thank you, very insightful actually, I do know what you mean the new SX can get you back to square one, as far as feelings about MS, I do appreciate the fact my family cares for me and to that i am also very grateful for that.

I am getting the, I cant always do the backstroke, and one must float down stream, I liked that analogy, I do get it but its the I want to do more part I need to amend.

thanks for taking a few to answer me i am just doing the old WE need cheese with that whine thingy

Thanks Kay, needed this today.

Sandy, you and Jim always see the coolest people! Congrats on scoring the concert tickets.

Renee, Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Of course, My hubby and I are both bed hogs when we're sick. LOL, no one gets any sleep at my house when that happens. So totally understand.

TK, hope the breaks in cleaning help keep the hug as a squeeze.

Vonn, hope things work out for ya.

Frank, Totally understand the feeling that acceptance feels like defeat. But I'm learning that acceptance and changing things around are actually helping me plow through everything. Of course, I HATE change, so I have a tendancy to fight it.

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Today was a little scary driving. Went to pick up our tax forms, and had problems with feeling how soft or hard I was pressing on the peddles.

It's making me worried about how long I can keep doing it. I make sure there's plenty of distance between me and the car in front, but it's still nerve wracking.

What will be, will be. Think I'll definitely talk it over with hubby tonight. This, unfortunately, is not the first time I've had issues with driving. The drop foot is on the right, and sometimes it will kick in at the most unexpected moment.

If you want to watch out for me, I'm the maniac in a black murano racing down the road. LOL.

Fin, please look into hand controls. Jim has them and he is still driving. Maybe not as much as me, but he does drive when needed. They connect to the brake and gas and are easy to maneuver once trained.

here honey...





If ya gotta do it, may as well do it in STYLE, eh?

Sandy, I'll definitely look into the hand controls, thanks bunches! Well, this is going to be a fun conversation tonight with hubby, lol. But he needs to know what's going on.

Kay, do you have any merlot?

dagnabbit! I'm fresh OUT, sorry!

wine is VERY hard to get here in the jungle... well, GOOD wine... one CAN find rice wine, and cashew wine, but it's not good for more than cooking with.

on the upscale-Yuppies front, I took mi esposo to a special birthday treat - lunch last week, in the capitol, at an Indian restaurant... he had the curried shrimp, and I had a mutton safela.

and they had (GASP !! OMG !!) a REAL WINE LIST !!

we chose a crisp, light Bolla Soave (best match, under the circumstances, lol)

we spent two lovely lingersome HOURS dawdling over lunch, and polished off the whole delicious bottle...

thanks everyone ...

been thinking about this all day (and before) ... and it would be a good thing! I even giggled to myself thinking that I'll be closer to Sandy and Frank!! hmmm, good things do come around ...

I need a fresh start ... and spend time with friends that really do want me around, not just when they need something ... they make me feel part of their family and include me and ask me to do things with them ... up here, I feel so lost .. and now with the dx - I'm really alone ...

you all have been great ... I wish I could do more for you! (yes, Kay - your dark chocolate valentine M&Ms are still here ... a 2 lb-er ... and I haven't even opened them - tempted, but didn't yet! oh, I didn't mean yet!)

YET ?!?!?





it's all good, honey...

mi esposo found some Dove Dark Chocolate Bars at a fancy little store near the US Embassy... the store has 24/7 air conditioning, and probably brings the stuff in in a diplomatic pouch or something, 'cause omg, it wasn't a BIT melty !!

so, I got my once-per-year choco-FIX already, back on Valentine's Day.

thus, perchance if you get a wee bit hungry on that debt diet, well, I won't mind if you gobble the M & Ms.



'cause it's the THOUGHT that counts!

Vonn, closer to us? Whoohoo! Map-questing Beaver dam.

I hope this finds everyone doing well

I think this last spring snow storm has vonn thinking south I am debating it too, vonn thinks our climate is warmer down here its ok its got to be better than the great white north, now is that beaver falls or beaver dam. I say we buy a nice plot with cabins lake front docks boats rent it out for fishing and camping and horses, during the summer and ice fishing and snow mobiles during winter vonn and deb can sell all their arts and crafts, get sandy a big ole john deer tractor so she can plow the grass , and four wheel it around the place, and i got a a crew 5 kids

so how is everyone yes its late again no I didnt sleep today i did my best to rest and stay awake, even got a lot of nothing done today, which is always good, did some thinking, today and came to this conclusion

this latest attack sucks, that much I have decided, with clarity.

Starting to worry about this leg spacicity and pain its not going away, and cant use it still, calling nero the neuro tomorrow about it at this point a new med might be in order something i am on isnt cutting it so lets stop that one and switch out or even a brace of some sort for leg support so I can use the leg yeah its that sore and useless, doing massages and ice and heat stretching too, so doing all I can short of going in to doc, joy joy,


so on those positive notes

I hope everyone has a good nights rest, sweet dreams and a wonderful morn to great you


peace