[Nikko]

It's that time of year again the holidays. I am trying so hard to stay upbeat, but I feel that creeping feeling of the blues coming on slowly, sort of on and off right now.

It happens every year. Maybe if I decorate I will feel better or maybe worse.

I can't stand rat race of the stores and traffic. My anxiety is going up and down, strange.

Maybe if I was with more people on the holidays it would be different.

Maybe this, Maybe that. I'll get through Thanksgiving, but it's Xmas that is the killer for me and New Years Eve.

I really don't know why this happens to me, it must be something.

Oh well........................just venting, Nikko

[shiney sue]

have all of the above and the Jewish holidays...Venting as well. Hugs to
all Sue

[bizi]

hi sue!
we off to go to breakfast
bizi

[BJ]

I'm dreading the holidays too and this year will be extra hard. In a few short days all the holiday songs will be playing and the traffic will be unbearable. I don't have many to shop for thank goodness. But when it comes time to decorate my tree the tears will be flowing. My mom bought me a keepsake ornament every year and I've been saving them and faithfully put them on the tree to remind me of them and our memories together.

[bizi]

Bj,
Know in your heart that you are doing the right thing...
That things will get better and settle down...there will some routine again and like you said the tax time is coming into full swing...they will be busy with work.
And you will too.
WE will always be around here for the holidays...know that you have many here who will post thru out each day...you are not alone in your journey.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[befuddled2]

Hugs to all who have the holiday blues, stress, or anxiety. I for now have accepted being alone for the Holidays but really I'll have my higher power with me during that time so won't truely be alone.

befuddled2

[waves]

gradually over the years, i have been wanting to do Christmas more, and this year i am caught between my own vices (out comes the baseball bat) upon which i am trying to use that baseball bat, as opposed to myself. But that's money. I have no income. I see my pdoc on... em... "credit" - his. i am trying to keep a hold of at least a couple hundred bucks for a trip to the US next spring. me me me me me. very Christmasy, altruistic thinking. i am trying to think of little things to give as gifts that - aren't candy, aren't home decorations (too many, aren't bla bla bla...) and anything else is expensive. Forget online ordering, shipping to Europe is prohibitive as well as unreliable. More baseball batting. Also i am afraid a bit to go shopping because of my flaky mood. i stopped at an african stand and nearly bought all the cat-wallets he had. i have one like it worn out; they're really cute - and functional. thank goodness i didn't even have half the money for even one at the time. excuse? ok more baseball batting...

here comes the rain again
falling on my head like a memory
tearing me apart like a new emotion

Originally Posted by Me BP?

But when it comes time to decorate my tree the tears will be flowing. My mom bought me a keepsake ornament every year and I've been saving them and faithfully put them on the tree to remind me of them and our memories together.

BJ, this is wonderful. It is bittersweet i know, like butterscotch candy. But what a great way to honor and remember your mom. I wish she were still there with you physically... spiritually she is, and from that, i hope you might find some healing in your sadness.

~ waves ~

[Nikko]

I will be posting on Thanksgiving, Xmas Eve, Xmas Day, and New Years Eve.

Trying to keep us all somewhat upbeat!!!

It's a tough time of year for so many people. So we have to be there for each other if it is possible.

Trying to think positive. I am so up and down, it's making me dizzy.

I am tired, then I get a burst of energy.....wow

Hugs to all..........Nikko