[who moi]

Spring sprints a little faster to us here at the lowcountry...

fields of yellow envelopes the earth, the cars, the buildings creating mystiques of presense of faeries (Sir Arthur Conan Doyle,anyone? LOL).

I have been avoiding going outside because of my severe allergies and it has triggered some tics and pains. But work is work and no yellow dust can take away the temptations of needing and making the green...

as I walked to my car I could already feel a big sneeze coming on. But I also felt a drop on my face.

It was the first Spring shower of the year...

I looked up at the sky, cloudy and grey. As drops started to fall, it was gentle and blankety...

I just had to stood under the rain for a little bit, to soak it in...to feel alive...

I stuck my hand out to catch some drops in my hand...it's wet, and a little sticky...but it felt alive as it jumped and exploded on my palm and danced its last dance in my hand...

I had to smile....as it sent shockwaves that surged through my body making me feel alive...

looking down, seeing the green of the grass that is greener than the George Washington in my pocket that I just made...

the green grass is alive....the cycle of it all....dormant when cold, alive when warm...

I literally stood there and watched the grass grow...

when the leaves fall and the trees seem dead, are they?

when the grass are brown and they seem dead, are they??

When our hearts are grey and brown and dark...is it dead???

When we are beaten by so many despairs and life has beaten our hearts to pulps that it feels like it is no longer beating..

is it dead???

Tis the season to revive the trees and the grass

the rain is lubricating and creating greens in the verdure making it crisp and springy....

the sun will give them all its energy....

So many of us have felt the bereft of our hearts lately...

hopeless, desparing and placed right next to the melons and the collies...

they say to stop and smell the roses....tis true....


but it's more than that...let every one of your senses bring you to life...let every inch of your skin feel alive....

Spring is here....wind up your hearts....let's dance.....

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my dear friends....you all are like the rain and the sun and the season that helps keep my heart alive....

I thank you all so much for your supports...I am deeply touched....

I hope as the Spring awakens, it'll help you rejuvenate that sleeping heart of yours and know that you are never far from my thoughts...

[snoozie]

Hi Moi, have not been around for a few so I missed the news of the kids. Saw it somewhere just now but not sure where...short attention span LOL

Congrats on the favorable outcome, I am so happy for you and Moss.

I love the rain, it wakes me up inside my heart. Still don't know why I live in the desert??

Been limiting my puter use since I hurt my shoulder and needed to rest but wanted to pop and share the love.

Love the new pic...Sue

[Doody]

I love rain too.

Little Cloud
© 1999 Mike Bosson

When we look at a cloud,
we look at it and call it a cloud,
but we know it is composed of other things.

Today it is a cloud,
but yesterday it was part of the ocean
and tomorrow it will be rain,
we know this and don't struggle with it.

We don't hold one stage as being
more important than the other,
the ocean is beautiful,
clouds are beautiful,
rain is beautiful.

When the cloud becomes rain
we don't say that the cloud has died
and lament its passing,
but it has died if we want to say
that the cloud no longer exists
in its previous form.

But we feel comforted because we know
that rain is essential to life on earth
and embrace the change,
the cloud in its new form.

It is only ego that holds that we are more important
than the cloud and makes us cling so dearly
to our present form.

From all I have observed in nature
and from within my soul,
I cannot believe that anything that exists
after death can be anything but wonderful.

[Alffe]

Doody you are just full of suprises...funny how we think we know someone so well and then..walla!

Sue I'm sorry your shoulder is hurting and if rain "wakes up your heart", I'm also suprised you live in the desert.

Moi I'm so proud that you are aggressivly working on a resolution to your progressive pain...(that didn't sound like me at all.*grin) Keep it up dude!

Rain...we need it to wake up the grass here. I know it isn't really dead, just looks that way. *whisper...I have those days too.

I hope Mistiis has fun snowboarding this weekend and I'm sure it will be hard to see her sister leaving. (Don't hurt your back!!!)

Pono, I know that you are in the throes of it...please know that the black hole has sides...and we are right there.

