Natalie, I am sorry you are feeling badly! Maybe it is just an emotional day. I am starting copaxone on Monday and hope that it doesn't remind me daily of the MS. I take weekly shots of B12 now, and just say it is to help keep me healthy. I hope that is the attitude I can use for the copaxone.

We all have to find out way of dealing with the grief and stress of this disease. I work in addiction, and have worked in hospice, and because of that have gotten a pretty positive attitude. I look forward to my life and days, and just don't let things get me down very much. Don't get me wrong, I DO have my bad days also.

I look at it like this. Life happens. At least with this disease I can plan a bit, regarding this disease. I could have an accident tomorrow that would make this disease a moot point. Healthy people can become invalids in a moment.

I was watching a hockey game either yesterday or the day before (I think it was the stars game, so the day before), and they had a young man on there that was 28. He has terminal cancer. A friend of mine lost her 33 year old friend to cancer just last week. My 3 year old niece has leukemia. They found out the day before Christmas. She is on chemo, in the hopsital most of the time, and has no hair left. All this, to me, puts MY disease into perspective.

When I am having a bad day, I let myself have it, cause just because we don't have the worst thing out there, doesn't mean we want to live with this thing we do have... and live with the uncertainty that it brings. BUT, most days I give myself a good dose of perspective, and I find living with this a bit easier.

I am not trying to put you or anyone down, and hope you don't take it that way. I am just trying to put out there what helps me on some days... not all, but most!

I hope you are feeling better soon! Put your head up and say we can take this!! It is doable!