I agree, I should have been able to know exactly what tests were being done. I confess I was a bit of a mess and not my usual strong self. It was apparent from the onset that she was not open to anything and seemed to have a course of action from the beginning regardless what I said. Knowing that right away dashed any hope I had of her being a doctor that would listen, be open, and work with me. She had decided pain meds and blood tests and that was it.

She took a dislike to me almost instantly JUST FROM READING MY CHART. Even hubby agreed. She read my chart and asked why did you switch from the initial dr that diagnosed you with thyroid problems? I said because she would not prescribe NDT meds only synthetics. That ticked her off, I am not joking. I could see it in her eyes.

Then she read all the "natural" things I take, supplements, etc. and without even ASKING me a single thing she says...if you are against western medicine there is very little I can do for you. Swear to God I had not even spoken at that point other than past medical stuff. I said I wouldn't be hear if I were not desperate and ready to try.

Then later, she says ok so the only medication you are on is hyroclorthiazide? I said no, I am on naturthroid. She says I am talking perscription mediction. I said naturetrhoid IS PERSCRIPTION. It can not be obtained without one. That clearly showed me she was ticked for reasons I can not describe. She made a judgement about me and does not like people who treat themself naturally.

I felt defeated before it even began and lost hope. I didn't even tell her or ask her most of what I wanted to, hardly anything at all. I took the stupid womans attitude and let it defeat me. Once again, another doctor, intimidating, superior, attitude, made me feel insecure and kept me from having a voice.

Been there done that. Never thought I would allow it again but there I sat, taking the hits, and that is what it felt like, and because I was so emotionally strained, I let it happen.

I took the stupid pill last night, and don't get me wrong, I get it, I need pain meds, but what I wanted was a doctor who cared to dig into my situation to find the root cause and work with me and be open to things.

So I took the pill. Took it at 10pm slept til 3am. First time in a month to sleep 5 consecutive hours. At 3 the pain part wore off and woke to huge, inflamed, swollen, red foot. Limped to the couch and used water, but the sleepy part of the pill was still in affect and I fell asleep with my foot in the water...not good. No ice, just water. Went to sleep again on the couch. Sleepy affect lasted until almost 11am. All in all it was a good night, wonderful relief for 5 hours.

I will not take this every night, I am so fearful of the chemical addiction and having to up it constantly. I dont want to sound like a lunatic against medication, I am not. But if I live 50 more years, even 40, I have a long time to go and plenty of time to get hooked on all the medicines, might as well take my time getting there.

I want answers, I no a cure may never come, but I want a doctor who at least knows what EM is and is willing to read the dang material and consider it. I want a doctor will to try things. Or care. Or at least not hate me.