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11-29-2012, 10:15 PM | #371 | |||
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And in that I am feeling Blessed.
Forgive me my frailties, my lashing out, my trespasses, and Lord make me an instrument of thy peace. Oh yes, I do have difficulties as a child of God and forgiveness is that which also helps me feel blessed. A good physical therapy session today, another blessing, REAL good BBQ pork ribs this evening Cleo prepared yum the real deal and not the virtual stuff I cajole out of y'all from time to time, Love and Prayers, Mark56 |
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11-30-2012, 03:42 PM | #372 | |||
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Dear God
dear friends thank you for another day well nothing comes smoothly and oh my God only you know the truth it does baffle me my appointment is made Gerry Dec. 12th with 5 other important doctors appointments DEAR LORD YOU KNOW MY FEAR ABOUT HAVING ANYMORE OPERATIONS i on top of walking like a cripple as i am crippled the breast that didn't have the cancer has begun to migrate towards my stomach funny the permanent ones are doing opposite to what the temporary ones as you well know dear Lord i am tired of being sick and tired this is not my imagination and it hurts as it is moving it is what it is but i thought i was done and just to remind me as i am still grateful i just received my medicare card it is official AND THE DOCTOR SAYS "eva, are you surprised?" but of course if you know me it is still YES and although it is just another bump in the road no pun intended i could do without now what is the lesson in this??????????????????????? my hurt is enough but on that positive note i am in the works of going Gerry i hope that makes you happy as you know now what kind of uncomfortably i will be thinking it's not the procedure my eyes have been behaving unusual for some time now it started in the right eye peripheral view as if lighting struck both eyes are now behaving equally not simultaneously taking my meds no changes must get regulated my belly is bloated the apartment is coming along the tree will go up tomorrow it will be very emotional for me as all ornaments are original when i left my home i started with one ornament and each year would get another and another and when they were in school the ones that mean most too me i can't wait hope to take pictures and have Corissa do that thumbnail thingy i am sorry Mark i was just reminded you trying to get Sir Samson on i haven't learned how to do that yet Corissa is one that did it for me i'll have her explain it hope and pray all is well with you and home front so happy to hear success stories with the spinal cord simulator life is what it is right? we are responsible i make sure i do my part wish others would at least the same so many blessings Eva my children bond in a way that will be helpful Christine offered to help me stay on top of her not smother her but know she will not get away with negative behavior without consequences good and bad free will she is at the age scary time for parents watching always talking hoping so of it sticks and she uses it anybody understand me? all i can do is pray pray talk pray pray hope something stuck and she will think twice even better not put herself in a uncomfortable position and she does not have to become pressured to dress in a provocative manner to get attention she has no clue after morphing into this sexy beautiful young woman EMPOWERED WITH POSITIVE INFORMATION i have nothing but the best her understanding love God first then self and love his creation of a lovely person so much out there ready to take that all away those persons who are lost will defend themselves with evil doings no one to care for them as i care for her i am your shepherd God help me rear her and guide her to you in Jesus i trust keep me strong if not physically then mentally someone who cares
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12-01-2012, 09:25 AM | #373 | |||
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Dear God
dear friends thank you for another day winter starts today and it looks like it outside each day i have a project or two today the tree goes up all window are done veranda has sheer white curtains i will give them a special maybe pearls randomly spread something my daughter purchased babies breath flowers for the tree i will probably take a few break thru sooooo glad my granddaughter is here with me and what a strong strong personality to die for i loveeeee watching her in wonder and merriment only watching her i wish for a do over just to make it last forever i love children and the elders how is Ray doing Mark let him know i wish him a happy holiday with a delicious blueberry muffin i will hope to surprise Corissa with the tree up as she was at her dads house for a sleepover and she called last night to tell me they went to NYC and seen the ROCKEFELLER CENTER SOMETHING I COULD NOT DO so i'm glad she had the chance will return to this special place later as this place brings me much information and lots of special persons i have come to meet and have a friendship that is helpful for my soul to bring things into perspective what we go through on a daily basis a place of prayer with so many others who too are spiritual how physically and mentally we are connected as pain is the common denominator so with that said i will try and get started and be back later to all a blessed happy pain free and lost of belly laughs as i did last night my granddaughter loves my soft collars and last night before she had it on so tight she couldn't move her head from side to side and thought it was a blast she was so cute loving hearing me laugh for she has also seen tears fall from my face my meds are in my system my pain level is a between a 5 and 7 depending on how i move my head the rest of me are all the other pains burns tingle crack pinch numbing wrenching pain knees hips fingers hands right arm shoulder neck the brain has a ache not to bad of a headache and i'm rambling on have a great day someone who cares
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12-03-2012, 12:34 AM | #374 | |||
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Not worshipping a hero mind you, but today we were able to attend a local worship service where Lee Strobel of Case for Christ and other investigative works led the worship meeting. It was humbling to see and hear him speak about his walk from a life out of tune with the spirit into a walk in the light.
