I would like to be part of your support circle too.....:grouphug:
beth

Oh, dear.

I remember my single days and found that missing touch was very hard.

-->>Maybe focus on that touch list you recently posted re comfort.

I agree that a cat might be nice.
I used to have a friend whose dog I kind of borrowed when I was not in good sorts. I would go over to her house to visit her dog.

My sis is married and has too big dogs. I think that the sensory reward for her is bigger than she anticipated. When she is home the dogs are always on her lap (despite their size), leaning on her, at her feet, in her bed, sharing a sofa . . . .


I remember in my alone days I considered finding a massage therapist. I did not follow through with that.

But I found paying to get my hair washed or nails or feet done was helpful.

I even considered volunteering holding needy babies in a hospital, but as with all my volunteering ideas, I did not follow through because I knew that I was not capable of committing even to a volunteer's schedule.

These are in no way meant to be suggestions.
I am sharing my thought processes and struggle.

I think that people who do exercise (joggers, bikers) can connect to the body and get something similiar to touch in terms of hormones.
The same with those who go into yoga. The body becomes more full of itself (for lack of a better term) and can function as if it is touched.

I've headed into territory in which I am completely making up stuff.

I apologize.

This is my way of writing a help ful post before I head off to bed.

I wish good things for you.

M.

Dear Waves,
'Hoping your boat is steady and that you are finding peace (maybe joy?) in moments of your day.

M.

sending a cyber hug to you waves from across the ocean....:grouphug:
((((((HUGS))))))
beth

I sent you a PM Waves but just wanted you to know that I care, I understand :hug:

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Dear Waves,

'Sending you some waves of sunshine.


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M.

you guys are the greatest
 

Mari, Bizi, BJ...

thank you so much.

even though this thread came about because of a grieving process... which comes and goes... and that monster seems to be slowly sinking back into the deep waters of my unconscious, bringing some relief from pain... i am not well.

this is where i was before the grieving reared its head. and here i am again now.

i have decided - told my therapist - i do not want to take on the grieving process now, as the acute emotions seem to be receding. perhaps around the anniversary period next year. it always comes up then, whether it hits me hard or not so hard. this year it hit me hard because of some discoveries i made probably. i dunno.

but for now i am letting the monster slide below the surface. it has been too much already. and my day to day living alone is problematic... and i think that is much more situational.

i am not well and have not been... for years. it's a bad time to find work and a worse one for someone with 'sensitivities' and a variety of other constraints to find work. without work, no money => no retraining => no advancement. my social life isn't.

i am and have been in a subtle "low" for a very long time now. don't take care of myself right, etc. "this too shall pass" is like... when already????? after a month, a year, two years.... going on 6 now since i had the semblance of a normal life with a job and free time and stuff to do - that i would and could do.

i am in a rut that feels more like a grave.

i will start the wellbutrin after i do my labs. i got the state script today for both that and the labs.

i have been weepy and numb on and off the past few days. i saw some of your posts and it helped not to feel so alone. because i do, even with two other people in the house.

i have some medical stuff to deal (labs, doc... other) and have actually done a little more around the house since mom hurt her arm. i am so out of shape, hopefully even tho it has been exhausting just doing little odd things, it might help with being more in shape.

anyway, you are all very dear to me, and your support has been invaluable in this period. thank you. i will try to catch up on posting in the next few days.

~ waves ~

Been thinking about you waves, glad you posted...I know wellbutrin really helps me A LOT...I hope it offers you some relief from all the sadness you've been dealing with. Take care and don't be a stranger, even if you just come to read, just know you're around makes me feel good. :hug:

Take care of yourself...:D

Dear WAves,
thank you for checking in. I worry about you and am hopeful that the welbutrin will help.
HOw is your mothers arm? long recup?
I wish we all lived closer so that we could visit and give real hugs.
((((HUGS))))):grouphug:
beth

Sending you hugs Waves.

Donna