I would say I am at the end of my rope, but that was along time ago. I am waiting the decision on my remand hearing. I am 99% sure it will be denied again because of what the doctor that social security sent me to said. I don't know how to explain to our 12 year old that we have no money at all for Christmas. Let alone all the other bills we can't pay. If I was able to keep up my life insurance I would'nt be here. I go see my doctor tommorrow, he has put me on alot of different meds for my depression, with not much help. People say life goes on, but why. They say keep your head up, but why. I can't even go in public anymore, I have lost two teeth in the front, and I am so embarassed that someone will see. I am on morphine for my back pain and the only thing that it does is makes me constapated. My doctor wants me to got o the pain clinic, but I can't pay the 40 dollar co-pay. And the kids birthdays are the 24th and the 26th. aaaaaaa well thats some of my screwed up life.

bretd--I know life has throwing you in a dark place on you and your family but I dont want to just --say it will be ok ---because I know right now it isnt going well at all. I will tell you right now and I totally understand your in a dark place but you do have a family that cares about you. I can tell you care about them a great deal. You need to fight like hell with what your entitled to your benefits !!! Its such a shitty damm proccess what hoops people go thru--- but you will eventually you will get it and it will be prorated !! I know where I live ---every year I sponsor a family in the community-- a family who fell on hard times who have a need list and also wish list for there kids . There are people all around us you may not even know who care ....who want to help others in need. Its anonymous and its about your family until u get the ssi. Life is strange but as dark and things are right now it will get better dont loose faith trust me this whole thing in the end will make you a stronger person for it!!

life insurince or ont your daughter needs you there for her,I wish that I could tell you something magicle that she would understand,all you can do is your best,if you don't mind my asking what are you trying to get disability for?have you tryed to get on for depression?I hope things start to go better for you

i was there to bretd. just like you.i couldnt eat or sleep.i had to go to a "shrink"just to get sleeping pills and high blood presure pills.i was on the verge of a 'stroke" or heart attack.all this was due to stress.if you can find some of my old posts.you can see where i was at ,at one time..just like you.its difficult to find the "magic"words to save or change your life.the words were nice,but i needed to see visual to.but what i think is what were telling you is to be strong so you can eventually see the visual change,cause is does come slowly

How are you doing today? I hope that you are feeling better,there are a lot of people her that will do what they can to help,Have a grate evening