I finally got a therapist,and I see the therapist next week. I've been waiting for this for months.

I wish to have a clear diagnosis of what kind of mental disorder I have. I have been told many things.

I looked at a copy from a micro-tape file of what they thought that I had in the past. They thought that I had Borderline Personality Disorder years ago. Then I developed OCD. I also have panic attacks,and depression. I think that they told me that I had panic disorder also.

Can you have more then one mental problem? BF

Hi Friend!!

I am so happy for you!!!

In answer to your question... yes... I have BP2 w/severe depression, Anxiety and Panic Disorders, Social Phobia Disorder w/borderline Agoraphobia. They are wondering about a couple of others...more testing to come.

Hugs,

Abbie

So happy you finally got your appt! Good luck next week!

I'm so pleased for you BF as I know how important this is to you, and I know how long you've waited.

The others are correct in that you can have more than one disorder at any one time.

I hope that you get the clarification that you need, and I hope this is the start of good things happening to you for a change.

congratulations...i am so happy for you...finally!
I have three conditions bipolar II generalized anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress....
Bobby

Friend I am so happy for you.

I've been hanging around the house recently,and don't seem to have the desire to go anywhere right now. It might be the lack of interest that comes with heightened depression(apathy?),and I'm also trying to save money.

I don't feel like going into the out doors. I feel ashamed of my condition,and I have no idea what they are saying about me. I wonder if I'm becoming a joke to my family,and the people who live right in my area. I think that it's agoraphobia.

I feel a sense of shame,and guilt. Have I caused this? All of these things are eating away at me. I get one obsession,after another,or I'm tense.

I don't seem to trust people anymore,and I don't get close to people. I have walls around me. I think that it's social phobia.

I do seem to have these OCD tail spins,or mood swings. I don't know what they are. Sometimes I feel a crashing of my emotions,and then I feel better,and then I crash again. It can be only 6 second intervals between these crashings,and then feeling better,and then crashing again. I don't know what that is either. Then I feel that anxiety pain in my chest getting worse.

I don't think that I've mentioned this before. I have cameras on the outside of my house pointed in different directions,to see what's going on out there for my protection. I have night vision on some of them.

I have a Pan Tilt Zoom camera on a antenna mast on top of the chimney,that I can turn,and zoom in. I don't know if this is because of fear,or a hobby. I feel better when I can see what's going on out there during the day,and night. I don't know if it's because of fear,or if it's a paranoid trait. I think that It's mostly a hobby,but I think that there's fear involved,and maybe a little paranoia.

I'm wrestling with to many emotions,and my sister seems to hate me,and my dad doesn't even want to see me. People out in the public like me,but my family dislikes me. They both have anger problems.

I could go on about these things,but I've probably said allot,and It's hard for people to grip. I also have learning problems,and mental processing problems that have not been diagnosed,but are there.

I hope that my sister doesn't have me move in the middle of all of this. I'm still waiting on my SSD,and I have no where to go. This scares me,and causes all of these conditions to heighten.

Gosh!... nuf said... BF

I wonder if your family just doesn't know how to show you love because they don't love themselves. Maybe they don't hate you at all. Maybe they're just so wrapped up in their own issues that they don't have the energy to show you the support you need.

Praying that everything will work out for you: your living arrangements and your new therapist.

Great news you got a therapist!!!! As far as not wanting to go out, sometimes for me it is depression for sure. I don't even get dressed some days and just go back to bed. Not good, but I have those days.

Do not be ashamed for having a disorder of any kind. You do not have to tell anyone, unless you feel the need to. I used to feel as I was labeled as a crazy person, but got passed that. Only people that are ignorant to BP or any mental disorder, just need to educate themselves in it, so they understand better.

As far as the camera's, in this day in age, the way the world is, we all need to be safe, and have some type of protection.
Unless, the camera's become an obessive for you. Nothing wrong with having hobbies.

I have 2 dogs for protection.

As far as your family and their issues, there is nothing you can do about that. It's their loss. As they say you can pick your friends, but not your family. I sure hope they come around and realize things.

You come first, so remember that, I know a therapist will help, it where you can let it all out, and that's a good feeling, they don't judge you.
Hope you like the therapist, that's important, if not there are plenty more out there.

Nikko

I have a lil ocd symptoms, panic attacks and I get depressed sometimes but not much anymore. I was not diagnosed with these symptoms however.

Well I am not a doctor so perhaps the therapist can clear a few things up.
I think bipolar has a bunch of combination of illness of many things i never knew about.
When I was a child I was diagnosed ADD. And that was it. Now I have learned that Bipolar has some ADD traits. That is a trip. So perhaps possibly I might not be ADD after all. Perhaps it was the bipolar disorder the whole time. I will never know unless I see the Pdoc

I am not sure if anyone can have more than one mental illness. I would ask the therapist.

Sharla