[crytears]

Hi...I'm so lonely and sad lately...
I guess I'm just too narsisstic and not worth talking to by anyone.
I'm feeling so sad about all this...I've been crying a lot lately too,
This really cut me down to bits.
I feel like no one in this world gives a rip whether I'm alive or dead.
I don't have any family...too long/sad a story.
So I'm feeling very worthless these days....
I have very poor/low self esteme.
While growing up, I never had time to form lasting freindships because
we moved ALL the time in between the beatings my bio sperm donor gave me!...
Think it was so I wouldn't tell anyone or show the bruisings...why my mom wouldn't protect me...is sad.
Anyway...I'm just a pile of saddness, pain and always self focused because of this.
I guess I'm just not worth it...anyone ever feel this way?
I once was a top sales agent and had a great Real Estate business, then all in one season..
.my body reacted to chemicals in our new home.
Seee.God punished me for getting a new home filled with new stuff!
Then my health took a dive and I got on SSI.
Anyway...whaaaaaa! Whaaaaaa! Whaaaaaa!
CryTears
PS....Oh, and I'm feeling sorry for self too! can you tell?