Dear Me BP?,

Remember that you are strong and brave. You have accomplished a lot. You have survived and overcome a lot.
Keep focused on the goal of staying strong and brave for yourself. You deserve all good things.

This therapist might not be the right person to help at this point.

Take a break from her if you think that will help you.
And start setting up an appointment with someone who does not push your buttons. I think you need someone who can respect your boundaries and who can read you better than she can.

Certainly, if she is making you upset during a difficult time, you can postpone some appointments with her until you are in a better place -- at least that.

But I would still look for a new therapist as a back up or as a possible new therapist (it's called "therapist shopping" ! ). Truthfully, there are so many therapists in this country that you could throw a stick down the middle of the street and hit one. They are all over and practicing all kinds of therapy.
You don't really have to move on yet. I am saying, perhaps, you can cool down with her for a few weeks and check out someone else in the meantime.

Also, you could avail yourself of some free group therapy and grief therapy and such. Contact nami.org. Also contact the hospitals in your city. They will have a list of groups that meet in their buildings/organizations.

You have the power to start down a better road than the one the therapist is laying for you.

M.