It was amazing all of the additional traffic into the parking lot related to someone different speaking...... but the dynamic of hearing him speak of his having been humbled by discovering faith was worth the effort of waiting to get into the parking lot. So, do I feel blessed at having had such a worship experience today? Absolutely, One in the spirit, Mark56 |
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12-03-2012, 10:45 AM | #375 | |||
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Dear God
dear friends thank you for another day the 21st isn't here yet and we already claimed winter when we put the tree up and it was a special time with me and my daughter Christine as she sat on the floor taking out all the ornaments blessed to have the chance to give her a special time she said last night before her sister came home how much she enjoyed the time with me over the weekend tears and all Lord her our prayers your warmth in my soul as i know you understand PAIN there is a story on NJ NEWS of botox helping helping newborn babies calm the muscle in their bodies who suffer from birth defects like cerebral palsy stroke patients and spinal cord injury i wonder if it could be used in cases like mine and others just numb certain nerves and the non evasiveness of it like not having to go under and then use a knife to cut me open never again i swear is something i would consider it gets harder and harder as the days go by i look at my body in a full length mirror and see how frail i have become to push myself beyond what my body will allow has its repercussion something all who suffer with chronic pain for me the most painful is when my head becomes to heavy to hold up to have Christine here as my caretaker is truly a blessing thank you as i wish they could live with us permanently i'll just enjoy as it is as if they were and besides she really helps in every way i miss my dog but now i have Eva to enjoy and gives innocent unconditional LOVE i really cannot ask for anything better today i will relax the next three days are doctors all important ones much to do in the three days as i cannot go out and walk my back won't allow it my right knee is still swollen and dear LORD WHY the PAIN cannot squat when need to so as i enjoy my day of painful rest i wish all a better feeling than my body THE IDEA OF BOTOX IS INTRIGUING TO ME i express my love of SPIRIT ESPECIALLY when in a room filled of IT! and in holiday spirit i wish all love it blessed THE HOLY SPIRIT AMEN! someone who cares
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12-03-2012, 09:28 PM | #376 | ||
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Eva..
Botox is used in treating Cervical Dystonia. This could possibly be helpful in your situation. I had injections several years ago for the Dystonia. Unfortunately, they did not help; but the waiting room was full with patients with the Dystonia (Spasmotic Torticollis). Botox was helpful for many of them. Also, very happy to learn of your Dec. 12th appointment. This is something that can easily prevent a serious disease. Take it from one who knows.... Praying, Gerry |
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12-03-2012, 09:55 PM | #377 | |||
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so happy to know you you taught me things that make absolute sense and i thank you for that you too are who has learned the hard way and sends a message and i listened as i pray all the women i come in contact and conversation with heed to my warning my example my experience strength and HOPE you take good care of yourself and will be looking fro you much love sending your way someone who cares
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12-05-2012, 10:14 AM | #378 | |||
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Dear God
dear friends thank you for another day you Spirit fill my being it is a trying time for me i have to go to the doctors and cannot cancel not go it is imperative to that i go my appointment will be at the reconstructive doctor he released me a little over a month ago and a problem arose where my left implant has become to migrate towards my stomach and it is painful to the point i can feel it push between skin and meat sutures are probably the way to stop it from further movement here is the thing i DO NO WANT TO GO UNDER so therefore it must be general i must get ready as my appointment is at 11:00 A.M. will come back for my blessings for the day much LOVE to the world someone who cares
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12-05-2012, 11:21 PM | #379 | |||
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Dear Eva, you bless and you bless
I feel your reach throughout this space Yes Ray is well for 93 although his strength ebbs so I have not been able to share a blueberry muffin with him lately he is barely strong enough to have me visit and I can no longer understand his spoken word for his strength to work the tongue has departed So I hope to spend some time with him tomorrow. I sure pray your comfy new bed is helping you rest blessing your spirit and your illness worn body time for some peace and rest, huh? Taking time for yourself despite the continued challenges, I feel grateful to know the blessing of your cointinual sharing here. May your life on that twentieth floor fill you with wondrous vistas of skies filled with the eyes of God ever watching and smiling over you and your family and from time to time Sir Ollie..... Feeling blessed to be able to pray for you, Me |
