Hi guys,


I went to see my Consultant last Wednesday and he has decided to take my Medtronic out. I'm probably just as bad or worse than I was when I first saw him, last December, I've been in so much pain these last few months, he tried revision surgery but that didn't work. I'm truly in so much pain, that I can't concentrate, I can't sleep properly because my nerves are twitching so much, i'm just not getting enough quality rest. So out with the old and in with the Nevroe, after the Medtronic he will do a MRI Scan, if necessary I might have to have spinal surgery, he didn't want to predict what that could be but a fusion is in my mind! Then have the implant put in... I swear to god I feel like i'll never get there, and as for the time frame... it could be anything between 6mths to a year because he has to do it on the HSE and not through my Health Insurance as they paid for the Medtronic to go in.
I am wondering if I want to have two major with the possibility of a third, the General Anathestic effects me something terrible. Can I go through more of this frustration after surgery. Then will it work, will I find myself in the same place this time next year with the same problem not knowing what to do. All these thoughts go through my head and yet I know there is no way out except through!

Yesterday before going to see the consultant I had no idea what he was going to say, he could have easily said I've done all I can for you and that's that, just as other doctors have said over the last 4 years but nope, he knew exactly what needed to be done and how it was going to happen. I trust him alot, he's the first doctor i've ever met that I actually trust and that I have confidence in and i've seen many idiots over the years that are more interested in playing golf, nice cars.

My hubby showed the Consultant a recording of me sleeping and my arms, hands and legs going every which way and then he said it was no wonder that I was so tired when I am so uncomfortable and restless. I have some time to mull all of this over and get my mind around it all. I don't know how I feel about it, I don't want to take the risk but then I know I have to because I don't want to be left in pain wondering what if....

He also changed my Meds, it's a new drug, I only started it yesterday evening so as yet I don't know how it makes me feel, i'm certainly not feeling drowsy or sick but my tummy was a bit upset today and it could very well be the meds, then again it could just be.

So that's my news, it's enough me thinks!

I look forward to what you guys think, i appreciate any advice that might comes my way.

Love to all,

Sinéad xxx