[pono]

as Winter - with all that SEASON brought & 'means' - - yields to Spring-- season of Rebirth , Renewal ...
many Signs of new Life.... and HOPE... seeing first flowers bloom on Vernal Equinox, the 'official' start - 1st day of spring cold, windy, snowing...

already "lost' thoughts-- distracted by phone calls--from sis-- 1st [grand]baby is on way...'reluctant' to come into this world.?? past "due' date- now slowly emerging.... this little one named in honor of his great-grandfather - my dad...

a new Life -- another reflection of this season -
many have anxiously awaited after long hard winter
this season of transformation will bring much, more....
messages coming thru..in many ways, forms, manifestations....
in nature & cycles, of Life and Death and more.....

another call --from nephew-- to update. baby not here yet, all going well tho slowly...
but even this 'good' newz update brought sadness {a 'delicate' sore family issue... in pile of so many, much -more pain

yin/yang


more i've wanted, hoped to say .... but 'lost' those thoughts now...
maybe later when less 'fogged'

hope Spring brings special BLESSings and more 'good tings'
new beginnings , renewal, Life
to & for all...
inc those in the other half of the world --going into "other" Seasons---
Blessings

[sabimax]

Moi, can I have some of your spring, as it is snowing right now..yes snowing!!! hugsss,sarah

[Nik-key]

((Moi)) such a beautiful post, I love the way you think and write

((Pono)) keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hoping the lil ones birthing goes smoothly, and helps you see a brighter light, hope, to hang on.

Autumn use to be my favorite season.. My Dad once told me there would come a time, when Spring would take its place. I am not sure how he could have know 25 years before it happened? But he is right. Autumn marks an end ... with Winter to follow. As beautiful as the changing leaves are, as much as they still have the power to awe me, now, inside me is a deep sadness that comes with it as well.

Now Spring, the season of renewed hope is my favorite. Yet not this year. Dad took that from me as well. Last night, I stood outside smelling the air after our first Spring rain..... something so remarkable about that scent! Looking in the distance, I could see a bridge. Bridges have never had any special connection to me, other than I fear going over the larger ones.

Yet, The thoughts I had about that bridge gave me more hope and peace than this world can now provide.

This morning while leaving my friends place, they are headed back home I was overcome with sadness in my life, my heart, my soul…. and said I wanted to start walking while they finished packing. I headed for the bridge.

I am not suicidal. Suicide is not an option for me. Ever. Yet, I am not sure why I wanted to reach that bridge so badly. I just knew it offered me peace. The car pulled up to pick me up, just as I entered the sidewalk to the bridge. I knew I had to get in that car, but the allure of that bridge was calling me. It still is. I got in the car, and did as ((Moi)) has suggested many times... I sat on my hands and breathed deeply.

I am home, but home just isn’t home any more. I am so friggin sick of saying good-bye it literally makes me sick. The urge to get in my car and just drive and drive and drive…….drive……is overwhelming.

Hope springs eternal my ***! One has to work damn hard to find their own hopes, reasons to hold on. I’m working overtime right now, but I will find a reason. We all will, we just need to keep searching and reaching out, and beyond our comfort zone. The thoughts are there… but we can’t give up, none of us… we know the hell left behind to the innocent victims left behind with suicide. No, it is not an option. Not a good one any way!!

The sun is out, I think I will go sit on my hands outside for awhile. Much love my friends

[Alffe]

Oh heart...you made me grin a bit dear Nikki..Hope springs eternal....
it's like telling someone whose heart is in pieces that "happiness is a choice"..what BS that is.

Stay away from the bridges...we need you in our lives.

[pono]

Originally Posted by Nik-key

((Moi)) such a beautiful post, I love the way you think and write

((Pono)) keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hoping the lil ones birthing goes smoothly, and helps you see a brighter light, hope, to hang on.

Autumn use to be my favorite season.. My Dad once told me there would come a time, when Spring would take its place. I am not sure how he could have know 25 years before it happened? But he is right. Autumn marks an end ... with Winter to follow. As beautiful as the changing leaves are, as much as they still have the power to awe me, now, inside me is a deep sadness that comes with it as well.

