Well, its taken me some time to read but I'm glad I came to this thread to catch up with you all!

I've thought lots about our Lara and come back here to check for her... I imagine, like so many of us... she'll wander back soon ...

We all have to go on "walkabouts" from time to time

I've moved (AGAIN!!!) ... closer to the ocean - when the Fall leaves drop, I'll be able to see it a bit!

I'm working a ton which has resulted in not seeing my Grand-daughter near as much as I used to. I had to make a choice as my funds are very low and there are times I really have to suck it up ....

Work is exceptionally challenging as I'm back in retail (what I know best, is what I keep saying... but seriously, I know lot more than that!!). Customers and the "odd" co-worker drain a lot of my healthy energy. I often am confronted with anger and ignorance which brings the depression demon close to the surface.

Sleep is my health ticket these days ... when work doesn't interfere. I have lost 20 pounds over the last 6 months (due to my diagnosis of Diabetes 2) and have a goal of another 20 in 6 months. Results - I feel better, walk farther, sing with more breath support (!!) ... and weigh the bad out with the good

Lots on my plate. Young man crashed into our bush line and took out 6 sections of fence...uprooted 5 of the huge bushes I have been trimming and barely missed the telephone pole. TG he wasn't hurt but what a mess. Going to take these two old people awhile to clean it up and rebuild the fence. Of course he didn't have insurance and our deductible is higher than the cost of the split rail fence will be.

And I've learned that Barbo was right...as we age our bodies just fall apart.
While sitting in NY at one of the broadway shows I felt a pain in my knee. In short order, it went away and since then has returned with a vengeance. After dr visits, xrays and finally an mri the dx is a torn meniscus. See the surgeon this month so we shall see. Let's just say that I am not moving very fast.

Cannot participate in the suicide prevention walk this year and that ticks me off. I need to go copy and paste here, the great song Darlene posted in the Sanctuary forum.

https://www.youtube-nocookie.com/emb...BfXCMbH4?rel=0

Hugs for the room!

I could loan you one of my wheelchairs, and you could still be in the walk, although not walking.... someone could push you, how about that?

Sorry about the bushes and fence. Goodness, I was just catching up on your plate, and read you had spent a good deal of time trimming bushes, only to see on the next page where several had been uprooted!

Hope your trip to the Carolinas was fun. We would like to go as our son, DIL, and grandson live in NC.....just not in the cards right now.

On my plate? Maybe more fusions on the spine, eek.....don't want the cutting anymore, but things are awry in my right arm and legs which give the DOC a good bit of concern and me a good bit of pain....so, we wait until November to learn the test results.

I hope your Meniscus situation can be addressed arthroscopically so there is less trauma to you.

for the room

Oh Mark....waiting is so hard...can't help but wonder why it's necessary. Now I understand your absence.....so so sorry about the pain and the possibility of more cutting.

If I say yes to the chair, will you be delivering it? I said suicide walk...they actually run and a mutual survivor has promised me that he will be running for our Michael as well as his brother Ronnie.

Haven't been to the Carolina's yet....hope by Dec. I am walking better!
I wonder where I could get a cane??? Such a beautiful part of the world down there.

Hugs for the room.

Wren, what are you baking???

(((Alffe))) (my spell check disapproves of your name - lol lol ) I've been making candy -- piles and piles of candy -- peanut butter fudge, peanut brittle, chocolate peanut butter truffles, macadamia vanilla fudge, peanut butter cup fudge, tiger bark, yadda yadda
Any day I'll dive into divinity.

I'm so sorry about your "discomfort" with that torn meniscus...... that's awful.
And ,Mark, I hope all goes well for you. Much love and many prayers to the lovely people on this site.

hate to hear of the people i care about in pain. feeling some what frustrated right now. a LOT of garbage/drama/nonsense going on at my job. sigh.....

LOVING this cooler weather. drug out my bluejeans and flannel shirts yesterday.

i'm down to every other week with my psychologist. hopefully after the holidays i'll be done. I've learned so much about myself these past few years. realized how strong i really am. overcome a ton of crap. still have a few turds to go but this should be a piece of cake

sending {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} to all my friends here. love you much

Plate is full with much fecal material Would MUCH rather have plate full of candy and cookies
Life progresses, mello today who knows about tomorrow. Have heard nothing back from last 2 interviews. Mayhaps is time to retire the old tired nurse
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Sounds like I need to wash some dishes!

Two of our daughters are nurses so I have some understanding of your frustrations dear pooh. Both of our girls "gave up" on the in hospital work and went their separate ways....Pediatric nurse in drs office and the other one started her own business...in home foot care. Both love their jobs now. I hear some heartbreaking stories but I hear the love in their voices.

Goofy I was so happy to read of your progress and all the hard work you have done to get where you are today. And your employers need to take good care of you...they are so lucky to have you there...I know how much you love what you do.

And wren, I think you need to start a business or at least get a booth at some Farmers Mkt so people can reap the benefits of your baking!

And Addy...what a surprise.

Mom has been back from Connecticut for almost a month. I feel awful for sending her. SHe has been damaged more from being with my sister than the damage from the awful disease that is taking her mind.

My sister "wanted" to take my Mom home to stay woth her because she does not work and it would make my life easier...i HAVE to work.

that lasted all of 2 months before she called me and said I needed to come get her that she couldn't handle it.

What I got back was a woman that is afraid of everything...thinks I am going to "throw her away" if she does BAD things.

will not go to the bathroom alone...Is afraid to have a bowel movement ..literally panics when she has to go.

I want to think this is just the progression of the disease...but I can't believe that this all happened in 2 months.......SHe was MUCH more independent before she left.

Mom has said during her lucid moments..please don't make me go back there..... they yell at me when i am BAD!!!!! REALLY??????????????????

I feel like such a monster!! for sending her..... I am up all night with her, I have to get her up several times a night to use the bathroom because she won't go alone. SHe is like a scared 3 year old....sigh

WHAT HAVE I DONE TO MY MOM???????????

You have cared for her, loved/love her and with the best intentions, tried to share her with your sister. Please, please do not blame yourself for the normal progression of this terrible "thing". My father suffered with this for years and years so I have some knowledge of what both you and your mom are going through. Did I ever send you that "caretakers of wonder" book?
Hugs.....and much love my friend.