Denise
 

Go to Social Services to see if they will help with the cost. Social Services is helping me. I'm going broke waiting for SSI. These things are multiple hardships. BF

Hi. I didn't read every post from the start so I am sorry if I make mistakes. I am so sorry for all you are going through but you can't give up hope. I know you said you were hospitilized but I was wondering if you have done or looked into long term residential which is different then a hospital stay in a psych ward? I have done both kinds and I am not going to say it is a cure but can really help you get stable. Often short term hospital stays after a crisis just get you out of danger but don't give you long enough 24/7 care and with others in similar positions. I had a mom who tried to commit suicide and I have in the past and now know in my heart from both side of the coin it is not the answer. I know there is that hopeless feeling but you got to find that even that small hope to get you through. I wish I could help you more. Just that I hear you and your pain and if you want an email buddy. I am 30. Ps I went to treatment in Philli and actually moved to NJ for awhile after. There are some good hospitals in your area.

well thank you so much for your advice today i went for my ect treatment and they are changing it again i will now how everything in the front which is the strongest a person can have and has the most chance for side effects they said if my treatments dont work next week than we are stopping they feel as though i should be hospitalized but i dont want to be hospitalized i really hope i can get approved for the vns :hug:

Denise
 

Something will work whether it's the ect,or the vns,and medication combinations.

That was so nice of daniella to post. What a angel. She sounds like a good person to talk to also. BF:hug:

Thanks that was nice of you.If you or anyone else needs anything or just wants to talk pm or email me.
Denise, I hope this treatment works and I know going back in the hospital is no picnic but really if you can find a place that specializes in your issues and is residental it can really help. I know in some of the residential places it was hard for me to leave from the support etc.I really feel that there needs to be a full approach to get well such as meds,therapy,group,self talk and self coping. Hang in there all

well i faxed all my info to a lawyer to see if he could help me with ssi today i also took my two sons to sesame place i just want to try to enjoy spending time with them i hope they find something that works for me soon because i think 12 years is long enough and i dont know if i can take much more i feel the worst i have ever felt and that scares me to death

Denise
 

I just posted something in the SOS forum for you. We all love you,and hang in there. I have had some hardships,and depression in my life also,that goes back to my childhood. Time will pass,and you will get better,and you will learn how to cope. Please be patient with everything that is going on. You can do it,and you are here for a reason. You are reaching out because you want to survive,and we are here. We want to help. BF:hug:

Does your dr. know how terrible you feel Denise? Are you eating and drinking? Have you read BJ's posts who is also having ECT treatments? (BJ is MeBP?)

Hang tough...you are worth this fight and we are here for you. :grouphug:

Denise .I hope you are letting the doctor know how you feel each time you go.Remember I told you last time to let them know how much your head was hurting and after you told them they gave you somethng for head aches and feeling sick in your tummy they gave you something to help with that...well you need to let them know each time how you feel, so they can help you better .Talking with Doc is so importian . Make sure your drinking and eating healthy and getting rest. Most of all keep fighting ! your children ,d.h. your family friends and all of us here know you can get threw this. we care about you and are here to help you .
Please know your in our thoughts and prayers.


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Denise
 

Are you OK tonight? Communication with your doctor is very important as Burntmarshmallow said. Tell them about all the side affects. I'm thinking about you.:hug::hug::hug: