Judy, my friend, my compadre. I hear you and sometimes feel the hopelessness you are feeling. I force myself out of it ASAP, because I hate feeling that way and would not hurt myself in any way, because of my beliefs and of the hurting of my DFamily.

So, what to do? Easy for anyone to say, right? Except for you. My solutions are easy, because my MS is a bit easier than yours, as I don't have chronic pain and I know that you do.

Please do see a pain management Doc to see if you can get rid of your constant pain. The bladder and skin problems may also be managageable by meds and therapy.

Ask your Doc to admit you for some rehab. The idea is is to keep you as strong and able as you can be to live in your own home, for as long as possible. Go to the ER (take a relative/advocate) and ask them for some solutions to your plight.

Don't give up, Judy, please. I love you and God loves you.