I just don't know what else to say. Wes is in the hospital again.


























I am so frustrated. I am not allowed to do my job. The mommy job. He's an adult now so I can't get info on his progress and have to wait for him to sign a release form so the docs and social workers can talk to me.

I just want him home. But I can't let him come home until we know he's not going to hurt us or himself.

We spent the night in the hospital Monday until the ER could find him a bed. Which finally happened at 3:30 the next afternoon.

I had hoped to have him at least able to advocate for himself in simple ways by the time this rolled around. But he just can't. It's so freaking frustrating. He is so undone. But it makes me feel like I haven't done enough to give him enough tools to be an adult. I know that none of us can be our own advocate when we are in crisis. I do know that. I just wish I could be doing more. I am so used to being his caregiver that I feel like my hands are tied right now.

I feel like a damned soap opera star. I am trying not to be meladramatic I really am. It just comes off that way. It's not the end of the world and he is in a safe place. At least there is that comfort. He is alive. I hope to help him keep going as well. I hope he will let me.

He is in a safe place Mrs.Bear and try to make that your focus. This momcat stuff is so hard sometimes.

Dear Mrs. Bear,
I'm sorry that you and Wes are going through this.
He is safe. He will come home to you. And you are doing your mommy job by doing everything you can to help him. He knows that.

M.

Dear Bear,
It is in your nature to be a fixer...to take care of things yourself...so many people rely on you, home, work, etc...you must be careful , cause who is going to take care of you. You do this out of love.
Perhaps he can sign a power of attorney release for you, as a health care representative in such cases where you need to have information when he is in crisis like this.
You are a fantastic mom and love your family so very much...
nothing melodramatic about that my dear.

(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I was going to suggest the health care representative power of attorney too.

And I send you hugs too.

I totally understand.

Donna

[QUOTE=highhatsize;240449]Dear Mrs. Bear,

"I am so frustrated. I am not allowed to do my job. The mommy job. He's an adult now so I can't get info on his progress and have to wait for him to sign a release form so the docs and social workers can talk to me."


Is it that Wes is reluctant to sign the document? If not, you can get a form from the stationary store closest to your local courthouse that you can fill in and Wes can sign that will give the medical authorities permission to keep you apprised of Wes' care. You keep the original and allow the hospital/medical authority to take a copy every time Wes is in therapy. Saves a lot of time.

Cordially,

Went up to see Wes last night. Got the paper we needed signed.

Man, I am tired.

He was so much better last night. Really clear and seemed much more like himself. All they have done so far is drop the antipsychotic med.

He did come up dirty on a drug test though. Meth. I don't know what to think. I really don't.

I have kind of shut off all emotional response right now. I know I should be feeling something, but it's just not there. Muted is the word I am looking for.

Today is another day, so we shall see what it brings.

Thank you for all of your responses. I appreciate each and every one of you.

oh man bear....I feel for you...
that was a really bad choice on his part.
no wonder you are numb....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

oh thank heavens. Finally got to talk to his team and they are all certain the amphetamine (wasn't a true meth positive) is an aberation. A false positive.

They are talking about possibly letting him out by Monday. They want to monitor his meds for a while. The depakote levels are a little high. They also want to make sure he doesn't rapid cycle back to psychotic.

Weeeee. thanks bizi. Love you honey

Dear Mrs. Bear,
Things are looking better now.

The news can change fast it seems.
At least the team is talking to you now and it sounds like they have hope for him to be ok soon.
M.