Donna,

Where I live I can not get a restraining order on her and the landlord can rent to who and where to put them which ever way he wants to. The landlord has said he would move her to another apartment but he never does what he says.

I had some beers last night and it was just the escape I needed from all my problems to get my priorities straight. I've decided to tackle one thing at a time. I have court with the landlord on Tuesday and night school the night before that and again on Wednesday. So between now and then I will only deal with those two things until then. After that I can concentrate on court in a month with my next door neighbor and go to school also. I do not need to be running around and racking out my brains yet with filing more charges against my next door neighbor. I also need to put my effort into moving, following through with Social Security in getting my ex's benefits, and following though with my claim on other things concerning my ex. My lawyer is taking all my money and not doing anything. I will be taking some matters into my own hands with my ex's estate. I have never been this clear about what I need to do and in what order for awhile. I feel good about things for a change today.

I do best with sorting things out like that too.
Too many things at once - and I go in circles.

I like to make a list and number things
then one by one I can check them off

Dear Barbara,
I am so happy for you for some clarity.
I did not know that you were taking a nite class..is that the photography one?
you are heading in a good direction it sounds.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Barb

I believe you are handling all the stress very well right now.

And I also believe things are going very well right now. Give it
time and keep thinking straight.

I'm so proud of you, and I know you can get through this.

Donna

Thank you Jo, Beth, and Donna.

Jo, my head had started to swim in circles literally so it's a relief to prioritize.

Beth, the class I am taking now is a Web Page Design class. I had to give up the photography class last year due to illness. My ride canceled on me this past Wendsday so I missed the 2nd night.

Thank you Donna.

on everything. I've missed 2 night classes in a row now due to 2 different people not being able to take me. I have night blindness. I wasted all that money. My lawyer has let me down and I'm tired of trying to get her to respond to me. I go to court with my landlord tomorrow and then I go to court with my next door neighbor in 3 weeks. I'm just so fed up with everything being hard on me and things not working out. I just want to forget everything and not worry about ever getting trained for a job. Sometimes being everyone's dormat doesn't seem all that bad now. I hate having to make all the decisions, be the only one I can depend on while others let me down. I'm just going to give up and call Welfare this week and see what help I can get. If trying to get to class for training for a job is impossible than actually making a living would also be impossible. I'll hit all the food banks in town and drink beer with my check like a lot do here where I live. I'm tired of trying to make my own way. I don't think I was meant to do better with my life. Drinking is fun so maybe that's the life I am destined to live. Drinking is the only thing that makes me not care. It's when I care that I can not deal. I can't deal with the way my life is turning out. I'm sure my landlord will try to get me removed from my apartment somehow. I don't care. That's why I plan to calll Welfare up and tell them I need their help. If they can't help I don't know what I'll do.

Barb , I think you are feeling overwhelmed right now, maybe take a day off from all the worries.
Maybe go for a walk, listen to some music, try some mediation or breathing & relaxation techniques, do some exercises or dancing

Something to release the tension and get the blood pumping.

I know that drinking can be fun, it also kills brain cells....and can cause early altzheimers symptoms over a long period of time.
People use alcohol for different reasons.
You know alot of people who use this as a crutch, it can be a coping mechanism...maybe not the best path to take.
Only you can decide...It is your life to live as you see fit.
I just drank a bottle of wine tonight to deal with my social anixiety issues, we went to a friends house to socialize which makes me nervous and uncomfortable so I drink.
This is abusing alcohol and I know it.
Is it healthy?
no

Do I have a drinking problem?
perhaps....



anyway.
I am sorry that you are feeling frustrated and that people are letting you down.
Is there anyway you can take the bus to your class? or a taxi if it is close by?
YOu sound like you are hurting and I am sorry for that.
beth

Jo, I am overwhelmed with things and it's hard to take a day off of it all. With the paper thin walls I can not play my music too loud as my neighbor whom I have all the trouble with loves to call the cops or bang on the wall. It's too cold to walk, I can't yell and scream or even talk to too loud as my next door neighbor loves to eavesdrop. It would not be so bad if she was the type of person not to use anything she hears against you but she's not.

Bizi, one of the hardest things I've ever had to do was to quit smoking so I should know better than to turn to booze for a crutch. It just seems like the thing to do when all the neighbors do it. I do think that getting drunk once in a while is the only way to get a break from things being overwhelming.