Hope4thebest: I did write a letter to my oldest son about all of my feelings. Also why was he not welcoming me into his life? His wife then told me that my letter never did come? I know that my son read the letter than thru it away. He than told his wife that my letter never did come to there house! Also I sent an e-mail to his wife that had everything on it that was on my letter to my son. I sent it to her because my son never opens my e-mail to him! The big ? is I do not know what it is that I ever did wrong to make him so upset with me? I do not think it has anything to do with me having RSD.However how does one know anything when the other will not talk? One of his big time promblems is he has been handed down so much money from my first husband and his grandmother,that he is so into himself. I could go on and on about that side of the family! However it will not change things right now. I am very blessed with many friends! Maybe in time things will changes. Love to all.. Breezy55