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11-23-2012, 12:15 AM | #361 | |||
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The season of the approaching Christmas celebration. Merry Christmas to all.
Eva, I tried without success to post a photo or several today. Ineptitude on my part no doubt. Yep, Samson is indeed a Blessing to us, and he grows. Eating solid food and drinking from a sippy now.... next he will be wanting the car keys! Watch out for daughters and granddaughters y'all, he has blue eyes like his daddy. Prayin for all who have need, and all of us do.... Mark56 |
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11-24-2012, 12:37 PM | #362 | |||
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dear God
dear friends thank you for another day what's going on the pain in my body i cannot find one thing other than my hair my hands are so painful today dear GOD you know where my head is at i will not be leaving my bed again other than to go to the bathroom "calgon take me away" i do not like to be in this state my shrink asks me "eva are you surprised" and i say yes all the time i do not expect anything than the truth dear God what should i be thinking should i not keep whom ever honest if they should be having a hard time with the truth of the matters it feels good standing in the truth God i think of life ever after to be in the Grace of your perfect Kingdom you give us Life made with Spirit and Innocence i sit back and watch EVA in amazement she LOVES me sooooooooo much looks to me for acceptance we walk around teaching her to be thank you GOD thank you JESUS thank you MOTHER MARY as we walk through the house this is what we are saying out loud it is precious her forming her words her examining her toes in amazement there is something special about EVA she is extremely observant she is going places dear God what happened to me didn't my parents see the same in me or my sisters my body broken at 51 soon to be 52 i miss lovemaking i miss laughter i miss a person i can trust i love my family they know that my empty feeling is all the sex available i am not interested in the ones who call and are married tell me what a mistake hinting how i might feel being 2nd fiddle God you know what plane i am at it be your choice let me be able to love someone special and not be looked at as a awesome bout just called sex make the hurt go away please make the hurt go away i beg please take the hurt away my baby girl Corissa is forming into a beautiful young lady the challenge is keeping the self esteem necessary in today's era in school we are working on helping her understand mind over matter and the fact is youngsters are cruel and it is not in her nature so she feels out of sorts she is not able to see her beauty as i do and remember i have been there before with my adult children my goodness they went through their 20's already where did my live go in such a quick time i guess i am feeling my mortality only i feel my will be short i don't want too think in such a way but things are breaking falling apart my pain is all over Thanksgiving day the back of my right knee began to hurt the next day i could not bend in squat position has not gone away nausea just set in as it too comes in waves something is up with my bladder it to has a change i even feel physically i could pee my panties running to the bathroom all new progressing where it is embarrassing what is going on GOD can you please ease it up for a bit i need my hands and they are working at 25% my thumbs are out out commission i have mentioned in the past medicinal meds is something i do use for nausea it too helps with some of my pain will have to go there for relief doctors all are on the same page i have told all of them including the most important one just before i go in for surgery yes that doctor anyhow i keep all of me is real blessed i am even feeling how i do as there are others in much more than than i am feeling thank you GOD AMEN! to my friends i hope you holiday spirit was alive we all shared thanks and gratitude before we dove into the food oh i so over did it eating my baby boy Sir Oliver was unable to keep his mouth quiet enough with Eva at first afraid then he just couldn't help himself we had him out on the veranda he couldn't keep quiet even my 20th floor tenant EILEEN says out loud who's dog now i can have a visit and take it further if want but that isn't the point my dog was stressed Saraeve ad new daddy Louie drove him home but he had his Thanksgiving meal i missed him so much my son was also in rough shape back on meds only lithium 1200 ml a 2 x's a day needed to nap he was so out of it so hurtful to watch especially because he got his old job back they liked and missed his work president welcomed him back they know about his meds not to mistake him on anything else and it is scary to watch him his body has not yet acclimated my family was great i was a beautiful sight watching them enjoy each others company i am blessed to share with you my experience strength and hope HOPE to accept the things i have no control of understand God at work at every moment the gravity stronger than others i give my heart to you as i accept it is for my own good one way or another "give us this day our daily bread" as many need your word in JESUS i trust spread the word BLESSED BE YOUR DAY someone who cares an awful lot hope all a blessed day
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11-25-2012, 03:39 AM | #363 | |||
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dear God
help me thru this night i feel awful from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet if i could turn my body inside out maybe i would understand and it could be seen to those who have no clue and expect more from me for i look fine on the outside even with my thinning hair i am loosing so much hair from tamoxifen the nausea i a b...h wondering if weather change is causing any of it i am feeling weaker than usual this has me concerned Lord i have so much to do it isn't going anywhere would love that energy that it takes to get it done i have just enough in me to get up and go to the bathroom i am so frustrated having to depend on myself to get things done not so much anymore i reach to you for comfort calm me down help accept the days like this and hope this too shall pass i am so slow these days and something just doesn't feel right i know my body my knees woke me up my forearms hands neck i fear the idea of vomiting the pain i endure of such a motion is to difficult to explain when i can't explain my pain know it is beyond a scale of one to ten pressure beyond explanation and keeping it controlled is not easy to contain blessed be all have a great day pain free thank you dear Lord listening to my ramble Mother Mary thank you for your strength someone who cares
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11-25-2012, 08:47 AM | #364 | ||
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Those awful nights, where you can't sleep, when you are in pain, when your body rebels, those are the times that Jesus is closest to you. I am so sorry you had a rough one, and I will pray today is easier on you.
