[JFlighttt]

Hello everybody, Brian here, first post in the community.

Not sure where to start but I'll start out saying I have changed dramatically over the past couple of years and it's really hard to live with the issues I am facing.

Going back through childhood, grew up as a normal kid, fulfilled life and had a lot of fun. Coming towards the end of high school ( i am 19 now) things started to change and I lost the person who I used to be.

My current symptoms on my everyday basis are:
Depression
Derealization; Depersonalization episodes from time to time, quite often
Anxiety
Anhedonia
Tiredness ALWAYS
Disrodered thinking, thinking in unusual ways and perceiving things very unusually
Distorted/unusual view of reality
Insomnia and OCD (rumination on thoughts and in my mind for hours when trying to fall asleep)

I have been feeling this way for I would say about 2 years. I am living in a very strange and frightening world that anyone can only imagine to see in a nightmare.

What brought me to this community was my research on myoclonic jerks.

I was laying in bed, closed my eyes and tensed up my abdominal area and a giant rush through my head is what I felt as well as the body sense of "falling" and it almost felt like an orgasm through the whole body is how I would describe it. An absolutely severe and intense body sensation that caused me to do very severe myoclonic spasms in my abdominal region for a second or so and then I give up because it is frightening. Whenever I try to relax with my eyes closed I will jerk/spasm uncontrollably mainly in the abdominal area.

I am having a hard time coping with what is going on and why.

My question would be is there any type of testing I can do at a hospital or anywhere to see if I have some type of neurological issue that hasn't became a problem in my life until recently?

I am currently on Lexapro-2 weeks in (10mg) and Trazadone to help me fall asleep.

Thank you for your time and PMs are recommended if any further personal details need to be announced.