Holly,

My father is in the same boat right now, and although he has gone through heavy chemo and radiation, we all know that the process stinks.

Let's hope that our loved ones are able to live satisfying lives with what they have left.

We can support them as much as possible and always be there fore them.

The best we can do is to love them and let them know how special they are in our lives.

Many hugs to you and your loved ones.

-Vic

Holly I am so sorry to hear about your Grandma. You are both in my prayers. Please, try not to overdo....let others help if and when they will. I know it's hard to do....and I'm the worst at trying to do too much and then paying dearly for it later. I hope things settle down a bit so that you can at least catch your breath. Your Grandma's fortunate to have you with her.

Victor & Holly - Saying prayers for both of you and your families.

just time to read today....but wanted to leave hugs for Victor and HOlly.

And she's back.

Can I just say I am deeply, deeply humbled by the amount of caring toward someone (that would be me) none of you have ever met in person. Thank you doesn't begin to express my gratitude. Nothing can.

The quiet snap scared the holiest of carp out of me because it never happened that way before. That first and his family's history made me not have a clue what was coming next. I'm lucky I knew my name then.

I still don't know what to expect but I am very, very cautiously optimistic. According to our pastor when we are spouseless and talking to him (pastor) alone both of us say we want this to work out. DH did admit that to me in the presence of our pastor. I reluctantly agreed to return to counseling only after hearing that.

We are scheduled to counsel once a week although Pastor says ideally it should be twice a week. Pastor doesn't think it would work with our different schedules but I'm wondering if once a week is too big a risk to take. We were warned things could get worse before they get better especially if we only counsel once a week. Worse means divorce in my book. I can not continue to live like this.

Pastor's own marriage is a been there done that story and he has counseled others like us before. He insists he sees a lot of hope for us. I see a quickly fading sliver myself. I'll let the door open wide enough for hope to walk in but I'm not going to hold my breath waiting for it.

I am being as careful as I know how. When DH is around I live short spans of time to short spans of time. I'm still planning to meet with a lawyer and prepare for a life of solitude. I am very tempted to have divorce papers drawn up for this spring/ summer. Will ask the lawyer about that. Some pastor counseling sessions may make me change my mind on that one too.

As crappy as my marriage is the rest of my life remains very upbeat. I'm still over the moon with joy over my job. I absolutely love what I do. I'm still very excited about trying to make some dreams reality, and life with my kids. I hope this puts your minds to ease at least a little bit.

Keep us wrapped in all things good. No matter what happens I'm gonna need it.

Work went well this morning and now I need to get some groceries and a kid from school.

Thanks for the update, Weave. I was worried about you. I cannot imagine what you're going through......but you're in my prayers and I hope it all works out whatever way it's meant to be.

Holly and Victor,
I'm so sorry that you and your family members are dealing with this.It is so difficult to see a loved one suffer with this type of cancer...my mom died days after being dxd with lung cancer. She was given 6 mos. to live, but she gave up.
We pray that your family members will have successful treatment...and will have a full-quality life for as long as possible.
Just make sure to take time for yourselves...you need to be strong, too...

Victor and Holly...my prayers for your family member with cancer. It seems way too many of us are/have been in your position lately.

I just learned today that my DH has a coworker whose wife has stage 4 ovarian cancer... they are officially retiring in their early 50s and traveling the world for as long as they can.

I'm feeling some better today. No fever and I slept much better last night. SO hopefully all is on the mend. Betaseron shot tonight, so I'll know if it's the shot or was a "bug".

Daily hug for everyone!

holly sorry and welcome..sorry life has been busy and overwhelming!

other personals soon, gotta run...lets just say worked 6am-420pm and worn out uggggggggggggggg

now on way to my parents for dinner, also my bro in law (madelines hubby)will be there for a bit yeahhhh

then to a bday party for my twin nephews...ahhhhhhhh loud bday party with 10 or more kids...(well sis and I make the ten lol)

hugss all, sarah

Holly and Vic - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family members.

I had a busy day at school and I am still dealing with allergic reactions. My area below my chest turned bright red this morning and it is hot. It faded once, but now it is back again. I just took a bendryl. It is either the copaxone or a new decongestant my doctor gave me that is causing this. I only took one of the decongestants and it was yesterday afternoon.