So just to be safe.................................























I can't take this. Racing thoughts, woke up with them. Feeling bad about myself. Worried to the hilt and destracted as all get out. Panic attacks, took a valum. I'm getting lights in my vision. Little slivers of light that wriggle verticly up and down. I think its from the panic attacks. I am crying one minutes and laughing the next. And I have way too much energy but all I want to do is sleep.

I am trying to wait it out thinking it will pass. That it just can't keep going on like this for too long. But how long is too long to be manic? I don't get this way. I live on the depressed end, so I know what is going on, but not how to handle it for myself. I can take care of Wes because there is an emergency plan in place. But should I wait it out till tomorrow then call the pdoc if it's not better?

How long do you guys wait before you know it's not just a flash in the pan?

I feel like screaming this is so not cool. Leaving work is just not an option today, I am alone and a patient is coming in to get his leg. I just can't leave him on crutches cause I am loosing it.

AAAAHHHHH