[shogan7RSD]

Hi all!
I'm Sarah and I'm addicted to pain killers as well as other things. I am currently in recovery and my pain management doc knows about my chemical dependency problems. He only gives me Lyrica (granted its 100mg 4x daily) and just started me on Zanaflex( 4mg 3x daily) for my RSD. They both help the pain, but I was wondering if anyone has any solutions that aren't narcotics.
I also am a cutter and find it easy to control my pain when all I have to do is smash my arm on something. I'm on meds for my depression and haven't hurt myself for a few months (on purpose).
Anyone else in a similar position?
Anyone just want to talk about this?

Appreciate you reading my thread!!!
Have a blessed day!
Sarah

[dreambeliever128]

Are you in councelling for this? I think it's important to have councelling when you are going through so much.

I have been suicidal sense I could remember. Around 8 or 9 maybe. I have been in councelling for years. I got worse after I got RSD and that's when I got into councelling.

I am not an addict. I think it's something where a person has to have an addictive personality and also I think it runs in the family at times.

Sorry that you are going through so much. It's good that you found the group. Maybe someone else can give you more insight.

Ada

[CRPSbe]

I think you need help beyond your RSD problem. I would try and seek out councelling, as Ada stated earlier.

[shogan7RSD]

Thank you for ur advice about the counseling.
I do not have the money for counseling, but recovery groups and my sponser help me thru my issues. A sponser is someone in recovery that has been thru the steps in recovery and guides, supports, and is a true friend to you.
I wasn't really looking to tell someone how messed up I am, no offense intended ( I know how screwed up I am), I was only wondering if there was anyone in a closely related unique situation, like mine.
I do have a bit of depression currently, but am trying to trust in my Higher Power to get me out of it. Like all of you, I'm sure you experience occassional small bouts of depression. I don't want to up my anti-depressants everytime I get a little depressed. I prefer to get thru it UNLESS I feel a little suicidal. Then I speak to someone, usually my doctor.
I tried to commit suicide when I was 16 and don't ever want to put my family thru that ordeal again. It is an act of pure selfishness. If you don't believe that, I wouldn't mind talking to u.
I have not been partial to counseling since I got out of treatment and was kinda molested by my therapist (again I know how messed up I am). I just can't afford it and don't want to have to find a new counselor.

I hope someone can get something out of this, and again I am looking for anyone in a unique situation like me.

Have a blessed day!!
Sarah

[Jomar]

years ago on another forum there was a TOS {thoracic outlet syndrome} member that had a user name of cutter, I don't think she has joined here.
And the other forum had a crash so all those old posts are lost now.

Have you looked at our sister site also?
They don't cover the RSD medical part but addictions and self injury are covered..
Forums at Psych Central!
http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=57

We do have some Mental Health forums here too, but no self injury section.
Mental Health Conditions
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum84.html

plus we have an active SOS forum {Survivors of Suicide}
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
for survivors, for family, members that had those feelings before or still do at times.

[Abbie]

I don't know if you would be interested or not...but I have found a list of counselors and therapists in the Dallas area... many work on a sliding scale fee based on your income.

http://therapists.psychologytoday.co...zip/75214.html

Call around.... I'm would think you could find someone to help you on a sliding scale...

I understand where you are.... I too have RSD and I too used to cut... haven't for a long time but the thought often is forefront in my mind.


Abbie

Originally Posted by shogan7RSD

Thank you for ur advice about the counseling.
I do not have the money for counseling, but recovery groups and my sponser help me thru my issues. A sponser is someone in recovery that has been thru the steps in recovery and guides, supports, and is a true friend to you.
I wasn't really looking to tell someone how messed up I am, no offense intended ( I know how screwed up I am), I was only wondering if there was anyone in a closely related unique situation, like mine.
I do have a bit of depression currently, but am trying to trust in my Higher Power to get me out of it. Like all of you, I'm sure you experience occassional small bouts of depression. I don't want to up my anti-depressants everytime I get a little depressed. I prefer to get thru it UNLESS I feel a little suicidal. Then I speak to someone, usually my doctor.
I tried to commit suicide when I was 16 and don't ever want to put my family thru that ordeal again. It is an act of pure selfishness. If you don't believe that, I wouldn't mind talking to u.
I have not been partial to counseling since I got out of treatment and was kinda molested by my therapist (again I know how messed up I am). I just can't afford it and don't want to have to find a new counselor.

I hope someone can get something out of this, and again I am looking for anyone in a unique situation like me.

Have a blessed day!!
Sarah

Dear Sarah,

I hope these lines fine you doing better. I think it is very wise of you to reach out. God can move many mountains. He can and does heal, kind of like an onion he heals us in layers. Please be good to you. Much Love, Roz

[daniella]

Hi I am sorry for your mental and physical pain. I can not relate completly but was in a pain prorgam that was full days that was with many people who were addicted to pain killers. I do not have this problem but was wondering if you had health insurance and could get into a program similar?They do not allow narcotics at all and the only meds are like the ones you are taking. This is not a program for everyone like for myself who even they felt needed more intervention pain med or treatment wise but I can see where if you are in a place similar to what you are stating it can really be a good thing. They do a combo of things like PT and mental coping/groups.
On a side note I do suffer from depression/anxiety. I had this severe for many years before this and my other physical conditions. Then it did get to a good point but now since I have so many limitations and am in such high pain I felt my anxiety and depression were needing more support. I am a full beleiver that you don't wait till it becomes a suicide or crisis point. So I encourage you to see some of the signs you are stating and get more support now rather then later. I understand your bad experiences with a T but that was because they were a bad person but a new T can really help you and support you through this hard process. Many will work on a sliding scale. If you want you can email me as supports can be very helpful or anyone else too I am here. You are not alone and I hope you don't truly see yourself as messed up. Yes you may have some problems now but as my psych says who doesn't. You can get through this in a healthy way.Cutting and drug abuse is not the way and only numbs you for a short while and eventially to get past or through the problems you have to face the. You may have to do things that you don't like to though for a better life and push past many fears.
Hugs to all.

[Jennelle]

Hi there,
I used to be a cutter back in high school and was also anorexic. I never got counseling for long but wished I could have. It must be hard to have pain but not be able to take much to stop it. I found that my cutting came from life experiences and because I held too much in...not wanting anyone to know that I had problems. When I finally talked about it I felt better. Counseling is not only an outlet to let you talk but a safe person that can help give you pointers on what to do when in crisis. I found if I had the urge I needed to call a trusted friend.... reach out and use any support system you can....this forum maybe a good outlet for you. There are crisis phone lines in most areas also... check your phone book and you will find crisis lines- don't be scared to use it if you need it!!!!!
Feel your pain,
Jen

[michelles]

i had a twin sister who was a cutter and she also abused pain medicine, i had such a hard time understanding what she was going through when she cut herself, i did ask why do you do that and she said i hurt so bad inside when i cut it lets the pain out. like i said she abused pain meds like ie.. xanex and so on but the dr did put her on soboxone (spelling?) which did take away withdrawls she had coming off pain meds and it did help with her neck pain. i dont know if that medicine will help you but it is non narcotic and its there for people who have pain and abuse there pain meds. talk to someone who you feel comfortable with counslers,dr,friends to help you heal with your pain you feel inside, many prayers are with you take care of yourself.. michelle