Dear Eva,

The things you have to deal with are enough to try anyone. I really do not know how you cope, yet you do because you are a strong, resilient woman who has her Beliefs and the knowledge that she is doing Right.

You and I are the same with so many things, even the weather here - not as bad as yours - just 3 days of 75℉ and muggy drains me.

Keep fighting the Depression, there are always tiny moments in a day that give a little Glimmer of Light.

Dave.

Oh Eva, you poor dear....what you have to endure. It is inexcusable.

Many years ago, I was in a similar situation with my great niece when she was a little girl.
She was abused and I sought legal custody.

I don't know if you have legal custody of your grand daughter but if you do, you can get restraining orders and supervised visitation. If you dont have custody, perhaps legal aid can help you. I know money is tight but if the father is dealing drugs, there are many social services/ legal aid services to help protect both of you.

Believe me, I know it is not fun to have to be in court to deal with issues in the family but when the health and welfare of a little girl is at stake, the law is on your side to help protect her. At first it will be trying but in the end, your life and hers will be more peaceful and less difficult emotionally. You have my utmost sympathy for what you are forced to deal with.....your granddaughter is lucky to have you.

We had a horrible situation in my family and it was very divisive and extremely painful emotionally for the entire family.
It was one of the most difficult and stressful situations I have ever dealt with but, my driving force every day was making sure my little niece never got abused again. It was years ago and my eyes still fill up with tears recalling what my little niece and the entire family endured. Your situation sounds equally painful.

I did get shared custody of my niece and any visitation from the divorced parents and their partners was ALWAYS supervised. If any of the adults in her life stepped out of line, they lost visitation. Also, there was a restraining order on the person who abused my great niece, my nephews girlfriend.

In the good news dept, she has grown up to be a beautiful young woman.

I am sorry for what you are going though but there are social services in place to help you both.
You are in my thoughts and prayers Eva....may God bring peace to you and your family.
All my best,
D.

i have had custody it is almost 2 years
might even be more
dear D.
as i have posted a few times of
the situation
and how things had recently
was where the father was in jail
for almost 2 months
she has exhausted all her
places to stay
so he stay with him
and the vicious begins
your interest in the current
situation appreciated
i pray everyday she finds her
way into a long term re-hab
it's all a cluster fudge
and draining
love
me

Dear Eva,

I didn't realise the father had been in prison, or my lesions and meds have wiped out that information - Heck, I can still barely remember what I ate yesterday, my short term memory is SO bad. This is why we all have to repeat ourselves here sometimes, we all need refreshers.

I hope your prayer is answered and your Daughter enters long-term rehab, her living situation sounds destructive at the very least. This can only be a constant stress for you, not only when she comes round to your's.

As usual, all our prayers and thoughts are with you, and you have unwavering support from your online Family.

Dave.

dear friends

today is not a good start
my tears make me sick
i hate every tear that comes
operative word here really strong
the weather couldn't be any more poopy
for this knocked down broken body
the weather should be much better
we will make a trip to the pool
yet today must pass
and i don't want to feel this way anymore
to keep pushing is tiring
no reason no rhyme
why bother
or even who the fudge cares
i remember being a little girl
i never seen this life ahead of me
i can still remembering
at 7, 8, or 9
figuring what year it would be at
certain ages
it seemed so long ago
would freak out

granddaughter just walked in
she is acting nurse
saving
be back

got a needle in the arm
i feel better of course

today i already contend with
left over stuff from my youngest
and with her da da being sarcastic here
got her a new phone
i'm laying under it right now
it got to the point where we
i thaught
was changing
i feel like such an *** when i jump ahead
and think it's getting better
and yes
it does rattle my nerves
when he does things like that
and i'll go along
i can't get it for her
and i in the end left with nothing
Corissa broke mine
and the sink is filled with pots and dishes
she was on a roll
as i was at a neighbors apartment for a brief
moment
upon returning
and she cooked herself a pot of rice
now i think all understand the point

tried reaching out to my son and eldest
with a very important matter i needed them
and i can't get a return call
i'm sick
and it just sucks
just for today
me

Just moments ago my eldest must have accidentally dialed my number
The phone rang twice and stopped
What happened
It's been over two weeks since hearing from her
She is moving farther and farther away
Or is it because I asked her to be responsible for a dell bill she left me responsible for the bill in a argument
The phone rang twice
I am so blankin angry I don't know where to put it
I have a lump in my throat
Me
So blankin sad

Daughter just called a bit too late
45 minutes late
Told her everyday at 7:00
I cannot make Eva talk
She is put on speaker so mom can hear
everything
Oh so sick of it all
Going to pool tomorrow with my sis
Will have another adult with me
This really sucks
Me

Dear Eva,

A day at the pool with your sis could be just what you need. Take the time to get out of your own head and enjoy adult company.

Dave.

It was great to have made amends with a neighbor
I have truly had many
who have been found
in lies
that has broken my spirit
of a twenty nine year friendship
This I had hoped be the honest case
Now awaiting information of a acting super
In a suit
There is no super in this 279 unit building
And because this person would be bypassing a
worker in the office that likes to bully tenants
someone I caught in a blatant lie about parking on
the premises
as a letter came from the owner of the building
in reference to the parking situation and told us
in that letter to us tenants we get one space per unit
Now here we go again
Persons who make it difficult
Just for poop and giggles
All that is requested is a handicap spot
or better yet to be able to swap with a unit
that I know for certain have more than one space
This is a HUD run building
There is so much corruption going on
And I put myself out there
to be heard I do not like corrupt people
and activity
Therefore I hope after rekindling our friendship
her not to long ago was working for them in the office
in the lobby of the building
Awaiting her help in the matter
I hope she will not abandon me
and what I must do
Why do I have a problem with this
It is because I feel I am being lied to
And I really really don't like feeling like that
What is it about standing in the truth
What better way but the truth
She knows this about me

I am not happy I need to be a certain way
that is not usually a preference
as it is in a assertive manner
Confrontation
Me

I to do not understand why it is so dang hard to be truthful......I do it everyday and don't see a problem with it......truth comes so easy for those of us who are truthful.

In peace and love my friend

Debi