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02-23-2013, 10:47 PM | #601 | ||
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Eva,
Since the Vicodin seems to really be causing some nasty problems; the doctor may change script with a phone call instead of waiting until you see him. Hope you soon feel better. Couldn't help but smile ( :-) when you mentioned pain in the "tush". My pain in the "tush" really has been pretty rough lately. Blessings, Gerry |
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02-23-2013, 10:57 PM | #602 | |||
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Prayin those pains in the tush, Gerry and Eva, though they be different come nevertheless into prayerful awareness. Prayin the Lord bless each of you that those pains be abated, made less troublesome in full, help you to find your way through dealing with all of this, all of this.
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02-24-2013, 04:52 PM | #603 | |||
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dear God
dear friends thank you for another day how i understand that this man who laid his hands on me two times luckily for him i don't know i have a report clearly saying my hardware coming undone so character is now compromised every single day i wake up if it's not a whole bunch of this s**t hurts and then the next a whole bunch of other things hurts like a B****H AND YOU CRY AND YOU TAKE YOUR MEDICINE THAT YOU WILL TAKE THE REST OF YOUR LIFE and get up day in and day out with pain that is in direct site my skin burn that i just want to rip my skin off how can skin hurt it does my fingers tingle so badly i scratch so hard in my palms of my hand to hold things and they drop from your hands how do i go on loosing my life as i knew it just taken bam like that and it gets worse after the second one the hope it will get better its gotten worse and worse and you get up day in and day out most days good for nothing but fighting with myself knock it off eva it is what it is he didn't mean to take my bodily function the simplest things i am now forcing my body to do and it kicks the s**t out of you because why oh i remember i'm just down on myself i have so many issues now it sickens me to the core how do i forgive dear God you know my heart i am so sad it has affected all around me my concerns requires me to be physically capable i can't make it to the bathroom in time to void number one i have loosing the ability and ladies the kegel has nothing to do with it how how Gerry my sweet friend Ger i believe you have captured a understanding from your child and heed much of understanding the level of this horrible and i'm sorry your situation is giving you a grief unnecessary i am yearning to be happy i must be hurting people even when my bedroom door is closed in prayer i ask you God hear our prayers help me i need to forgive i have to forgive i live for pain that riddles this body and it grows from where it all started and more than my physical condition it is now my mental state too it was three years ago i got all changed as i knew it and it affected Corissa i drove her to and from school everyday since taking the school bus and many other changes surgery and surgery and surgery and mommy not the same sees now as the advantages opened up a whole bunch of cans of worms to open up to soon and a backside of a father and now we are where we are it is not a good thing to say to your child kindly stop giving added grief she knows how her grades went from an A&B student so with that said we began using the method where she gets her homework assignments signed i get to see the homework i then sign it not working excuses excuses she really has no life other than school where she is obviously doing her socializing and she has permission to have sleep overs even though i never allowed that with my adult children when they were her age so it did a number on her for sure regardless she does have an ***** of a father it is what it is something just hasn't been right my chest has been bothering me winded heaviness and i just don't know what it is though i am certain it has a whole bunch of STRESS I PUT ON MYSELF just to add for the f**k of it i don't think so i am now struggling on a mental level and then my spiritually constantly being tested doing the right thing at the expense of my sense of life has been robbed i have to have faith faith is the truth of the unknown not fearing it's all in the plan ya see i don't know what it's not like to struggle as God only knows i don't like where i am this too you know dear Lord i don't want to die i just don't want to feel this anymore the change is within ME only i can change what i can it will always hurt some days less than others never did i ever think i would ask God just let me sleep why wake up if i'm good for nothing i don't live as when my pain wakes me i cry i have to finish this please i want to forgive him but then i cry it's driving me CRAZY i need to be HAPPY where is it where did it go someone who cares who hurts dear God hear our prayers as your WILL be DONE
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02-24-2013, 05:11 PM | #604 | |||
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praying for you,praying for you, praying for you
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02-24-2013, 05:17 PM | #605 | |||
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as i no you are
as i for you and all the biggest picture is GOD AMEN!
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02-24-2013, 10:46 PM | #606 | ||
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Eva,
A while back, listened to a beautiful homily about "fear". There is so much more to this; but ended with ......"if we know fear.....it is Not from God". You are being tested beyond all reasoning. Now, as if the pain were not enough, and you still show your love of God; your mental state is being tested. You are wise enough to know who is doing his best to take control in the hope of having you turn away from God. He evidentially does not understand; you will not give the "deceiver" control over you. He cannot have you. You are a child of God and will remain so in spite of the one who deceives. Jesus I Trust In You, Gerry Last edited by ger715; 02-25-2013 at 12:31 AM. |
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02-28-2013, 06:53 PM | #607 | |||
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dear God
dearest friends thank you for another day when i get all frazzled no place to run hide be alone to run when my doctors on not on the same page to tired still check in i'll explain about the meds doctors not in agreement it makes me nuts dear God bless this family with doctors that are knowledgeable too much has gone wrong too scared with lots of love and prayers to all 20 days till spring that someone who cares
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02-28-2013, 11:30 PM | #608 | |||
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The good Lord Bless you and keep you
make His face to shine upon you lift His countenance upon you and bless you with peace and managed pain through all things and all times |
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03-03-2013, 10:56 PM | #609 | |||
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dear God
dear friends thank you for another day to all who understand depression i am chiming in to bring you best news in a long time first a visit from Sam i am honored have pic will get them up with others Sir Oliver will be visiting till next Sunday laying with me now and Eva is going to get to get used to him and help get his food ready you all know i'm a happy mommy will come back and share way to much going on wishing all a bright day tomorrow i anticipate fun GOD BLESS thy will be done someone who cares
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03-05-2013, 11:46 AM | #610 | |||
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dear God
dear friends thank you for this day after i cleaned up after Sir Oliver he is set up in my room gate up a emergency purchase it was needed with Eva blessed i feel blessed looking in my dogs eyes was beautiful so his skin was dry i lathered him up with j&j baby lotion the old school pink bottle and gave him a massage washed his beautiful face blessed am i i missed him so much i went out and got eva as she is in la la land asked for him first thing when she got up brought her in my room and oh my goodness " preciousness " oozing out of eva sitting on my lap the baby now nearing toddler was beside herself so thankful i brought her in oliver was very good he is a pure breed Australian Silky Terrier after a bit Chrissy and myself the dog and it was great he is best one on one with the baby blessed did not come without lip from management shut them up quickly knowing i could have a dog solely on my depressive state not a word then i said i rather not go there and my daughter could not afford the doggy facilities and i haven't had a chance to really visit the last couple of times never something always came up and i couldn't see him so i did the right thing took in my family and am having a great time didn't get lip from management i should be hearing from Ms. Lynch Corissa's guidance councilor her father must be developing a conciseness after the messages i was forced to leave asking him to please save them she doesn't go in and read what my feelings are we talk about it she has just been told some things she did not need to know but it was the truth and the messages left was always with Corissa and Christine to hear what needed to be said since these past two weeks he refuses to speak with me so he seems to think Corissa is old enough to make her on decisions and i agree to a point as a parent we do things very differently so being the mom a mom that gives a darn as my older one can tell her how it was with them blessed i am she is the only good thing he could have given it is what it is I wanted her AMEN AMEN AMEN my physical being is what it is also the scary thing is my back doctor Peterson asked if i wanted to do the lower back, also i told him one thing at a time neck was priority that was over 3 years ago trying and praying that i can forgive blessed this apartment at a time i couldn't work any more this apartment market rate is close to 2,500.00 and a HUD building Housing Urban Development federal funded and into the hands of some crooks yet i am blessed standing in the truth it has NEVER LET ME DOWN to my friends following my meds back to what i have been on oxycontin, zenflex and perc xanx ans lexpro, latter two from my shrink he does not want me to take the new drug my pain specialist wants me to try NORTRIPTYLINE HCL 25 MG to that very special someone who is an inspiration to everyone you touch your diversities you have met unbeknownst as the cards dealt many with the same hand and at that point we decide how to play it or decide to cop out i am blessed to know many you especially along with another beautiful friend who is as wise as you left with permanent change as we all suffer is another who inspires know you have made a difference in me and the world my thanks dear Lord watch over my babies someone who cares forever
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