[whoami623]

I don't have any medical conditions (that I know of). But I feel that my body is slowly dying due to stress and anxiety. Does anyone else feel this way? I am only 22 and feel 72! I know that there are real legit bodily symptoms of continuious stress..but what the hell is going on here? I feel so weak,old,ruined! Does anyone else feel this way? I am so drained of everything.

[whoami623]

My entire life (even my mother says) I see the world different. View and see things others don't. Recently I have just been so lost in this world. Why am I so different from everyone else? Why am I the only one that sees things as what they are? Or maybe I'm not. Am I crazy? Or is everyone else? Who am i ? What am I ? I legit feel like an alien just plopped onto this world with no understanding. But then again I feel like I understand humans more than most and that I am just not like them. What is going on with me? Am I nuts? I can't keep a straight thought anymore. I keep jumping from one thought to the nest. I can't stop asking questions. I just want this to end. All I want in life is to be happy. But how can I if I feel so disconnected to the world? Does anyone else feel like they've completely lost it? Or maybe I never had it (sanity). I just want someone to understand but I feel like I cannot completely articulate what I am feeling or who I am into words.

[whoami623]

Does anyone else feel like they can see people for what or who they really are. Like reading them I guess. I feel as if my view of humans is so unreal. Like I see them for what they really are. Not that I'm more intelligent by any means ( I can hardly spell or omplete a thought lol) but I feel as if my view of people is on a higher wave length than others. Sorry if I'm not making myself or my thoughts clear..I feel like they're just rambling and I need to get them out. I feel as if noone sees or feels emotions the way I do. Empathy might be a way to describe it? I feel others pain and take it unto myself. I sincerley and truly care about people I don't even know. Like I'm connected to them or maybe I am so disconnected to them that I can step back and view to feel their pain/happiness etc. And take it upon myself rather than being in the moment and enjoying/being sadened by my own. Please someone I know I sound nuts but does this make any sense?

[whoami623]

My thoughts are racing with questions that will never be answered. And I sometimes feel like I don't believe others when they say "I know how you feel". Like how do u know how I feel? And if u did how in the world have you lived like this forever. Ever since childhood its like I was born with a different type of brain than everyone else. Since grade school I have suffered from depression/anxiety/panic attacks. That makes me wonder if I was just born different. If I do have to have this brain until I die how do I deal with this. I feel so lost and helpless. Like there isn't a doctor in the world that can understand me! Am I having a mental breakdown? Am I going crazy? These are questions I ask myself every day. At what point does a brain get so overloaded with questions and emotions that it just gives up?

[whoami623]

Hi everyone my name is Gina. I am a 22 white female. I found this place in a google search during a peroid of emptyness. I'm not in any way different from you in societys view point. I work, am in a relationship with my first love since I was 16, have a crazy family (that I wouldn't change for anything) and this may sound concieted but I feel I am an attractive loveable ordinary 22 year old girl. But all of that is how I would like the world to view me. My entire life feels like one big front! I hide behind a fake smile because I don't want people to worry about me. I have noone to talk to and even if I did I don't feel like anyone will understand me. I have so much to ask and so much to say so many emotions that I am unable to get them out. And if I did let people in on my brain I feel like they'll commit me to an insane asylum. I just really need to meet someone like me for once. I want to see myself from anothers point of view. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks/depression and I feel like it is taking a tole on my body. Or maybe I'm just a different type of human. Oh god lol ..what am I saying? I just looked up and I wrote a novel about nothing. I just did it again..went into space with my thoughts and I looked up and a half an hour has gone by. What is wrong with me people!!

[Lightrail11]

Originally Posted by whoami623

I want to see myself from anothers point of view. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks/depression and I feel like it is taking a tole on my body. Or maybe I'm just a different type of human.

Hi Gina and welcome. We are all different types of humans, that's part of what makes the world intersting.

Regarding your anxiety, some level is normal but the fact you are having panic attacks suggest some professional treatment may be in order. Have you seen a psychiatrist for this symptom? If you are working and have health insurance or an employee assistance plan this may be covered. Here is a link on the Mayo site for panic attacks:

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/panic-attacks/DS00338

Other things to try could include yoga or mindfulness meditation. I also find massage therapy helpful for reducing anxiety and stress related symptoms. You are young and it sounds like you have a lot going for you. You may also want to check out the forums that deal with anxiety disorders and general mental health and emotional support.

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum85.html

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum50.html

Best to you.

[ginnie]

Hello and welcome to Neruo Talk. I think a lot of people have anxiety. You mentioned stress too. Yep... it is out there. You found a good forum to vent, and seek those that have some anxiety too. All of life is learning about ourselves and others. Join in on any conversation and feel at home here. It's OK to vent and let us try to help. I will be here to talk to as well. I joind NT a number of years ago and never left. Found good support and lots of good friends. ginnie

[Darlene]

whoami,

It is great to have you come and be with us. You will fine a great number of dear friends to listen when you are in need of ears. Please, just let us know how we can help you out. You will find out we are supportive and relaxing place.

Please keep us up to date on your situation. Again welcome, looking forward to seeing you around. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Rrae]

Welcome!

You've come to a great place for support and understanding. You are NOT alone! It's good to talk things out and you're at the perfect place for that.
This is a very down-to-earth atmosphere and people are easy to talk to.

"Lightrail" has given you some good links to check into. The emotional support forums are toward the bottom of the main menu. Feel free to sift thru all the different forums and post anywhere you'd like. I battle depression and anxiety also. It really helps knowing you are not alone in this and talking with others is vital. Alot of times, people tend to withdraw and isolate themselves, which makes matters worse.
It's so good that you've come here and reaching out to others. That shows strength and determination on your part.

Please stick around. It'll be great getting to know you.

Friends are on the way!

Caring,
Rae