I sure hear your grief and frustration. I want you to know, when I pray and am mad at the same time, that F word comes out. My medical part D will not cover pain patches but will cover morphine which I don't want. Won't cover what I need to breathe, but will cover for depression. ????? my level of frustration is over the top. Hope we all do better in the future. ginnie

Just want to give you Christmastime blessings of prayer over the whole of the issues which burden you, for it is hard struggling as you do with much... home, health, uncertainty, and hope for a better tomorrow. May your roof be made whole and the meds properly addressed to afford you help to receive things which are helpful and not hurtful.

Agape,
Mark56

Risking sanction by all women on this board, I want to address the boob matter. There. I typed it. Have never done that before.

Anyway, it is a difficult pull on the heart strings to realize so much is so difficult and WRONG with the reconstruction you have endured. Reconstructive help for your situation should have been intended to RESTORE self image which would have been POSITIVE! Where in the world is Doc coming from if he is blind to the review of your case when another physician, the patient, and the patient's daughters can plainly see his work was BELOW SUB-PAR?????

i HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO PATIENCE for any practitioner who will hide behind disclaimers mandated from a patient as they collect their fees and produce garbage results!!!! NONE!!

Okay, I know I am shouting here, and I do not want to horribly offend; however, the practitioner is offbase, out of the ballpark, and nowhere even NEAR the game. Time to step up to the plate and address the problems here. If migration is obvious to the NAKED eye, then he oughta get the lead out of his behind and MAKE THINGS RIGHT!!!

So, back to Blessings, the true nature of this thread now that I have ranted, Eva, I feel blessed beyond measure you feel secure and confident in your willingness to share the full appraisal of your life with us. You give us a tremendous blessing when you thusly share with us.

Blessed with friendship,
Praying for you through my righteous anger,
Mark56 gently

Eva, my dearest Eva.....Who joins with us in only the pain God knows why....why, we are brought together ....again; not by chance...as I have so often seen in your posts.....nothing by chance.

Coincidence...Yes....Oh !!! Right !!!! I know the answer to this one....Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous.... Eva; God is there, sharing every moment of your pain...Mother Mary is reaching for your hand.. Oh, she knows pain. The pain only a mother could know. Eva, I see you in that cart....I see our dear God hanging on the Cross with only a small wrap on him. Again, sharing with Him. Was this humulation those staring at Jesus on the Cross.

Eva...there is a purpose for all you suffer. Can there be "joy in suffering"??? How God holds you close to Him. You,.... in spite of all you are going thru;.. call out to Him for all to see and hear. Your faith has strengthened the faith of those you come in contact with. We feel your physical and mental anguish, we feel your love for Jesus Christ whom you join with in your suffering.

Thank you for sharing...thank you for caring,
Jesus I Trust In You !

Gerry

You are such a Blessing with your writing today. Beautifully written! Yes, God brings matters apparently coincidentally together to demonstrate the full power of Blessing. Time and again this has been demonstrated for me and my bride. She and I watch and wait for the next such Blessing event, as they are plentiful.

Prayin with awe and wonder,
Mark56

Dear God
dear Friends

God my dear God
i thank you for another day
thank you my friends for
helping me see purpose
my tears run and run as my
hand tries to type an eraser
in what state is this mind in
a terrible one
after coming home from the
doctor i missed because i was
late didn't help get my mail
the lawyer i was referred to
sent a letter that he would
not take on my story and facts
so closure i thought
i must let go
Gerry my beautiful
friend thank you for
putting it back into perspective
how blind i can get
how stupid could i be
but of course
i am in my own pain
your words come from him
like a song
it soothed my heart
and made me whole
again
operative word for me is
anonymous
and Mark
thank you for not making it
a sexual thing
you understood the real purpose
and thanks but balloons
are how i refer to them
i am happy to share
my shrink got a kick
when i was explaining
to him my dilemma
have them removed
or allow surgery to fix
what is happening as
it first and foremost
hurts
so my session begins
at 8:30 in the morning
and stops for a moment
to add laughter in my day
says "i didn't expect to be
talking about breasts so
early in the morning"
he had me rolling
and added "it's nice to
hear your girlish laugh"
that felt good
i will let it do its thing
go to another doctor
when i am up to it
i am so sick of doctors
Ginnie my angel all ways
reaching to God praying
i send you my Love and Hope
in your home and praying as
well
as there are truly
no coincidences in life
the presence of his Spirit is
felt all in many different ways
as with Maria in Walmart
with my gorgeous loving
granddaughter to die for
thank you sweet Mother Mary
to be loved unconditionally
by a innocent child and pet
i am so tired so stressed so
sad at the medical world
and to all the doctors in this
world who go above and beyond
for their LOVE&HOPE for a success
when in their patients presence
never mistake that the patient
well being comes and then the
system made like this you get
paid for your services oath and
education on ones expertise
but there has to be some cases that
allow doctors bragging rights
their hurting their own colleagues
dear Mark
if i may ask
how can a lawyer not see the
facts and not want to do something
and oh boy if i had the strength i
would take him on
i won't
it will
kill
me

so the whole bigger picture
is my life cut up by a doctor
deemed disable, NOOOOOOOO
I AM DEVASTATED
THANKFUL
BUT DEVASTATED
Medicare and the lawyer has no clue
i will be on meds forever till i die
by the way cannabis is now legal
with script from doctors and screening
is done
somewhere in Montclaire N.J.ABOUT TIME
it does have helpful elements for a patient
and lot's of money to be made as the
establishment only accepts cash
where there is way toooooooooooooo
big of a window as far as taxing and
corruption
giving back on a true factual annual
NUMBER
i have no problem making i legal
as a recovering alcoholic for over
20 years i have my opinion on alcohol
and there be nothing positive that
comes from it from beginning to end
now
back to BLESSINGS
to my love of family my GOD
TO ALL THOSE I YET TO MEET IN
MY LIFE AS THERE ARE NO
COINCIDENCE [/LIST]

WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE

THE FUTURE IS FOR MY YOUNG
BABIES LIKE EVA AND SIR SAMSON

Dear God
as you wish
thy will be done
on earth
as it is HEAVEN

because
yours is the
Kingdom
the Power
the Glory
FOREVER AND EVER
AMEN!



SOMEONE WHO CARES

Eva,

I can only add my...

AMEN


Gerry

Oh Lord and LOVE of my Life
who saved me from self
from sin
of my own spirit
and of the wrongs of my forebears
I LOVE you LORD and lift my eyes
and my heart
to the heights of
glory YOU have brought
with the very tiniest bit of Your Creation.
I bow in YOUR presence oh Lord
for YOU are the GREAT I AM who made even these words
p o s s i b l e.
Living for YOU is Life in the Light
Giving self to YOU is really the only thing that is right
You bring comfort in times
of controversy
of pain
of hunger that mocks famine
of fighting which always seems
just for the sake of the fight.
Can we not ever lay down the urge to build
more sophisticated arms?
May we not reach out to YOU
content to Just touch YOUR face
for YOU are Joy, YOU are Wholeness,
YOU make salvation real.
May we who celebrate YOU
remember Christmas is intended
as a moment to visit humble beginnings
for HE who came to take away the sin upon this rock
may humanity stop
reach out to one another
in peace
that hope be recognized
as among the greatest gifts
YOU conferred upon us.

Grateful
and Blessed
another who cares.

One coping tool, and a real Blessing for me these many years of pain
has been the means to laugh at myself despite, or maybe because, of
the full range of absurdities visited upon my frame and spirit through
pain and surgery and healing and pain and surgery and healing again
so many deja vu moments come a visiting I at one point lost count of
the numerous surgeries.......

So I laugh, and think maybe a laugh will help y'all as it does me.

The Land of Frump

I live in the land of Frump
as my bod has become oh so plump
yes, I was fairly fit
and was exercise lit
so the bod had stayed fairly trim.

Then one day as I traveled on
a freeway to go work, not yawn
the calamity struck
and I thought "oh no, yuck"
I don't drive an accordion!

So the meds and the surgery
have wrought havoc restoring me
and from exercise fit
gone to FRUMP, this is it
and the trim bod is now full of flab.

But the thing about land of Frump
and not being just pleasingly plump
is frustration with this
because nothing now fits
as a roll now is where there was rock.

Huh, so this is the melancholy
gift of eating and joy merrily
where food once did not stick
it now globs on, oh ick
and 'tis true, it will all go to WAIST!

Thus when living now in land of FRUMP
and not wanting unpleasingly plump
so these sweats, they do fit
and the waist doesn't sit
always where was intended to be placed.

And the face now has chinny chin chin
you can count them, develop a grin
'cause the guy who had health
and could move fairly stealth
is not shark, but more likely a blimp.

So, he works at reduction a bit
to see whether old clothes will ever fit
OR more likely the case
to donate them, not waste
things that others can use and be set.

As the new mayor in Land of Frump
where the once fit, but now oh so plump
take a new reverie
from this plight, if you please
I declare time to laugh, No MALAISE!!!


Merry Christmas,
Hope you enjoyed it,
Laughing at myself all of the way,
and Praying too,
can't forget that,
Mark56 or is it 45, or 38, or 32....... ah to have a 32 waist again.... maybe 29

Dear God
dear friends

thank you for another day

TO MY AWESOME GOD AND
ALL WHO KNOW ME

as we do approach CHRIST DAY
the barn in which he was born
the sparkling STAR that guided
very important men bearing gifts
to my brother as my MOTHER
prepares to birth him
as MARY and JOSEPH
i am sure they were anxious
as i was with all mine
i find JOSEPH to be a real
man resourceful
i await to touch his FACE
to know he was the man
that was THE GREAT I AM
AMEN!
THANK YOU GOD
MOTHER MARY & JOSEPH
what a beautiful thing
among the nature of nurture
how ironic
NOT
all was to be just as it happened
oh sweet Mary only to loose him
as he was taken
God your own son
suffer as he did as a human
his body filled with the SPIRIT
for he did ask his father to
forgive them
they know not what they do
awesome he is
LORD JESUS CHRISTMAS
this is the story i speak of
love God first
Amen!
my cyber friends
i want you all to know
i was held up by this
BLESSED place
when i couldn't hold
myself up
a genuine love for
one another
i wish love for each and everyone
of you and those who haven't found
it yet THE TRUE ESSENCE of LOVE
for one another is my CHRISTMAS WISH
FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU
with a hot cup of coco and and a candy
cane topped with whip cream
notice the order
loooooooooove whip cream


someone who cares