[SDFencer]

Geeze. I can't run only walk short distances, I can only stand for certain periods, I am 60 pounds overweight (I do work out. Meds have a lot to do with it.) I lost my job and my former employer was making all sorts of allegations about me. Due to the rules of evidence they did not have to prove up any of their claims, I'm sure I have stressed my family out to the max, including my wife, who has been an angel but has me on disability and her loaded down at work.

I have become nothing more than a galley slave at home. We haven't been intimate in 6 years, part of it is her change in life and afraid my head will blow up. We have an appointment at our tax guy today and I hope we don't have to pay too much because I don't know if we have it. Disability pays nowhere near what I used to make as the General Counsel of a corporation and we have run through our savings pretty fast. Just because you can't work doesn't mean the bills stop. People say to get out of the house. And do what? "Go to a park, a shopping center, a library." I don't want to. I do volunteer in a stroke program and do some other stuff. But it is a bunch of activity and then nothing. The house sure gets lonely. Go volunteer somewhere. Where? I have no interest in some of the opportunities, don't people understand that? I am so jealous of my wife and kids going to a job.

Why try?