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12-06-2012, 10:56 AM | #380 | |||
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Dear God
dear friends dear Mark thank you for another day? i am sooooo angry hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt my life lesson so i go to my f.....g appointment 2nd one for the week yesterday was the reconstructive doctor Michael Baruke he did my balloons after my hiccup in the road with f.....g cancer today i go to the dermatologist Easter Hershenbaum just to check for melanoma but my f.....g anger starts yesterday at Michaels office so i'm there because i know my f.....g body i have eyes as my two girls do a clearly see what i see in the mirror not to mention my left chest hurt as the implant is beginning to migrate downward towards my stomach you can feel it not only see it so i sit in the huge waiting room this is not a place where they only do cosmetic surgery it is a rehabilitation facility called Centra as i wait to be seen i am admiring a youngish grandmother and a little baby girl on her lap maybe 3 months old as time is passing i have Christine show a picture of my grandchild Eva i do pray help me understand why can't one thing just go f.....g smoothly i couldn't take sitting as the tears started from pain f.....g pain while in standing position the grandmother begins speaking Spanish to her daughter and Christine understands spanish she was telling Christine she had surgery as she remembers her pain like mine GOD is this your way of f.....g with my head turns out she spoke in broken English quite well comes to the U.S.A. several times a year and we are talking she tells me 3 fusions via anterior and 3 fusions in her lower back READY? she tells me she has the surgery where i had mine HACKENSACK UNIVERSITY I TELL HER THAT IS WHERE I HAD MINE AND THE NEXT THING I SAY IS MY DOCTORS LAST NAME PETERSON AND THEN CONFIRM WITH A FIRST NAME I WAS SO HAPPY FOR HER AS SHE MOVED AND HELD THAT BABY with such EASE i couldn't help but cry inside so then i finally my name called sitting on the table Michael Baruke comes in cordial as usual goes to the computer finally i explain why i am there he asks me to flash i pull my shirt DOWN as i have trouble lifting my f.....g arms and tells me they are just F.....G FINE i tell him where it hurts he feels and says those are the sutures i ask can the implant break thru the he tells me yes but likely not because he made sure his was tight NOW I ASK DEAR LORD i know my f.....g body my gynecological doctor one of who i went to this week agreed and was visible to his eyes i ask what the f..k when will you give me a break i don't believe i am being punished but please i ask LORD HEAR OUR PRAYERS what am i not getting my love of God is true my love for Mother Mary who birthed Jesus Christ no one can argue that he walked this earth as a Human and we too are Spiritual BEINGS living life as humans occupying this planet designed through evolution and in that a beginning FAITH we are being watched over LORD OH LORD i am feeling like the footprints are mine and i am walking alone i have an open mind i would like to believe others might argue that mistake my relentlessness as a ***** whatever i stand in truth so only my God knows i originally opted not to have any implants at all just would hope i wouldn't be butchered and honestly they looked horrific until permanents when more skin was taken anyhow i now am wondering what the f.....g lesson is i almost wish i went with my gut and just leave them and have tattoos i know i what i am talking about and because he said the door is open Eva in time i'll be in again but only to ask and have them removed i asked him hypothetically if i should have to come back and it turns out there is a migrating problem could he botox the area and do the job he said no too much tugging ooooooooooooooookay now what f..k i just want to take all the ailments my family has and give them a clean slate take all physical aliments and bring it with me but then no lessons i AM tired of the life in bed yesterday i made a trip to a store i swore i wouldn't step foot in now i EVAVATS COULD NOT WALK ANYMORE AND A WOMAN TOOK MARIA TOOK NOTICE did everything to get me a buggy cart another thing i swore i wouldn't be sitting in but i did MARIA and i hugged turns out she is homeless her belongings in storage and living here and there wherever she can find a place her mother lives in Florida anyhow is this not divine intervention or a just by chance i mean really what are the chances i meet a woman who comes to the U.S.A 2 or 3 times to visit at my boob doctor and share the same surgeon thankfully she is a success but you get the picture what are the chances divine intervention in one form or another what the f..k are the chances i am so doooooooooone this is the pattern of this persons life right God you know what i'm talking about as you know all i need to get ready wishing all a pain free day
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