Denise,
How did you weekend , the cookout ,swimming pool turn out? I cant wait to see you post that it was fun.
How are you feeling today ? I think writing the first step to happiness for the 7th is perfect. I bet if you wrote down any questions or worries ,thoughts you have ... you could bring paper with you to apt and writing down your thoughts and questions when they first pop into mind could help "get them out" instead of having them fly , spin around and around in mind .
Then again sometimes the wondering just grows no matter what.
PLEASE KNOW ,You have all of us here and you are safe to worry vent and share right here with " family". we lean on eachother and we are here for you like you are here for us!
I am JEALOUS of you going to pool! hope you had a cool swim for me??... tis hot hot here in Florida !
Healing thoughts and praying strength, courage and comforting peace for you and your family. Let us know how your doing ;)
:hug:
BMW

Denise
 

I hope that your weekend went well. I hope that you have a happy Tuesday.

As the sand grains of the Earth cannot be counted,neither can his loving thoughts be counted toward you.

He delights in your small steps.

He embraces you where you are in life.

He will never leave you,nor forsake you.

You will come to a point where you won't be affected by what happened in the past. The Lord holds your hand firmly,as the former things pass away,and new things come to light. His light shall shine brightly.

You where born in a natural body,you will be raised in a spiritual body. BF :hug::grouphug:

thank you it was not all that great but i did find enough strength to take my kids to the carnival which was just nerve racking everything seems to be getting on my nerves lately my dr says it looks like i am going to come off my meds as of tuesday for two weeks which kinda scares me because of the fact that my sons 3rd b day party is july 13 and his birthday is july 14 i hope i can keep it together on those important days for him i just been beating myself up lately about everything i just feel so worthless and useless its just hard right now and i dont know how to get out of this slump thanks again for all your love and support:hug:

Denise
 

You are of great worth,and don't be down,or hard on yourself. You have had a trauma that's been hard for you to beat. You are getting help,and taking the right steps. A bunch of us are backing you up,and you are worth it.

God created you,and loves you as you are. He's going to keep helping you. Hang on. He works many times through people. BF

today i hurt myself i burnt myself so i dont have to feel the mental pain i rather feel physical pain if that makes any sense i am frustrated where i am going to explode if i dont scream or punch something i just feel frustrated sorry i wanted to vent hope i didnt offend anyone thanks again for all your support bf

Denise OUCH!!!
 

I'm sorry that you Burn't yourself. Ouch!!!! The body,and mind can't take but so much pain,so it's homing in on the burn. Ouch!!! Vent all you want. That's what we are here for. Hit a pillow. Scream in the bed. That muffles the sound. I have done that. BF Ouch!!!:eek:

I just feel so stressed out and weird i dont know if i will ever feel normal. my 9 year old son said something that killed me today. He said why cant u be normal and nice like other mothers. he said why do u have to be so mean and mad and sad all the time. that just kills me because i know this illness is not only affecting me but my kids and i cant do that to them i wont do that to them so i have to think what would be worse for them to grow up without me or grow up with a bad mother.

Denise
 

Remember. You didn't ask for the illness. It came down the family tree,and was triggered by the incident. You are a good lady. Remember what your husband said. You'r the strongest lady he's ever known.

Just raise the kids as best as you can,and your children don't know what his friends parents are like without them visiting. I know,and you know that they are not perfect either. They are in their best behavior with visiting kids. I'm sure they act like they are perfect to visitors.

Again...Remember....It's not your fault...

Be yourself... Don't live up to someones comparisons... Try not to respond to comparisons...Be yourself...and keep making baby steps.

Soon your probably going to feel better,and hang in there...I know your going to be better soon.

Out of the mouth of babes... don't be to concerned with what you hear from them that is negative. Teach them. Love them. Keep the nice things that they say,and let the negatives go. Love BF

happy 4th of july i am trying to forget it but i keep hearing it in the back of my head and it is tearing at my heart i dont know what i am going to do i hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of july weekend

Happy forth of July to you too,and your precious family. I understand. Try not to let it bother you to much. You are of great value. You are created. Just as you are,you are worth more then can be measured,or counted. BF:hug: