I can't even get my feelings to come out and I hate myself for it.

Do not worry about how it "sounds"...just express it! No one here will judge youi....please know that it's ok....
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Hi BJ,
I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely today. It's difficult for many of us to get our feelings out. Don't hate yourself for finding it hard, 'cause we don't think badly of you.

I just had a look at your cat sites again. I found them really informative. I think I'd read them before, but quite a long time ago.

Take care of yourself, BJ. When you're up to it your feelings will pour out. In the meantime just take it easy there. Sometimes it's just one hour at a time or one day at a time.

Woke up with you on my mind BJ. Please know how many of us care and please just take one hour at a time.

bizi went back to Indy yesterday but will be here again, with both of her sisters on Saturday for a family picnic at my neices house. Your ears should be burning cause we talked about you.

Hi BJ,

Try to be kind and gentle with yourself. Dealing with feelings can be very difficult.

Do something nice for yourself today.

Hi BJ

As the song goes, to everything there is a season. It's not necessary to force your feelings out, and it's not helpful to hate yourself for not performing on command. You don't have to perform for us. We know what it feels like to have scrambled thoughts.

Give yourself some time to relax and let it flow. It might give your brain the time it needs to round up the feelings that need to be expressed through your fingers.

((((((BJ)))))),

Don't hate yourself because you don't want to look at your feelings. That is *NOT* a character flaw. It's ... I was going to say "normal", but what the heck is that?? ... it's just everybody else feels, afraid.

Sometimes, sitting in a real quiet space ... and breathing real slow, and real deep ... will get the tears (and everything else) flowing. We tend to hold our breath when we're trying to control ourselves.

Oh, I found a message that I wrote to you and never posted. My computer must have crashed and I forgot what I was doing (AKA "senior moment") It looks like I wrote it on May 27th. I guess I need to see what else is hiding on my computer

Hugs (and blessings).

Barb

I'm a failure. I'm weak in mind and spirit and if my mom could see me now she's probably turning over in her grave. I just need her to say BJ it will be okay.

I've been sitting in my yard all day even though there's 95% humidity. I took this pic of my Rose of Sharon. My mom and I planted this and she wanted me to have it. I won't go into the religious part of it but it means beautiful woman. I'm not feeling very beautiful right now.

BJ

you are a very precious and caring person .....and you so often encourage and inspire me so much with those special posts you make on the Sanctuary

I just wanted to let you know that you have been a real blessing to me and I know to so many others here too

Cheri

ps your beautiful Rose of Sharon has blessed me too

(((BJ))) it will be okay.

My Rose of Sharon just started blooming as well.