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03-18-2015, 05:48 PM | #61 | |||
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you are absolutely correct it is not the in your face and don't you ever forget it this is at a time i could have been selfish and she wanted me there i did it with nothing in return and still listen to her what is brought up are situations that have occurred in their adult i am not speaking of the necessary responsibilities of preventative health care that's a given some will call it enabling i definitely rather not have any of what i am going through happen and it is i have to learn how to say NO and not let them hurt me my child in her mid thirties and she NEEDS her eyes checked along with that eye wear and nothing in return is there does come a time when taking from me has stopped my eldest asked for help purchasing christmas gifts with the promise of them her to pay it off monthly four computer tablets and a previous balance hers was paying monthly payments and her reason did not like being asked how could she have left a mess as she did using my apartment as a venue for her to have her poetry features happen and the response was go blank yourself and has no intention to pay the dell account all hers left for me to pay is the first for her so no i don't like having to remind them of their obligations this is all present happenings undeserving of it all me
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03-18-2015, 09:27 PM | #62 | ||
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Eva, I am sorry you have allowed these purchases, etc. to take place. They are adults. All you mention has nothing to do with what my post had intended. I should not have made an attempt at something I am not qualified to comment on. Wishing you well. Gerry |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (03-19-2015) |
03-19-2015, 12:31 PM | #63 | |||
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on your input may i have misunderstood your message i may not have explained myself to be understood as confusion is a huge part of the puzzle trying to figure out how there is no understanding of the pain and sorrow my adult children are adding to this sick person i very much want to understand your message please i am open to all that one has to offer in suggestions knowing in the end i will do what i feel is most important and you most certainly qualify so happy to hear you can still be active in cooking, laundry and if memory serves me right you love gardening and dabble on an easel and paint i want to try and dabble with pastels and chalk along with Eva at my side on her easel Corissa is doing much better going to the program she has been going to for six months now no input from father when a once a month mandatory session between the three of us and therapist to date zero i make it my business to be available for my granddaughter and daughter these two are like SISTERS it's beautiful trying to get Corissa to study for the written so she can get her permit and i can be the licensed driver as she takes me shopping to the doctors and get the experience so i can count on her and the car won't just sit in a parked position she could do errands she is apprehensive about driving i expressed she would be doing herself a disservice i hope to hear from you again you have been very instrumental in my life i would understand otherwise because i care toooooooo much love me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | ger715 (03-19-2015) |
03-19-2015, 03:59 PM | #64 | ||
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Eva, I, myself, do not do well in explaining myself; sometimes better to leave certain areas alone. Glad to learn of some of the upside of things; especially Corissa getting a permit to drive. When she gets her license, she will be most helpful for you to get around. Please let her know "I care very much about her". Somehow those few words spoken with her made a close connection between us. Yes, I once loved painting. Self taught. I Have not painted in over ten years. The easel stands idle, along with the table full of paints. Wrists, hands, fingers, and the ability to stand with the painful spine, legs and burning feet do not allow for me to even attempt at painting. I often think about it though. I do have the painting of The Divine Mercy in my living room. I had sent a copy to you several years ago. Am able to do very little gardening; but do manage to put some solar lighted items decorating the walk way. Also have a lighted wreath for each season on the front door. It's just my husband and myself so spreading laundry over a few days works pretty well. Once enjoyed cooking. Now; it's the quickest and easiest to make meal. Luckily, my husband is not a fussy eater. We all do the best to work with our handicaps learning new and different ways to accomplish the necessities. The best advice I can give for both of us is to not dwell on the things that sadden us. Try to look for what can bring us some joy; whether movies, music and of course, loved ones. Because I care, Gerry Last edited by ger715; 03-20-2015 at 10:18 AM. |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (03-19-2015) |
03-19-2015, 09:52 PM | #65 | |||
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Blessed is what it is Love Me
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someone who cares eva Last edited by eva5667faliure; 03-19-2015 at 10:46 PM. |
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03-23-2015, 11:47 AM | #66 | |||
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i felt it coming on yesterday
the knot in my stomach the lump in my throat the feeling of doom taking over my body and locks me in a state i loath bottom line ALL the things i won't let go of true FREEDOM is not in my future if i continue to dwell BUT WHAT IS NOT UNDERSTOOD i do not want to FEEL like this anymore no matter what ever "it" wants "it" wins my sadness is the thing that is tearing me apart i physically feel "it" why does it want me why can't i just hold on to the positive and wait for a miracle it not hurt anymore and i not be a burden to my family turns out to be a joke no help offered anymore as a way to be hurtful only i will in the end do it myself my son called with some comfort he and i have so much healing to do but he called out of the blue to see how i am i did not want to start Effexor still on the fence about it i started it three weeks ago on capsule am to graduate to two capsules a day i am reluctant to start the second one i wish i never started do not want to take it so want to kick myself as i read a post just by chance i don't think so anywho just want it out until my cancer meds are stopped and that isn't anytime soon am i nuts i don't think so i know me me
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03-23-2015, 09:52 PM | #67 | |||
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Still in that mood
To have gotten up to go to bathroom Cannot return to sleep I must get the eyes checked also Doctors doctors doctors I must get the strength And get with the program The thought of laying on my back I cringe already Will have my daughter see him also It is mandatory She waits for mommy to arrange everything The lessons you hope and pray they adopt Still in that funk Me
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03-23-2015, 10:40 PM | #68 | ||
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Eva, Is there the possibility of you being able to go for even just a little walk outside?. When "it" tries to grab you and won't let go sometimes just getting your coat on and go out; even just for a very short time might break the cycle. I had some pretty nasty issues with an "it" that would take hold. I finally learned to stop whatever I was doing; and leave the house to get outside for a little while. Not always; but sometimes it did help the "it" to go away and another chance to try to get back to the positive. Wishing you well, Gerry |
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03-23-2015, 11:33 PM | #69 | |||
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I will try as the weather gets better You take care I pray you aren't near by any darkness And the sun can shine for You Love Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | ger715 (03-24-2015) |
03-26-2015, 10:10 AM | #70 | |||
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Oh dear Brother
Please strip me of this sadness Hold me tight Never let me go I don't want to do it anymore Drowning with my eyes open Me
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