thanks for sharing...! Wow...i hear ya...it's like dealing with Doc's has become a full time job.!!

I hear you too N2N. Sending understanding and

I am so sympathetic. It sounds like the craziness I've been through, too. It is just awful, and my emotional situation is critical over it. I can't take any psychotropic drugs and I need one now. My propanalol and klonopin do help emotions a little but I need a shot of 100 proof whiskey about now (can't drink at all). I would like to try LDN but I do not think anyone will respond to that request. Does it help emotions, Sally?

No drinking for me; haven't had anything other than one hard cider bottle since last Christmas/Chanukkah season. Blacked out after two drinks. I remember getting in the car (my daughter was driving) and coming to a few miles away. Heather said I was sitting up, with my eyes open & didn't talk to her when I was asked questions. So, no alcohol for me.

I will NEVER take any type of antidepressant. My poor mom is bipolar (this is the current term...she has been dx'd with several terms over the years); I've seen too many dr's (they insisted the whole family be "treated") handing out way too many drugs. In fact, I'm very glad that my current dr & neurologist see me as pretty well balanced. Otherwise, I'd be finding a new dr.

Some people need this type of therapy & I hope they follow their dr's advice. Others fall into a group I think some docs don't understand...so they medicate first & ask questions about what's going on later...when it's too late to be sure. So they "adjust" the meds. Not a good place to be.

Gripe session over, I think I need to go find a nice bar of chocolate!

I was poisoned for many years by drugs I could not properly metabolize. I am now suffering the coda of that stupidity, I guess. I'm on very few drugs now, but the damage is done.

I am less depressed today, just thought you would like to know. And less angry. I know it comes and goes. No doctor ever suggested I had bipolar. I seem to have an overall sadness which sometimes just sinks below the water line into all day crying. I do see a counselor. She has no idea what to do, and I told her I have no idea either but I enjoy talking to her. I would like to take one of those drugs vets take to help Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, because I heard some of them calm memories. But sometimes I can calm the memories just by making some change. I have now made a change from one church congregation to another. The first church had toxic rug cleaner and wouldn't couldn't change it, actually did not believe I had that reaction, a serious reaction which ended my teaching career (a toxic rug with toxic glue in the building). I am now attending a church with no rug.

that is mix up since you in the U.P. haha sent you a message as I am in U.P. also... curious what neuro you have etc... hope to chat soon. sarah