Very confused today and feeling down. I am still taking seizure meds and one for depression. I am glad that I found this because I need to get stuff out of me. I can do everything that I need to do. God, I just want to cry and cry and never stop. My hydrocephalus is fine and yet the emotional aspects of it are taking their toll on me something fierce. I had to make an appt. with my neurologist just to talk about the way I am feeling with regard to this. I HAVE NEVER, EVER NEEDED TO DO THAT IN MY LIFE. It is like I am not capable of being in control of my feelings or....I need to get them out...somehow. Finally I am remembering what my hypnotherapist told me: it is okay to cry if you need to. Possibly if I am all cried out then I can start fresh? I hate it when I am alone in the house all the time and just go outside to do work to upkeep it. Damn habits are tough to break.

Hey Empath,
I have to say 'you are not the only one', cos a bit like you I'm all over the show emotionally and being able just to get it out of me does help. I do have a very supportive wife but the **** that just keeps rolling round and round in my head drives me crazy (more so than I normally am lol ) and it can be difficult to explain sometimes. DO NOT feel embarrassed nor ashamed, if you can identify that you need to 'get it out' then do so, its safer to get it out than it is to internalise it and get to a place where you cant 'get it out'. I know this cos I did it the hard way before I learnt. Some may say "...ahh, its simple" but until they've been there they wouldn't have a clue what it is actually like. This year (so far) Ive had 3 surgeries and maybe looking at a 4th and 'stressed' doesn't come close to explaining my headspace, 'screwed' maybe a more appropriate. But like you just being able to get it out of me, helps.

Merl1n