Thank you Mari. That is a good point that you made. My mental health is the most important thing. I am going to call my nurse pratitioner and see if I can get in sometime soon. I'm going to call her today when the office opens.

I've got to be in court in 2 1/2 hours against my landlord. I have been working on how to present myself in court. I don't know how I'm going to get through this as I hate court. I have a feeling though that things will be fine. My nerves are shot. I made an appointment with my nurse practitioner for tomorrow to see if a medication change is in need which I'm sure it is.

Is your lawyer going to be handling this?

If not, take your clues from the judge.
Follow the judge.

Good for you for making an appointment.

M.

Hi Mari,

My lawyer told me she could not help me with this case today. She recomended another attorney but he does not take this type of case. What really bothers me about my attorney is that she charged me for going over my lease agreement and going over the cetified letter to send to my landlord and then drops me cold. I hate her right now.

I hope that my church lady friend will pick me up today to take me to court. She'll be good for me. She won't be able to attest to anything as I've only known her for the past couple of months. But at least if she picks me up I'll have some one there with me. She could be intimadated to leave though. My next door neighbor told her last week she could not park anywhere near her apartment. That's the only other place to park as people live on the other side of me and behind me that take up parking on my side. My next door neighbor side of her aparment has a very large space before another apartment while I don't.

I can't think anymore.

I lost in court today. I'm so angry at the moment. There is never justice in the world for me.

Dear Barbara,

Lots of hugs.

I'm sorry that you went through that.

M.

lots of hugs
bobby

OMG. i read the thread just a bit earlier and posted just now before i saw this. had to delete my post. boy was i "off." oh i am soooo sorry.

i don't know what to say. anyway, if nothing else, it's over.

allow yourself to cry. it is something you need to go through, yes. but crying also produces endorphins which will give you natural relief. i think the beers just took the edge off that let you feel depression that was there already, and pain you were holding back on. but letting it out is better than drinking it away.

you will be moving... at SOME point. 5 years down the road, this will be an experience you will be proud of. Going to court without representation is no joke. That lawyer that quacked out on you man, that just makes me steam.

Anyway, it IS over. just be with whatever you feel, and that will be the best way to deal. you WILL feel better.

when you feel better, i want to ask what this means - your losing - what does that entail... but don't worry about posting that until you feel like it. it is real late here and i have to go to bed right now. but i'm thinking of you.

today i had a spell where i was kinda bummed out... i won't get into it but i remembered a line from Led Zep... ususally towards ppl who do me wrong... "Your time is gonna come."

But today i thought, hey, hopefully one day, my time is gonna come... for something good to happen. so i will leave you with that thought... in the POSITIVE sense... things may suck now, and may have for a long time... but... Your time is gonna coooome.... a time for you to blossom and grow. The pain is a part of the journey. Nothin' says it's here to stay.

~ waves ~

Thanks.

Bringing up the fact I went to court without representation is a great feat that I should be proud of. I did at least try and yes it is over for the time being. I do not plan to file any more complaints while renting from this landlord but after I move I intend to shake some feathers. I have some ideas.

The judge ruled in favor of the landlord saying that I have no proof that the wild cats on the property spread fleas on the property. The judge also said that I can not file a complaint when there is no problem with the fleas now. The judge said that I can not charge my landlord now for something that may or may not happen in warm weather. He said I may or may not have a case in the warm weather. I had told the judge how the fleas bite me and I scratch the bites in my sleep and get scars. There is a flea problem here where I live every year for as long as people can remember. I did not ague with the judge as he was somewhat a jerk.

You know, I am an animal lover as most people are. But when wild cats have more rights than a human it is a crying shame. I'm not sorry for saying that. I have been the object of verbally harassing from a lot of people all over for just wanting to not have to deal with fleas every year. I've been told things like I have a pretty lame excuse if I want the cats gone because I get bit by fleas to what about cat's rights?