twirp if that is a word.
you know how i am always freaking out about money, my printer stopped working. it won't power on so i don't think robert can fix it.
love,
bobby

i am trying to read meditations by marcus aurelious-fantastic

I'm sorry your not getting enough sleep. I just lay in my bed if I can't
sleep and relax.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Bobby,

We are all different. And I just have learned to live with the things I have dealt with. I am just learning to put up
with what I need to.

Donna

you are just so incredible. it blows my mind.
love,
bobby

i tried 4 pills of BISACODYL 5MG) and i had stomach pain all night and it hasn't worked. I still have bottles of magnesium citrate but some people say the company is going bankrupt and there won't be any more. i just ordered another bottle of milk of magnesia. i recently threw out a bottle because it didn't work but now decided to try it again. also bought another bottle of ducolax liquid which i had also tried a couple of years ago and that didn't work before. I have a couple of more things to try. I am so worried that I might have to have surgery. so terrifying.
robert took pudge for her blood test. now i think she might be 14. she seems fine but i felt i better spend 250 dollars to check her out. The vet will call today with the results. I had a terrible fight with Joyce about everything the other night. She thought that Pudge didn't need a blood test. If I wanted I should just have her get a physical. I thought that a blood test would be a lot more revealing. Yesterday Robert agreed with my decision. I complained about the waiting have doing on the phone. I got a letter from the state which I didn't understand and was worried it meant I might owe 6000. SHE said i should either wait or hang up. I went crazy and told her i had to find out about the letter. it turned out it was about the landlord and i was just sent a copy. I had to keep on calling my pharmacy about my antidepressant. one time i waited 45 minutes on the phone. i filed two complaints to Walgreens and was planning to just stop taking an antidepressant because it barely worked anyway. I skipped a couple of days which is a no no. I had asked to speak with manager and wound up speaking with the assistant manager and later the manager called and who said it was very complicated but they were working on it. finally yesterday it got resolved. Then I paid 250 to a new tax accountant and then cancelled. originally my old accountant sent a letter saying he was 82 and retiring. I called his office to see if his son would take me and she didn't think so. a couple of weeks later his assistant called and he said he would take me.
I kept on calling and emailing the firm i was cancelling to see about a refund. I got no answer. I wrote the BBB and trashed them on yelp and facebook . I wrote them with that information plus the copy of the contract about cancelling. Yesterday I was sent a form to fill out for the refund. I called and left a message to see if I had done it right. No call back or email. F2ck them. If I DON'T GET THE REFUND WILL WRITE THE BBB AGAIN AND YELP AND FACEBOOK.
I will miss Pudge incredibly when she dies.. she is so precious and so beautiful and just perfect. I am very anxious about the blood test results. weird for the first time aby came over and scratched me. i have no idea why.
Just went. Thank God. Not totally but enough. I have been terrified of having to have my colon removed.
Genius Robert immediately fixed my printer after he came back from the vet's and gave me instructions about making the computer last longer. I gave him a couple of pounds of hamburger for danny and he said he would keep his promise never to mention to paying half the food.
A workman came to my apartment yesterday and we were talking and i mentioned my age and he said i looked much younger. That is what Marci always tells me. That was nice..
I DON'T CARE IF I HAVE PAIN ALL NIGHT as long as I can go a bit in the morning.
The book on Livia, empress of Rome just came yesterday. It is hard but I really want to know all about her and Roman society.

crap. i was late for the session with my therapist.

Good luck bobby.

Donna :grouphug:

i am so glad pudge had her blood test. her white blood count is low. she will go back to the vet next month to see if it was a fluke or not. he said it wasn't life threatening if it wasn't a fluke. he would check her bone marrow and give her medicine.
i have had a stomach ache all day.
love,
bobby

i tried i tried 5 pills of BISACODYL 5MG) and it worked.
i turned down alice's offer to pay the 250 for pudge's blood test. I am pretty certain if pudge needs surgery and medicine which would be very expensive i will just use my savings and pay. that seems to feel right.
i am finally getting my hair cut in two weeks at a new place. kathy will take me. she wrote she would like to take me afterwards to a place around the corner that has outdoor seating. i wrote how sweet and that i would pay the cab fare. i don't think how bad my walking is.

made another appointment for blood test and asked if vet would tell me approximately how much the surgery and medicine would cost if pudge needed it and said would definitely have it done.

i feel so nauseated and have a stomach ache. very depressed.

I am glad that the biscodyl worked for you.
I wondered why there were not any mag citrate bottles on our shelves at the grocery store.
So happy that you like to read and learn.
I don't read much at all.
Sorry your tummy hurts so much,
Damn IBS.
love bizi

very depressed and scared. don't know if they will make magnesium citrate any more because it was contaminated. i still have some bottles left and still drink them. last night tried Mag 0. it worked a bit after a while. I learn so much from the facebook site. I made friends with a lovely woman whose husband is very wealthy and a genius and they commute between boston and San Francisco for his business. She has a ph.d in health psychology which I don't understand. She said he is incredibly helpful and loving and plays the piano beautifully. She plays the guitar and HAVE CONCERTS together. He has figured out all about magnesium and taught her and they will make some themselves. She said she would send me some. SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T GO TO THE BATHROOM FOR A MONTH and is so terrified. She just went a little. She also is terrified of what to eat. She was never heavy but now weighs 118 pounds and is 5 8. She walks a mile a day. She knows so much more about what food to eat than I do.
yesterday i had oatmeal and buckwheat and two nuked potatoes. I have to have half and half in my coffee. YESTERDAY I THOUGHT I MIGHT OVERDOSED ON THE NEW LAXATIVE WHICH COULD BE FATAL. She reassured me that a lot of people on the site take that amount and it was another type of magnesium which would be fatal. HUGE RELIEF. Stupid things things I DO WHN I FEEL DESPERATE.
I called the vet twice to try to find out that if Pudge needed surgery and medicine how much it would cost. He didn't respond. SH@T.
I had written to Alice how generous she has been to me and if Pudge needed surgery and medicine I would take it from my savings which I already I am using. That was a f@Cking SH@tty bipolar thing to write because of guilt.I obviously don't know how long I will live. Just for insurance I will be paying over 260 a month besides initial big payments besides medicare. I wrote her this morning and said I goofed and was up all night worrying about what I wrote. I wrote I COULD PAY 1000 and would welcome her help if need be. my bipolar really interferes with my judgment. Of course it has made my stomach ache worse because there is a connection between IBS and emotions.
I really do adore the book about LIVIA and Roman society. the writer has read all the ancient sources to write it. what a goldmine.

no stomach ache. just going to use that laxative. gentle. still have to go. will stop drinking the contaminated bottles. did laps in hall and so much easier without stomach ache. still ultra anxious.

Bobby

I'm glad she had her blood test too. Sounds like it was needed.

Good luck with the next test.

Donna:grouphug:

Wrote first response before I found the rest of them. But I hope
you start to feel better with your stomach. Sounds like the new
person you found is smart and a good connection for you ibs problems.

Hoping you can continue to find the answers.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I am glad that you are out of pain for now and that you made some laps in your apartment.
happy for you, glad that alice understood.
love bizi

donna,
you realize that doctors don't have a clue. so far today no stomach aches.
love,
bobby
my poor new friend is so impacted. it didn't happen when she had magnesium citrate liquid. i offered to send a few of my bottles but i guess it was too complicated. i read such awful things that happen when you are impacted but no way i mentioned them. she doesn't want to got o the hospital and her husband is besides himself. i freaked. i read plane travel i didn't mention that. can make ibs worse. they commute between the east and west coast.
love,
bobby