Momma,

We love you here. Don't even think about not being here. And as you said, things will get better, and, you are strong. This too will pass. Times are hard for everyone right now. You will get through this and you WILL be ok. God bless you. You have helped lots of people in your lifetime. Just think of what you would have said to them at times like this.

Patricia - Sending you prayers..... prayers and LOTS of caring.

I can't think of anything that would make me feel more loved than having mama smack me. I'm praying that your load will lighten Patricia.

(((Momma))) You've invited me to sit on your porch and so many others. You have given to so many on this forum and how I wish we could come close to repaying you for all of that kindness.

Your despair is completely understandable. It adds so much to depression to not have money, surely it does. I wish I could help you.

Just know that we all love you dearly and don't give up hope. Keep asking those higher and blessed powers every day for an answer and relief. I will do the same for you.

i admire you and am thankful for your posts.

COK

the link at the foot of my post is all i want to say

HOLD ON

David

(((Momma)))

COK, Patricia

You moved me to tears, I am so very sorry life is so hard for you at the moment. It is difficult to read of such deep pain, yet I am so thankful you were able to share. You are the very depiction of a survivor!


As a survivor of my Dad's suicide, your words deeply affected me....
It has been 1 and 1/2 years since his death....
Today is 545 days I have had to live without him....
Each day filled with a pain so deep, I don’t know how I am to survive it.

I am so grateful that even though you are in such deep pain you are able to think of your loved ones. So many lose sight of even that Keep holding onto them. When you can't face one more second of living, hang on for them. Thank you, for holding onto them

I want to say more, I just can't right now... I hope you understand
Holding you deep in my heart, thoughts and prayers

Yes, I understand...

I actually had a pretty good day today...I refused to sell my truck for less than it is worth...the man agreed to pay my price. I might not have my truck, but my truck is paid and so is the boat, they were on the same note. I might have a vehicle to pull it, but I can still go fishing.lol

Things will work themselves out, that's why we need to hang on for just one more day...never know what the next day will bring.

My dad is loaning me a PTCruiser they do not drive until they can sell it, but they are in worse financial shape ever. They are filing Chapter 13 just to keep what they have.

Nik-key...I can't answer why your dad chose to leave you, but I can tell you what my dad said about his mother. She committed suicide by drinking rat poison when he was eleven. He remembers that day more than any other, she sat him on her knee, she told him she loved him more than anything on this earth. She told him she could not go on living in the life she was living, and hoped one day he would understand, but never for one twinkle of time think that didn't love him with all her heart and more.

I truly believe your dad loved you with all his heart and more, and he hopes one day you will understand.