Well thanks.

Though I wonder that my parents both believe that when you commit suicide you have a 1-way ticket to 'hell'. She's upset that her friend has 'gone to hell'. It's hard to deal with their way of thinking because I don't believe that...and they dwell on it. But...I will be there if she wants to talk about it.

He lived 1 block away from them as well.

I wonder at how surprised I am at myself. That 'suicidal ideation' seems to be almost a daily thought process for me now. I just dismiss it when it pops into my head for the umteenth time. I'm tired of living actually, even with the bright spots. It's SO much work! I think their friend just was too tired to deal with it anymore as well.

((Doody))

I wonder about the elderly too. Growing up, my circle of friends all had grandmothers living with them. My grandmother lived with us until she died, but she died when I was 2. My aunt, mom's sister, cared for her MIL in her home until she died. I remember her very well - a sweet old woman stuck in a chair. She had the SOFTEST lap. She also had a big smile and a dollar bill waiting for me when my dad wasn't looking. I wanted to take her home with us. Several years ago, my MIL's home was threatened by wildfires in AZ. As small as my house is, I was fully prepared to take in my MIL AND her husband if they had lost their home.

I wonder about a conversation I had with a neighbor about his grandmother. He said she lived with them when he was younger, but she spent the entire day watching TV. Her hearing was bad, so the volume was always very high. It was "too hard" on the family, so they placed her in a nursing home. Um, okay.

I wondered yesterday about some noises, but it was confirmed last night it was GUNFIRE! I was lying in bed yesterday afternoon, and I heard a few loud pops out front. Turns out, some new neighbors across the street have a dog-fighting operation going. The canine unit came out to retrieve the dogs, but one of them got loose. They had to shoot him.

I wonder if the spirit of Basile lives in that house. My parents were friends with the people who lived in that house, and they had a bloodhound that was really VICIOUS. He was vicious because he was kept chained up and neighborhood kids always teased him. The ONLY person he liked was my dad. He would let my dad take him off his chain, and my dad would let Basile run around our fenced in back yard. I was brave enough to sit out there with my dad, but I sat on top of the picnic table the whole time - just in case.

I wonder if it's okay if I wonder? I have never wondered here before...
I wonder how hard it is to make myself do the things I need to do, even when I want to do them. I hate depression. I need to wash clothes, I need to pack, I need to get off this computer and get stuff ready for the trip we are taking this weekend.
I wonder how Doody is doing now that I never see her online any more. I wonder how Moi is doing....and all of my friends here, old and new.
I wonder how much I would love to have a week to traipse around New York.
I wonder how it would feel to have time to myself?
I wonder how I would love to walk along the beach by myself...just for a while. I haven't been alone in so long. I know that being alone is hard for some people, but NEVER being that way is so hard for me.
I wonder if Kat will get here soon ( most of you don't know Kat, but HEY! I'm wondering here) and if she will give me crap for not getting the things done that I need to do. I think she might....
I wonder if that's her now...

I wonder if Alffe is using sandals to walk around NY so her feet match her tan?

I wonder if burntmarshmallow knows ckepi is a she with a little she child?

I wonder how AV8 and wren and are feeling today?

I wonder where David went? IM BACK!!!! Hello?

I wonder about how adorably cute moi's comments are and let him know that I will not be coming out to stay at his place cause I don't want another boy?!

I wonder where spanishmoss is?

I wonder if Doody knows that out of everyone I bring up the subject of my husband's suicide to, has also been touched by suicide themself or know of someone else? Did that just make any sense?

I wonder how my butt feels like it's glued to this chair again now that my computer is up and running again. I have gained 10 pounds in 6 months and I am small. UGH!

I wonder what my littlest was thinking about the other day when she got a spanking and went running through the house crying out for her daddy?

I wonder if ckepi knows that she said it just right when she knew she couldn't fix the problem, only he could and for himself?

I wonder where Bp is? Haven't seen any posts from her since my return. Or maybe they are in other threads I haven't gotten to yet.

I wonder if Portland will ever see any sun this summer?

I wonder at how proud I am of my Sara and of her making the honor roll 3 times in a year and now cheerleading. She was also elected by her school to represent them to the incoming middle schoolers of her elementary school. I love to tell this to everyone I know.
But I also wonder why I can't get her to pick up after herself and stop hiding junk under her bed?

I wonder at how it is my little Emma is such a cleptomaniac? The things I find in her pockets when I do laundry!

I wonder at how cold it is right now, but I am determined to take Nina to the doggy park today as she is feeling much better?

I wonder if Doody knows I have been thinking about her today?

I wonder what Kathym and curious is up to?

I wonder how much I miss twinkletoes? Alot!

I wonder if Alffe knows I am sitting here pondering the next trouble I am going to cause?

I wonder if Shelley has seen Roseblues' cupcakes....her fav! So glad you feel better Roseblue...

I wonder if no hope has ever had her ears pulled....beats spanking!.

I wonder if Doody will please post a new picture of the little man...he and Bruna are reason enough to live......... and good job on redirecting those thoughts!!

I wonder if Doody will smack me if we go back to the original date cause now Bizi wants to meet her and hang out at the beach too...

I wonder if Ducky knows that it's great to see her post....and go see Moi, Dales favorite!

I wonder if we walked 10 miles today....it feels like it, my dogs are barking!

I wonder why Twink isn't wondering and why I don't have her address..

I wonder if Abbie saw me wave at the security cameras in Times Sq...

I wonder when they will fix the traffic problems in this city...no one can get anywhere because the intersections are blocked....

I wonder if Barbo will be reminded of the documentary she recommended to us....it's bad...really bad here.

I wonder if that makes me sound like I'm not loving NYC....I love NYC!

I wonder if Curious knows that I miss her....I miss you all.