Now Spring, the season of renewed hope is my favorite. Yet not this year. Dad took that from me as well. Last night, I stood outside smelling the air after our first Spring rain..... something so remarkable about that scent! Looking in the distance, I could see a bridge. Bridges have never had any special connection to me, other than I fear going over the larger ones.

Yet, The thoughts I had about that bridge gave me more hope and peace than this world can now provide.

This morning while leaving my friends place, they are headed back home I was overcome with sadness in my life, my heart, my soul…. and said I wanted to start walking while they finished packing. I headed for the bridge.

I am not suicidal. Suicide is not an option for me. Ever. Yet, I am not sure why I wanted to reach that bridge so badly. I just knew it offered me peace. The car pulled up to pick me up, just as I entered the sidewalk to the bridge. I knew I had to get in that car, but the allure of that bridge was calling me. It still is. I got in the car, and did as ((Moi)) has suggested many times... I sat on my hands and breathed deeply.

I am home, but home just isn’t home any more. I am so friggin sick of saying good-bye it literally makes me sick. The urge to get in my car and just drive and drive and drive…….drive……is overwhelming.

Hope springs eternal my ***! One has to work damn hard to find their own hopes, reasons to hold on. I’m working overtime right now, but I will find a reason. We all will, we just need to keep searching and reaching out, and beyond our comfort zone. The thoughts are there… but we can’t give up, none of us… we know the hell left behind to the innocent victims left behind with suicide. No, it is not an option. Not a good one any way!!

The sun is out, I think I will go sit on my hands outside for awhile. Much love my friends

LOVE to you ALL
first b4 forget again ... ((Moi)) thanks - for this, sharing-thoughts, more....
agree w/ dear ((NIK)):grouphug:to both, ALL here in this special family~'ohana"
where all thougts, feelings, more shared means so much, touches deeply..
connecting when feel lost, empty, alone.... thanks ALL

its' taken awhile to get back here, to come back to SPRING --
on this cold windy SNOW day.... the season I feel within manifests outside.... as snow covers ground, blankets those first brave spring flowers.
Winter clings.... and this long intense winter seems to stream back & connect to last year in so many ways....

Last year i so looked forward to spring....during very 'bad' winter but ...
literally 'missed' spring , and most of summer.....
them FALL came, not as glorious as other Autumnal beauty can be but what this seasonwas, meant-- harbinger of WINTER...
thats hung so tightly ... so long...
and continues, now still winter.... in so many ways....

i "know" SPRING is 'here' officially .... but hard to see, feel, 'appreciate' what is...now ...
Grief, pain, Loss... more that's of Winter-- dark cold 'death' feelings
trying to see, feel that Hope, Renewal, ReBirth the essence of Spring...
get back in 'tune' Harmony with cycles, Seasons... Life...

)((Nikki))) thanks again, for sharing more.... your thoughts, feelings, about SEASONS...
the Bridge... calling you to 'cross' ......
your feelings of wanting to go... to drive & drive....
i understand... ( i thinks??
i tried to explaint this but don't know if did/can -- said i wanted to 'fly' away.... not walk or run from.... but 'fly'--
to someting "better" beyond this, that is, what is "here' now....
Let go and fly...
to warmth, 'better place' ...in that Larger World...
to new begininngs, Renewal, ReBirth... Spring..
into new cycle... Season in this LIfe...

NIKKI... you said so much i too feel, so much better than i ..... about HOPE
yes its 'there' but indeed Hard, seems constant 'fight' to maintain, attain...
but.... we do, are, trying to find way, reasons, strength, more..... to go on....
we must... or .... well, that's NOT an option, as you said dear sista Nikki...



ps little one did come --All doing well... my sis's first grandchild--she's very happy, and for her their family this Birth 'helps' heal. Loss of our DF...
baby will be named in honor of GreatGrandFather--my dad....
so they celebrate Spring with this New Life....


every end has a beginning; every beginning an end....

[Alffe]

Congratulations on the new baby pono...I love new beginnings.