[Looking4hope]

NO, I mean it. I don't care anymore. I don't care if I walk this planet anymore. I don't care about nothing. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of not being heard. I'm tired of empty promises. I tired of being hurt. I tired of being me. I'm tired of people that don;t really understand.

I'm mad at God. I doubt that there is a God anymore. I don't know why he continues to let me go through this agony. I got well for this. I'm so well that the emotions are ready to explode inside of me. I'm tired of people being afraid of me because of how deeply I feel. Do I scare people away? Are they afraid because they don't know how to help? What did I do wrong? Why is it that it's always my fault? Why do I chase people I love away? What's wrong with me? Why don't I believe in myself?

Why? Why? Why?

I can't stand the pain anymore....

Where is my comfort?

Tell me where?

Please tell me...

I want to know.