Allfe,
I have done some crying, but nothing like I usually do. That is what has this bout of depression puzzling. I am most of all angry. It just hurts so badly that sometimes I feel like I am all cried out. What is stressing me out, and everyone is saying I need to stick it out, including ACT. I was told by a friend that I need to do what's best for me. They think that staying in school is best, but I am not so sure. I think a big stress would be lifted off me if I did not have to worry about deadlines, etc. But no one is hearing that locally, except my professor......She just told me I don't NEED to drop the class, but that she'd try to help me through it as much as possible.....That was at least good to hear. The thing that gets me is that with college, if you take time off, you are still expected to do the work....Like as in not go to class. And that is really what is getting me down. I am looking for ways to reduce my stressload, and it seems that is the only way. But, for some reason, my treatment team tells me they feel that if I quit now, I would get "sicker." What they aren't acknowledging is that I am sick now, and the most stressful part of the term is yet to come. I really just want to give up....but if I do, I fear now that it will only get worse. I think the reason people are so adgitating to me right now is that no one who can help me change what I am going through are not listening to me. I am going to try the journaling and showing these posts to my treatment team. I will update you all on how things are going. Thanks again.