Char,

It is a shock to see it in print. It just makes it more "real." I imagine if you have never seen it in print there is a little teeny weeny part of your mind that thinks "oh maybe this really isn't MS and it will turn out to be something else down the road." Now you can't play that game in your mind anymore. That's hard to digest.
I remember when I first got diagnosed I looked at the radiologist's MRI report. The doctors were a bit uncertain for a couple of months since I had constant fevers and other weird things going on that suggested infections. But from the beginning the radiologist called it. Seeing the diagnosis in writing saying "multiple sclerosis" instead of something like "possible demyelinating disease" or just "lesions in the corpus callosum or cerebellum" was very jarring. It was screaming at me off the page.

Hope you are feeling better soon.

Natalie