Hi Meg...
I don't think we've "met" before, but it's a pleasure to "meet" you. I have a hard time reading long threads for the first time, so I'm sorry if I'm not totally up to date.

It sounds like you do have an awful lot going on right now: worrying about your b. mother and father, medical issues, and school. I'm sorry that your anxiety is making you so uncomfortable.
BTW, I smoke pot occasionally & it does help anxiety. I also use it for medical reasons, too. It's "de-criminalized" in my state- no legal scripts. From what I hear, pot isn't physically addicted, but can be psychologically.

Have you ever been taught anything like breathing techniques or guided imagery as a way to help manage your anxiety? It sometimes helps me- the other times I need extra xanax.

I hope things start to look up for you soon. Try to focus on school for now & try to let some of the other stressors fade into the background.

Kay

Im back on here because I need some guidance and support. I hope most of you are still around

Hi, Meg,

I hope that you are doing well. A few of us are around.
What is happening today?

Mari

oh sweet Mari, how are you? Its so nice to hear from you again.
Today has been rough, I broke up with my boyfriend of over a year last night and the snow were getting is making me claustrophobic. Im trying to stay positive but Im so exhausted mentally I cant seem to keep my head above water.

Meg,

The break up was last night?
That is rough.
What did you do today?

Dealing with the piled up snow is getting to be too much for too long I would imagine.

Mari

HI meg,
sorry about your break up....that is hard either way if it was for the best or not. still hard. I hope that you will share some more here. hOw have you been? are you in school? working? living alone? ?Do you have any pets?
bizi

Hi Meg

Breaking up at any point is really hard. And I totally understand about
snow. We got 7.5 inches just Saturday night and Sunday in my area.

We are due more maybe on Tuesday. Just one day reprieve for me.

Donna

OnBroke up Saturday night. I told him I was fed up with his lack of effort coming to see me.
I spent the 1st half of the day in bed, which I never do (I'm an early bird) then I watched the NASCAR race. My heart hurts and today I'm at work trying not to break down. It hurts that all the effort I put in was completely brushed off. I don't deserve to be treated like I don't matter.

Thank you <3 I've been good and bad, trying to be mostly good but can't always count on it. I'm not in school but I have a full time job that I was pretty much gifted after I came back from a broken ankle last summer. I live at home and have 2 dogs, an older golden lab/grey hound rescue from Mexico, named Digger and our new baby is a 2 yr old mix we rescued from Thailand. I picked her up at the airport on Dec 20th, her name is Mieve but we call her Minky.

I can't even tell if the breakup was good or not. I'm doubting my own thoughts and it hurts.

It hurts so much because I could truly see myself creating a life with him and the only problems were all because he wouldn't put in the time and effort to build on what we had. I'm worthy of love and time and he wasn't giving me any time. I need hugs so bad and I feel extra alone because I don't really have many friends here in general so I dunno who to turn to for support.