I was wondering of your doc. gave you anything for nausea? There are quite a few available, that would help. Be at peace today. I always pray for you. ginnie |
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11-25-2012, 12:28 PM | #365 | |||
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dear God
dear friends dear God thank you for another day the emotions are running high i an not in a good place i need to learn and slow down i am not capable of doing like i once could yet i put myself last again having my daughter and grand- daughter and always Corissa here close i am feeling many things i'll blame wackkkkked out hormones something doesn't feel right can't put my finger on it important as i no me well ginnie my angel always to my rescue how are you my angel so happy you are med free and any pain is bearable i have this new out of nowhere pain an now swelling out of nowhere easy does it eva easy does it it just isn't worth the aggravation and upset i want to be a part of life i need to get out even to sit on the veranda i am not feeling right it is bothering me no truthfully i worry it could be the cancer i won't be okay until i get over this terrible thought is the monkey on my back and i need to get her off she is relentless not to mention occupying my brain and heard from two people in my life and that is don't worry about it till it is a issue this is what i need to process and get a grip on today is another bed day head to heavy for my body my lower back out of service cannot move any in bed hurts to much i have my pencil and computer and love to come and share my experience strength and hope the support is always here CORISSA my precious angel has been having some issues of importance not able to express her trials being pulled so many directions for sure boys can be such jerks and hurting a human being is not something i want for her having only herself to depend on i have to help her build in certain areas i feel so bad for my baby girl we will work on it thank you DEAR DEAR DEAR GOD someone who cares
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11-25-2012, 08:05 PM | #366 | |||
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We know of angels
and life giving joy for in our dear children we learn of God's story the blessed life of Christ come to bring the Heaven way that we might have eternal God's love as we with Him dwell always. So many times I've thought back to sacrifice He made in bringing His dear Son at last that we may be thus saved redeemed and brought restored to life in Christ with God though the Father's heart was here torn when human tortured Son who brought Love. Thus as the Father shed tears and MAN tore flesh from God so we with child can feel fear that precious child be hurt in world gone wrong but Corissa, the BLESSED ONE is watched o'er by greater one than these who would lift a hand to harm her while God will shelter with His wings. I pray and Eva prays too Corissa be sheltered by the blessings of Christ Love and through you, dear young lady, may you imbue those who harm for fun, with Christ heart from Heaven above. Life is so very hard Eva, and as parents we grieve when our little ones, no matter how "big" they become in stature, are subjected to the straining toils of life. The unflattering taunts of those who should know better. The deceiver efforts through them to foil precious hearts. All we can do as parents is live the life of example, provide the blessing of Christ love in our homes and through our ministrations to those precious to us, then pray for them. I will pray. Too much grief has been known to have Corissa go forth without the extra special blessings daily from our Lord. Thus, we all join at Gerry's, and this is no trivial friviolity I encourage, but that we actually visualize that special place of worship within Gerry's home where she and her husband gather holding hands to pray. May we all in spirit gather there to pray as well to seek intercession of the most High for Corissa, for your son, for the whole of your family....... for YOU dear Eva. I feel especially blessed to be able to pray for you and have in my mind's presence the picture of Gerry's prayer space. May the peace of the Lord Jesus Christ overflow you, The comfort of the Father give you a feeling You are in His care, The soothing presence of the Spirit enfold You in His presence every day, and The ever present aura of the Blessed Virgin Mother bring to You the knowledge You are doing all you can do that is good, that is right, and that is proper before God for the sake of your daughter. Agape poured all over you dear Eva, In Christ through whom all blessings flow, Mark56 You are loved, dear lady, and the whole of your house, |
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11-26-2012, 02:36 AM | #367 | |||
