Hi im Dannia but i prefer to be called Dannii, im not raelly sure what to write down, i guess im just a regular person that is trying to get on with my life. At his moment i both work and study......i think i should be happy but deep down i dont feel my life has a meaning. I have suffered from depression for about three years and i have been hospitalized several times, basically because of suicidal attempts. I am on medication, and i have also received electric shocks.
I feel sort of lost because the psychiatrist that basically has treated me for a long time, no longer works at the hospital that i attend, i find it hard to trust new people and im not sure what to do now. I feel like abandoning everything but i have been told that my condition cronic.

i just want to have new friends to be able to share my experiences and to know that i can contact or talk to someone when feeling bad.

I can relate to you. I have delt with depression for as far back as I can remember. At least 8 to 9 years old. I have been suicidal for that long also.

I am in councelling, have been for about 10 years. I won't even try to give up councelling. I can't get through things on my own.

You need to try and find another councellor. If it's someone you don't like, keep looking. I do know they are very hard to find, a good one anyway.

You need professional help when you are in the shape that we are in.

It is great here. There will be others that will come along and help you also. Check out some of the other forums also if you can't get enough help here.A lot of people on here are living with depression but don't come here much due to having other illnessess'

Have a good day and do stick around.

Ada

I can relate as well to what you're describing. Depression is a sneaky condition, and seem to know how to wriggle itself into every aspect of our lives. It's hard to deal with no matter what you do. But talking about it does help most of the time.

I've fought depression so many ways, some that worked a bit and more that didn't. But I aways have to remember that deep inside the darkness I still exist, and I will pull through one way or another. I do drive my mother crazy sometimes when I call her several times a day, but I do it becaue I know she's someone I can trust, and that means a lot.

If you are looking for someone to talk to about your depression, to simply share and converse about it, then you have come to the right place. There are many people here who want the same thing. You can come here to the forum, and most people don't mind if you PM them. And then there are also the chat rooms. I hope that all these things, and especially the people here, do make you feel better. Feel free to talk to me whenever you want. It's one of the few things I seem to be good at.

In the meantime, good luck and best of wishes to you, Dannii. I hope you have many more good days than bad.

Sincerely,
Idealist

Hi Dannii,

I too, can relate to your situation. I've been struggling with depression for 10 years now. Different things have helped at different times - sometimes meds alone, sometimes counselling and meds.

It took me quite a while to find consistent support but I have been seeing the same counsellor now for the past 5 years and have access to a pyschiatrist to manage my meds through the same clinic. I know how frustrating it can be trying to find support but it is worth it to keep trying and I would encourage you to continue until you find the right person.

Take care,
Deborah

As you can see you're not alone Dannii! Just wanted to leave you a hug!

Very depressed too I can totally relate!

I am sorry Hola, have you had depression for a time?

Severe depression most of the time, probably since birth. Feelings of hopelessness, loneliness, despair and worthlessness. I feel so badly for others that suffer this as well. I wear my sadness on the exterior now, no longer able to conceal it, as I once was capable of doing. Depression triggered by progressive disease processes maybe, I'm not sure or it could be life's very painful experiences and a permanent shattered heart, no longer to repair itself on it's own. The fragility of life scares me.

Have you ever tried therapy?