Denise, wanted to give ya this ...


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and say it is good you are Praying :) I hope the apt with doc is a good one. Keeping you in my thoughts and send a cozy blanket of strength and healing for you. keep going baby steps ;). Let us know how things go. :grouphug:
Peace
BMW

Thank you for all your support and the angel its beautiful. Well i start the program tomorrow from 830-315 mon-friday i hope it helps and it works out i am trying to have faith i will update yous when i know somehting thanks again:hug:

I hope that tomorrow you can just feel the prayer support, and God's loving arm around you.

Denise
 

Your so welcome. When you go to the Thursday meeting,the lord will be with you,and he will never leave you,nor forsake you. You will be fine. All of these problems shall pass.You have Gods eternal strength ,and love with you. His strength shall never fail,because he has no end,and He loves you with a everlasting love. Underneath are the everlasting arms.

We love you. Take these small steps,and see how things turn out. You will be built up. Let us know how it's going when you can. Brokenfriend:hug:

in case you come by here today... we are keeping you close and tight in our hearts and prayers. Today may seem hard but you have all of us and God right along side you and all of us believe in you, as well as your family.I hope you can feel the comfort strength and healing love . I hope to hear that today turns out to be a positive good one for you!
:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug::hug:Hugs for your pocket to use when needed!
PEACE
BMW

things did not turn out as plan i lost it this morning and started freaking out were i couldnt breath and i was yelling and i didnt go i dont know what is wrong with me maybe i dont want help maybe i just want to give up i am so confused and i dont know what to do thanks again for everything

(((Denise))) No one said this was going to be easy dear lady...it's probably going to be the hardest thing you've ever done. My dad used to tell me that I had no chance of winning if I didn't enter the race. You are worth the fight, but most importantly is the fact that you have young children depending on you to be there for them.

Time to pick yourself up and try again. You aren't alone and it's time to prove your husband is right. :hug:

Denise :grouphug: :hug:. sounds like you just got overwhelmed with the "everyhting" and went into panic mode :hug:. Its okay to feel like that D.
but really you just need to take baby steps little tiny steps one at a time and dont try to look at everything and get overlaoded. ;) because everything isnt going to happen all at once.Its a slow process and all it takes is that frist step then the next ...one at a time. I hope you called and they are able to set another apt. I know you want help . confused and wondering maybe but you DONT want to give up!!!! Please try to make new apt :hug:.
and looks like ya can use a couple of those hugs I put in your pocket so pull one out and think of ALL OF US here when you use it. someitmes with me I would get mad or upset in the thoughts that I actuly did need help I had to accept that and take my little steps once I was comfortable with the fact and not angry or embarassed by it. and I did that by changing the anger and embar. into feeling proud that I could seek, reach for help and not ignore it or hide it and let issue grow and grow. I got proud because it felt good to know tomorrow and the day after each step would make me better.
so please try to get new apt and take that step. we are here to help and support you .WE CARE LOTS AND LOTS about you. Keep us posted mmmkay?!!
Love and PEACE
BMW

thank you i did call my therapist and he said it is ok and natural to be overwhelmed and have anxiety he feels as though i should call her tomorrow and tell her that i want the help and i want a new appt for the program and this time he thinks that my husband should take me instead of feeling overwhelmed early in the morning trying to get everything done and deal with the kids so he said to make a new appt and ask my husband if he could take me thanks again for all your support and here is a hug back:hug:

Sounds like a good place to start . I had to have my hub come to my first "visit". It helped with being able to explaine and express things durring inital visit with doc. Helped show how I and others around me were affected by things. It was only for first visit. as I wanted one on one to heal and share alone . but I did have someone drive me everytime. it was usualy my sister .she would either sit and wait reading a book or go run an errand then come pick me up. And it was so nice to have someone there waiting for me. Even if they didnt know what was talked about. it was just comforting all by itself having someone there and thats it. So tomorrow first thing pick up the phone call and reach ... ask for, demand that you want the help and want to make new apt. That is a perfect place to start Denise. PLEASE TRY TO DO THAT :hug:. WE all know you can do that. :grouphug: