Dear eva,

Remain calm in the face of adversity and incompetence. This 'type' go home to their sad, unfulfilled lives at the end of every day, never achieving anything, never knowing the satisfaction of, or pride in, a job well done. They will always be mundane drones. And no-one pity when they bemoan a thankless task - personal pride and self improvement in any career brings recognition and reward.

I hope everything is resolved with haste.

Dave.

Father it's like some other being occupies this body
Where do I go
What happened to me
Why do I have to suffer I more than just one kind of pain
Why don't I have any control over my body
It does what it wants
It pinches
It burns
It cracks
It weak
It has muscles that just deflated
It is throbbing
It won't leave me be
Every bloody morning
Just stops by to start your day
Satan I rebuke any evil you come to bring false hope
and instead inflict any horrible thought imaginable
Everything happening with cause and effect
I just want to be the Eva that got up and kicked butt in my day
It felt good to retire form the hectic day

I have to get my granddaughter set up to begin school

I want us at the pool this summer as much as possible

I want to move like I used to

I had my own swag

All knew it was Eva

That seemed so long ago

Where are You Father

Come into my heart caress my soul
It cries blood
The life leaving my body slowly everyday
I rot a little more each day
My wish to jump out of bed and just run run run
My feet just not happening
My hand just not holding on
I slip away slowly and nobody sees
I'm gone
Lend me a hand Father
Hold me in your arms
Breath life into me
In Jesus name
Amen

my blood work reveals

MTHFR, DNA MUTATION

positive for two copies of the A1298C variant

i will post
to make it easier for me to express my * ANGER
please note
i have written about my found
POSITIVE ACTIVE THYROGLOSSAL DUCT CYST
not a secret to my doctors
AS MY DISCECTOMY NEEDED CLEARANCE FOR NEUROSURGEON TO BE ABLE TO PERFORM
WHAT HE WAS GOING TO DO WITH ME

and because i know my body
and educating myself
as the pieces of the puzzle
IN REGARDS TO MY DEEP DEPRESSION
COULD AND I BELIEVE IS A DIRECT RESULT TO MANY OF MY MENTAL AND SOME PHYSICAL PROBLEMS HAVING THIS CYST

this mutation was delerived via genes

i am depleted of some very important nutrients and some very important understanding how i beleive "it" is one of the very few reasons for this depression
it's all interconnected

neither of these doctors look at my file and see
i have a cyst that is a

DIRECT RESULT OF THE MUTATION

i went to my pain specialist and he then say
eva
i recommended a hematologist
of which my oncologist is
he too reputable in his field and among his peers
did NOT pick up that i have an active cyst that i believe took away my ability to wear my soft collars
very sad when that began to happen

i knew i was on to something
and there are some changes that could
aleve my symptoms

it explains the culprits when having this mutation
coffee
stress
chemotherapy drugs
potatoes
and so much more as i continue to do my homework

how my body has red flag items what my body is processing or is not processing

but why is it that these so called experts Cannot LOOK and SEE the POSSIBLE
(I BELIEVE FOR CERTAIN) CONNECTION

I AM FURIOUS
AND THRILLED AT THE SAME TIME

DOES ANYBODY GET IT
WHERE DO I PUT THIS

me

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"atherosclerotic calcification" found in my abdomen
a direct result of the mutation

my point

so many things interconnected
in my case
so much more sense about my body

i cannot believe how the puzzle is clearer