Hi Lonely1...

Hi Addy...

Hi Lonely1.....Are you mad at me?

LOL Alffe.

hi again lonely1 .... hope your weekend is going ok and you're getting some sleep?

Get mad at me, too! Just do something (yeah, okay--easier said than done, I admit from the confines of my house). Nobody here is telling you that it is easy, but everyone is willing and wanting to help you. That part, the "help part," can be difficult to accept but can help you to survive . . ., to get to that place where you want to live, to love, to help others.

Hi guys.

No Alffe, I'm not mad, I know you're just trying to help. I've heard that speech many times, and it always makes me feel ashamed of myself...more ashamed than usual anyway, like I'm not trying hard enough to get better. It's probably true, but it's hard to get motivated to help someone I like as little as myself. I know it must be frustrating to try and convince me that life is worth living, especially since I'm so pessimistic about it. It may not seem like I'm listening to your advice but I do and it really helps me feel a little better. It makes me smile when I get online and see that someone has respoded to my post, like maybe I do matter to someone. Sometimes that thought is all that keeps me going.

My weekend's not going so bad. I'm getting plenty of sleep (for me that means being able to sleep for over four hours in a row), even though I spend just as much time lying in bed awake. I don't mind though, it's peaceful and comfy, and much easier than getting up and doing things. Speaking of which, I think I'll get to bed early tonight.

Thank you for your posts. I hope you all are well and have sweet dreams.

And I've given that speech many times lonely1 and will continue to do so because giving back to this world works for my depression. It's a constant battle but I'm worth it and so are you.

It's Sunday, Notre Dame lost and broke Barbo's heart but we're going to keep breathing. *grin

HEY there! That's all I needed to see to know we ARE making a difference...


♫ tra la la la la ♫ Addy

You do matter to someone; actually, you matter to many of us here where we try to check in daily to find out how you are! ((thelonely1))

Really? Daily? How sweet! I also check in here every day, several times a day. So if I don't post for a while it's probably safe to assume nothing has changed with me. I would tell you guys if anything happens. I used to have a close friend to talk to when I needed to... but she has since lost interest in me in favor of the more superficial aspects of college life. It's so nice to have people that care.

And Addy, of course all of you make a difference to me. I'm sorry if I made it seem like you didn't. I wish the whole world was as caring and considerate as the people on this forum. It makes me sad, but it seems that the only good people in the world are the ones who suffer the most. Everyone else is corrupt and selfish, and none of them could care less about me or my pathetic little life.

I'm sorry if I'm being depressing, I'm not trying to be... it's just that I can't feel anything else.

Thank you all, I love you, and I wish you all the happiness in the world (Because you deserve it the most).

L1