Bizi,
For some of us, this is THE GOAL of therapy.
It takes a long time. . . .a VERY LOOOOOOOONG time.

Be gentle with yourself if you don't get everything exactly 100% right in a short time.

I'm learning to love myself. HA!!!
It is even hard to write that. Loving oneself is hard.

But we can make small goals and we can make progress.

I wish you lots and lots of progress.

Mari

I take full responcibility for my faults, I have been weak and am not functioning right....I don't have normal communication skills and am trying to be honest as I can here in this forum. These are my issues.
That is what we do best, support each other and I appreciate the support that you have shown me.
I think this forum is different then perhaps other forums, we are a small/close bunch and so we get into the nitty gritty as we feel comfortable with each other.
I some ways Mari, I have come to rely on your support as a friend....It has been about 10 years since I first started the boards. That is a long time.
I hope that I don't make you nervous/uncomfortable about me saying that.
You have always been able to be there, I hope that I don't burdon you.
I care about my family here.
In some ways I have more interaction with my on-line family then I do with my other family members. I can be honest here.
But maybe I need to back away and work on my relationships with my family....learn how to be more honest in real life too.
Why does it have to be so hard?
thank you
bizi

Maybe you don’t love yourself Bizi but there’s an awful lot of people here who do and I for one am one of your biggest admirers.