Hi Suzanne,

Thanks for the advice and support.
Sadly I'm in a very dark place right now. For the last 3 or 4 nights I've noticed that my right knee is always numb when I wake up to turn over. It comes back when I rub it. Also I have pins and needles in my legs and arms on waking to varying degrees. I've always had this a little but not this frequently. My arms and legs feel weak when I first get up as well. I'm now terrified it is something worse but I refuse to look these symptoms up and scare myself even more. My friends think I've made myself worse mentally by looking up PN in the first place.

I live alone and have no family in London (I have cousins about 100 miles away but we're not close). The thought of facing this living alone is unbearable. I have a small circle of good friends but my main problem at the moment is isolation. I have no motivation to get up and every day is a struggle. I can't face the thought of going back to school feeling like this. I have a holiday in Italy booked in 3 weeks time and I'm dreading the thought of it!

Sorry to sound so negative but I feel as if I'm in a nightmare that I can't wake up from, like Groundhog Day..

Thanks again,
Karen