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AMEN! AMEN! at Gerry's? i'll be there as we all trust in Jesus Christ Amen! my prayers received as in God i trust thank you so much my dear friend and you nailed it watching them hurt is brutal thanks for caring someone who cares
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11-27-2012, 09:13 AM | #368 | |||
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dear friends thank you for another day the hurt the hurt i feel so sick this too shall pass today across the Hudson River is a cloudy snowy expected day i am so angry i have to get out of this house and get back my life i have no personal contact with the world on a physical plane i yearn contact with the world out there everyday my job still there for me a job always i would love to try on a part- time basis but this body is not able to doooooo sooooooo my dear Lord as you know me like no other grant me day that are bearable i'll be okay with bearable put me in the zone i need to be hear my prayer Lord watch over my children who suffer in their own way Saraeve epileptic at 23 beautiful Saraeve life cut at the knees she has blossomed blessedness a recognized poet in a wonderful place now took 8 years for her to do something with her passion of words she is the Slammaster of Jersey City NJ jerseycityslam@gmail.com www.facebook.com/saraeve she and her team have made happen a Poetry Workshop for Women all conducted by my God's Saraeve privileged me with her then my boy Michael suffering now with mental dis-ease not a pleasant thing to watch when having an episode lithium is still finding it's acclimation to his body he says he feels better he sounds better than he was on Thanksgiving Day a brilliant man intelligent beyond my expectation without effort his intrest is world history back to work at his old job he found some relief his stepbrother was seeking out my son Shawn my ex's child 18 or 19 is also gay and Shawn was receptive to keeping in contact with him my son was open to a relationship my angel Christine making strives one after another a recovering addict with a cutie pie Eva grand baby Corissa surgery on right kidney two times partial as in 1/2 removed and was also born with a double tube on right side both 0 capacity on left only working at 40% she was 3 and a half months old she has been through much especially with watching her siblings leaving one by one as they were ready in their gestimation so we are down to me i need to keep my crap together they all still pick up the phone and talk to me i know they were hand picked by you and i thank you for the blessed gifts my children and grand baby are here for the long haul help me help them understand family is a gift and not all like what they get you cannot send it back give it a try you might just be surprised well much still to do today my bed it goes up today looking forward to it it will be interesting to my special family here wishing you all the Holiday Spirit and give us this day our daily bread AMEN! in it all we are blessed and don't even see it keep the FAITH HOPE LOVE ALIVE BE KIND TO SOMEONE SOMEONE WHO CARES
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11-28-2012, 10:51 AM | #369 | |||
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and friends thank you for yet another day bed is up it is beautiful it feels beautiful until the body starts up feeling it in resting state most i will relax today the head is in a pretty bad place just waiting for my hormones to take a positive shift that would be nice come to find out some disturbing information about my ex and the truth about an inexcusable behavior i am smarter and all in God plan blessed to always have you dear God always listening i enjoy my talks and surprises you throw my way my pain is pretty poopy i do work through it but oh boy oh boy how i used to be compared to now people will tell you you eva are not the same you have my back forever till i come home thank you for all you have provided us with the gratitude i want nothing more than to please you as i grow blessed we are blessed we are AMEN! MAY ALL HAVE A BLESSED DAY someone who cares
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11-29-2012, 09:02 PM | #370 | ||
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Happy you now have your beautiful bed. This will bring a tender smile to you face. God knows you have endured so much. Your children...oh how they need you. You are the one they call when they need to hear your loving voice. You have been given purpose in spite of all this pain. Because of this pain' you are available to them when most needed. Enjoyed the lessons we passed on to each other when we talked last week. Will send a PM. Caring and Sharing,most of all Praying... Gerry |
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